The sun has barely come up from between the high-rise buildings when Eunhyuk find himself awake with sweat clinging to his body like film. “Ugh…Mmm…” The soft glare of the sunlight through the blinds caught his eyes and triggered a sudden onslaught of pounding on his temples. “!... Hangover…”

            Those damn brats tricked me into drinking so much…

            His head was reeling as he stood from his bed but forced himself to move as soon as the world righted itself again. Before proceeding to the bathroom like always, he went and turned the blinds closed hoping to diminish even a little the hammering of his head.

            Eunhyuk found himself stretching his hand in front of him to keep himself from falling flat on the floor. He was just too much stoned as it is. Rounding the corner to the bathroom he found himself face to face with Donghae. “Ugh!”

            It was just in the nick of time for Donghae to get hold of his arm before Eunhyuk would completely lose his balance. But it was just their luck that Donghae couldn’t keep them upright for long. The both of them landed on top of one another. “Ow!”

            “Mmm… ya, Donghae… are you just out of bath? Your shampoo…”

            Donghae looked at Eunhyuk who was just beneath him, with raised eyebrows. “What about it?”

            Eunhyuk couldn’t help but wrinkle his nose. “It reeks too much. My nose can’t take it—achoo!”

            A few of Eunhyuk’s spit landed on Donghae. “Sorry that it doesn’t suit your taste. It’s the only brand that really matches the hair type that I have.”

            “Oh, so that’s why… well, whatever…” Eunhyuk looked at Donghae. He couldn’t fathom what it is that keeps on bothering him about Donghae’s appearance. And it baffles him more what the girls see in him.

            “Hey… what’s this here?” Eunhyuk touched Donghae’s cheek and wiped it with a swipe of his fingertips. Donghae slightly recoiled from the touch. Eunhyuk’s hands were awfully warm in the cold early morning.

            “Oh, it’s my spit… Sorry about that…”

            Donghae lifted his shoulders in a shrug indicating he wasn’t really concerned about it. As he did so, it brought him even to a closer body contact with Eunhyuk. It was then that he noticed something. He turned his questioning gaze into the person below him.

            “Ah, Eunhyuk… did you just wake up?”

            “Hmm?...” Eunhyuk looked at him. “Woah… How did you know?” He muttered with utter guilelessness that made Donghae groan inwardly. He should’ve known that it would have been the answer expected from Eunhyuk. The guy often is too dense. Well, too often most of the days.

            Donghae cleared his throat and sheepishly, in a silent tone, muttered. “It’s in full banner.”

            Eunhyuk looked at him blankly. “Huh?”

            Donghae couldn’t help but draw his brows together in a frown. In an uncomfortable voice, the words fell from his mouth with conviction. “YOURS.  IS. UP.”

            It was a few more seconds before the words finally sunk in. “Oh!,” Eunhyuk exclaimed, “this?”. Suddenly Eunhyuk’s hands s between their joined lower half and grabbed hold of Donghae’s.

            “?!”

            Eunhyuk’s slender fingers seemed to tighten around the bulk of his front and it made Donghae almost moan but kept himself from doing so, gritting his teeth painfully shut together.

            “Eh? Donghae… are you in pain?”

            Donghae wasn’t even aware that he was frowning in deep concentration. Instead of voicing out his answer, he nodded his head in agreement. “Oh? You better sleep it off…”

            “Strange… I can’t feel mine…though I have been holding something like it…Hmmm… Where the hell is it? I’m sure it’s just here… I know I left it here just like every day… haha ” Eunhyuk chuckled at his own joke.

            “You …--“ Donghae involuntarily jerked when Eunhyuk’s hands moved everywhere and even the sudden rise and fall of Eunhyuk’s chest with his chuckle added to his agitation.

            “Ya! I found it!” Finally, Eunhyuk got hold of his and had let go of Donghae’s; who was slightly panting from the excitement that he just felt. “Oh? It really is up…Hmm… guess I better go and take care of it.”

            Donghae nodded in relief. “Y-Yeah… you better…” He awkwardly removed himself on top of Eunhyuk and proceeded to his room just around the corner. Donghae didn’t even bother to peek behind his shoulder to where Eunhyuk lays.

            Eunhyuk was looking at the retreating back of Donghae. “What’s up with him?” Heaving a long sigh, he pulled himself up and went on to the bathroom.

           

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 It was a cold and wet morning that followed on the next day. The weather seemed to dampen the spirits of everyone at the shoot. SuJu is preparing for the release of their newest album and they’re working hard for the live performance in the MNet Countdown stage. The brief exposure would be televised outside of their country as well. The members could feel the nervous tension for the upcoming date of performance.

            “Okay. Fifteen-minute break.”

            The group members sighed their relief and others proceeded to the restroom while some continued their break in the lounge room just for them.
            Eunhyuk was feeling icky and continued to the bathroom to relieve even one bit of that horridness... And he needs to pee. “Ah…” He yawned. “So tired… What will be the packed lunch this time? Kibum really makes good stuff… Unlike…” He dared not say the name and chuckled to himself.

            “Hey… What are you chuckling about? Is something funny?”

            Eunhyuk turned to look at Sungmin who was now at his side keeping up with his long strides. A smile automatically curved on his lips. “Huh? Ahahaha… I was just thinking something… and it kinda made me laugh when I remembered those times… Hehehe…” Eunhyuk couldn’t help ending with a laugh.

            Sungmin was having a baffled look on for a moment but smiled brilliantly next. “Well… It’s nice having to reminisce on something really funny… but the best part was seeing Eunhyuk’s laughing, happy face.”

            Eunhyuk’s smile was lopsided. He didn’t know what to make of Sungmin’s statement so he didn’t say anything. However, Sungmin’s smile was up to his ears. “Wow… Eunhyuk oppa’s troubled face is just too cute… Hihihi…”

            “W-what are you saying…? I’m not cute… at all…” The words slowed out of him as Sungmin braced himself in front of Eunhyuk. The seriousness of his face had gotten an entirely different effect on Eunhyuk. It was a face not to be reckoned jokes with.

            Sungmin, who seldom show his serious face, looked up to his sunbae. His gaze was full of conviction and something akin to a deeper and dark emotion.

            “Sungmin… can we talk later? I need to pee…”

            Sungmin looked at him with aghast and then only to chuckle loudly in the end. “Ahaha… you’re really something… Eunhyuk…”

            “Yeah… That’s what they always say to me… but I gotta go…”

            A swift sidestep and a loud bang of a door being slammed shut reverberated in the empty hallway. Sungmin looked back at the metallic door and smiling to himself left it. “He sure is funny… Oh, Eunhyuk…Soon…it’ll be soon…”

            “Ah…! Thank god… That was too much of Sungmin to keep me from my business…Anyways, what was that about? Is he asking me for a favor?” As he washed his hands and face he couldn’t help but wonder how much money he has. He took out his wallet and scanned the contents. “Ow… I can’t even buy a stock of canned drinks if I want to… I’m too broke…”

            “Hey, Eunhyuk, the rehearsal is gonna start within minutes.”

            “Yeah, I’m going.” Eunhyuk looked up to see Leeteuk at the door. He’s their leader so he pretty much does everything—even calling them one by one no matter how tiring it seems. He smiled at their leader. “Hyung, don’t stress yourself out because of us. Why don’t you let others do your bidding?”

            Leeteuk ruefully smiled at him. “Haha… It isn’t like that at all…I like doing this and me being the leader only shows that you chose me for this kind of job since all of you trust me. Isn’t it?”

            He’s right on with that…

            Eunhyuk could only smile.

            “Anyways, what were you looking at your wallet? Is something missing?”

            Eunhyuk shook his head. “No, nothing at all…  It seems Sungmin needs money so I was just checking if I have some extra that I carry around… Hehe… I just figured out that I’m completely broke.”

            Leeteuk frowned. “Weren’t the rent for the houses come tomorrow? Is yours settled already?”

            A big pile of shock and self-hatred slammed down on Eunhyuk. “I … completely forgot…”

            “I’m sorry, Eunhyuk… I and some of my roommates had already allotted the exact amount and it being the holidays, we just spent some of our savings on gifts to be sent to our family. We’re practically broke, too.”

            Eunhyuk couldn’t help but slump with disappointment. Their pay wouldn’t be until next week and the landlord was too strict to not allow one month without pay.

            “Isn’t Donghae your roommate? Can you turn to him for help? I’m sure he can do something.”

            Upon hearing that, Eunhyuk was overcome with joy and relief until he remembered one small tidbit. He looked at Leeteuk with tears in his eyes. “Hyung… He already took care of the last two months of rent… and I borrowed some money from him just a week ago…”

            “Oh, that’ll be kind of… burdening him, won’t it? Hmmm…And even Sungmin need it, huh?”

            Eunhyuk could only silently nod his head in agreement. It was too much to let Donghae pay their rent … again. It would be taking advantage of his generosity. What does he have to do?

            “Haven’t you paid him yet?” Leeteuk asked.

            Sadly Eunhyuk shook his head.

            “Then why not pay him now?”

            “Weren’t you listening to what I was saying earlier?” Eunhyuk looked at him with irritation and pity mixed together. “Hyung, you need to let the doctors check it up for you. It could be serious.”

            Leeteuk chuckled instead of getting insulted. Eunhyuk just says things out of his innocence than just being funny. That’s why everyone likes him and there are even some who love him. He can’t help but shook his head in bewilderment.

            “Well, are you aware that there are different ways of paying? For example doing his laundry, or his chores, cooking, cleaning.”

            Eunhyuk thought this out. With this kind of payment, he wouldn’t be troubled anymore by the money. And plus, this’ll let him save up for his long-awaited pc tablet. It actually sounds nice and he likes the idea. With this in mind, he smiled and looked at Leeteuk with admiration.

            “You really are an incredible person, hyung-nim… Wah! Thank you!”

            “Woah!” Leeteuk can’t help but mutter as Eunhyuk jumped on him and hugged him tightly. A chuckle escaped from him as he saw the scowling look of Donghae who wasn’t even aware himself that his wearing one.

            “Hmm? What?” Eunhyuk pulled away to ask him, though his arms were still on his neck.

            “Oh? Nothing… I just witnessed something… amazing.”

            Eunhyuk turned to look at behind him but only saw Donghae sipping a bottle of cold mineral water. “Eh? It’s only Donghae there? What’s so amazing with him drinking water?”

            “Hahaha… You’re right…Then, I guess it’s time for us to go to the stage already.” Eunhyuk unfurled his arms from Leeteuk’s neck and pulled himself from him. Without intending to, his gaze went back to Donghae. He was already talking with Siwon.

            They looked good together…

            Somehow that thought just popped out of his mind and he wasn’t really bothered with the idea of men-men relationship. Rather, he’s neutral about it. However, he doesn’t like Donghae talking to someone as handsome and charming as Siwon.

            He tore his gaze away from the two and grumbled on his feelings. What is he really mad about? Rather than thinking on it, he just let it pass and continued on through the day, the question lay unanswered already forgotten.

            “Uhg… tired…” Eunhyuk stretched his arms as he walked to the apartment. As he entered Donghae was just coming out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist and his hair still dripping wet. “Oh, hey…”

            “I’m finished so you can take a bath now.”

            Eunhyuk nodded his head. “Yeah, I’ll do that…--“ He was about to go in when something came to his mind. “Donghae—“

            Donghae looked back at him with curiosity. “Whar?”

            “Have you ever had a boyfriend?”

            Donghae almost dropped his jaw open. He was contemplating whether he heard him wrong so he didn’t say anything. Just stared at him: long and hard.

            “Hey! Did you hear me?” Eunhyuk stepped up closer to him, waving his hand in front of his face. Donghae took a step back from the gesture.

            “Did you say… boyfriend?”

            Donghae didn’t expect Eunhyuk to nod his head in confirmation. He can’t help silently asking himself if he looks like a homo. He is 110% male and dripping of testosterone—that he is sure.

            “No, I haven’t.”

            The answer brought disappointment to Eunhyuk to his utter surprise but he didn’t show it. Instead he smiled and asked what type of women Donghae prefer. “Do you prefer women who are tall? Or with big s?”

            Heat was slowly creeping up to Donghae’s face so he cleared his throat and tried to answer with a straight face. “I prefer women who are small and fragile looking… Why do you even want to know?”

            “As expected from Donghae. Your tastes are really different from mine. I want to get some points from you. Hehehe… To spice up my love life. Thanks, dude.” Then he proceeded to the bathroom without a glance back to the grim set of neither Donghae’s jaw nor his unsmiling eyes.

           

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“Hey, wake up.”

            The sound of Donghae’s voice roused Eunhyuk form his sleep. Blinking his eyes rapidly to the blare of the sunlight, he saw Donghae on the foot of his bed looking down on him. “What? It’s still early.”

            “It’s already 10 in the morning. Get up.”

            “Hmm… I don’t want to… There’s no rehearsal today.”

            “Eunhyuk.”

            There was an underlying irritation and frustration in his voice that made Eunhyuk jerk awake. Rubbing his eyes with his hands, he sat up from his bed, bringing the blanket to pool around his bare torso. Donghae’s eye lit up for a bit before he turned his gaze away.

            “You’ll get a cold sleeping that way.”

            “Huh?” Eunhyuk wasn’t exactly sure what was Donghae talking about. He was confused as to why he is even in his room. “Wh-What…?”

            “Nevermind… Have you forgotten to pay the rent yesterday?”

            Hearing that Eunhyuk gasped. “Aw, god… I forgot about it…” Eunhyuk looked guiltily at Donghae.

            “Then, pay for it now before the landlord gets pissed about us. You have the money ready?” His expectant look made Eunhyuk cringed with even more guilt. He can’t pay the rent so there’s no other way about it. He needs to tell him the truth.

            He swallowed his spit and gathered his courage. Looking straight at Donghae he confessed his sin. “Uh… umm… I-I—“ Clapping his hands together in front of him, Eunhyuk bowed his head. “I’m sorry I don’t have the money!”

            There was silence and Eunhyuk didn’t dare to look up and see the angry face of Donghae. After what seemed to be an eternity, he heard him sigh dejectedly.

            “I’ll pay the rent this time too.”

            “Really?! T-Thank you, hyung!”

            Donghae looked at him for a moment then left the room. Eunhyuk released a whoosh of breath, his hand atop his bare chest. Now, that Donghae is taking care of the rent, he needs to do something in return. A thought popped up from his mind making him feel excited and jumpy. He left his room in a rush and went to the kitchen.

            It was a few more minutes when Donghae came into the room. He stopped as Eunhyuk’s and the long length of legs peeked out from the apron greeted him. He was staring at them with shock when Eunhyuk turned to him. “Oh? You’re already back. Go on and sit and it’s almost ready.”

            “What made you cook our breakfast?” Donghae took a seat at the breakfast table.

            Eunhyuk flipped the omelet to a plate and went over to Donghae. “Hmm… Aren’t you glad that I do now?”

            “Of course… But something must be up since you’re doing your part of the chores.”

            Eunhyuk almost flinched but he managed to keep a smiling face. “Hehe… I want to practice for my future girlfriend.”

            “Hmm… Is that so?”  Donghae averted his eyes from Eunhyuk’s and took a sip from his coffee. His brows rose in surprise at the taste that met his tongue. “Did… you made this?”

            Eunhyuk has his back on Donghae and turned to give a glance to what he was referring to. When he did so, the apron slipped a notch from his body and revealed a pair of rosy and hard s. “Oh, the coffee? Yeah. Why? Does it taste bad?”

            Donghae can’t peel his eyes off from the pink mound of flesh. “N-no… It’s actually…I want to on it…more…”

            “Huh?... Did you say ? Do you want some candy? I only have a lollipop.”

            Donghae’s eyes traveled down farther and stopped between Eunhyuk’s legs. Yeah, you sure do.

            When the words had registered on his mind, Donghae was aghast. He mentally shook his head and berated himself for thinking dirty things to his maknae. Even to innocent Eunhyuk. What have gone over me?

            Eunhyuk sat himself in front of Donghae and took a bite of his food. However his eyes kept straining to the way Donghae closes his mouth on the edge of the cup. Strangely he felt himself go warm just looking at it. With the fork on his mouth he asked Donghae, “Ya.. Have you ever done a ?”

            Coffee almost spurted from his mouth but Donghae successfully held it and instead almost choke himself. He was coughing vigorously that Eunhyuk had to pass him a glass of water in which he drank greedily. “Wh-What… made you ask that?” He asked wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.

            Eunhyuk thought for a moment. He shrugged his shoulders. “Nothing really. I just thought you want some.”

            Donghae looked at him incredulously. Is he hearing things? It would be ridiculous if Eunhyuk was offering him a . There is no perfectly grown man raging with libido and who is perfectly straight would want to off on another man’s privates. Of course if he’s not straight.

            “Eunhyuk, I think I need to go back to sleep. I’m hearing things.” He stood up and turned towards his bedroom.

            When the door closed shut, Eunhyuk couldn’t keep himself from mumbling. “Ah… I’d gladly give you that … I’m good at it, you know?” He sighed despite himself.

            “Geh… Why am I saying these things out loud? What a bothersome fella.” His eyes still locked on Donghae’s closed door. Get it already….I like you…

            As much as he didn’t believe it himself, when he thought of all those feelings whenever Donghae is involved, he kinda accepted it. At first he was baffled as to why, he Eunhyuk, who likes to watch , would like to do it with Donghae, a guy. But not long after, the idea just suited itself and he isn’t really bothered about it.

            When he thinks of all the time that he and Donghae had shared, it wasn’t really remarkable at all. It’s just the usual hanging out between guys and nothing more. But still, these feelings developed within and then he was seeing Donghae in another light.

            The small things that Donghae had done were just insignificant to him then. But as days passed, he could finally see clearly what it is that the women love about Donghae. The guy was just absolutely great. It was because of his pigheadedness that he just noticed it now after all the two years that they had been friends.

            What an idiot I am.

            Then there’s still the issue of Donghae getting the wrong idea about him. The guy was just too damn ‘saintly’ to even think about him as someone totally innocent; who’s in reality likes to watch and touch himself while doing it. A frustrated sigh escaped from him.

           

 

 

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 “Hey, Eunhyuk, let’s go out drinking!”

            It was actually Friday and they’ve just finished appearing in the MNet Countdown. It was actually a success and the fans really liked their new album release. It seems there will be no problem with the sales and the only thing they need to hope for is top the charts. It was a day for celebration as far as Eunhyuk is concerned. However, he was not up to it, with the thing with Donghae still on his mind.

            Sungmin came up beside him and Eunhyuk looked at Siwon and the other guys going on the opposite direction. He raised his eyebrow in question. “Aren’t you going with them?” He raised his thumbs to point at the fading back of the others.

            Sungmin shook his head of brown straight hair. “Nah. I’d rather go out with the guy I like than be with them.” A radiant smile lit up his face.

            Eunhyuk grimaced. He is still bewildered as to why a cute guy like Sungmin is bothering himself with a guy such as like him? He’s just like any other guy. He shook his head mentally. Maybe he’s getting the wrong impression about the little guy.

            To ease the tension that he felt he chuckled. “Haha… I’d like to but I’m feeling a little down. I’m not up to partying yet.” He looked at Sungmin with an apologetic face. Seems the guy wouldn’t easily budge. A look of confidence was clearly on his face.

            “Then, isn’t it the best time to drink your problems away? Come on. When you sulk like that better to accompany it with alcohol so that you’ll forget it faster.”

            Eunhyuk let out a sigh and let himself be dragged by Sungmin into a sake house. A few hours later, Eunhyuk found himself listening to the troubles of a drunken Sungmin. He kept nodding his head in agreement though the words do not register in his mind. He kinda felt guilty though, but it’s better to agree in no particular reason than anger a drunken man.

            Eunhyuk gazed at Sungmin with an unfocused eye. The guy was already reeling from drunkenness and his face is somewhat red. He sat up straight to keep his mind about and took out his cellphone. Sungmin jerked with attention as he saw him punching numbers on the phone. “Y-Yah… wh-who are ya… calling? Don’t ya know… that’sh impolite… when you’re out with your… boyfriend?” Sungmin looked at him with a hurt expression on his face.

            Suddenly Sungmin stood up and left the table. “W-Wait… Sungmin!” He turned toward the waitress and signaled for her with their bills. It took quite some time to take care of it so when he exited the sake house; there was no sight of Sungmin anywhere. He dialed Sungmin’s number but it was turned off. He tried calling Leeteuk.

            “Hmm… Hello? Eunhyuk? What’s the matter?”

            He sighed with relief as he heard their leader’s voice. “It’s Sungmin. I can’t contact him in his cellphone and his drunk.”

            “Where are you right now? Have you tried looking for him? Maybe he’s just somewhere near. With his present condition he wouldn’t be too far.”

            Eunhyuk nodded. “Hmm… I’ll look for more. Maybe you’re right. But is there anyone in the group who knows where Sungmin would most likely be?”

            There was silence as Leeteuk contemplated it. “Oh! Kyuhyun should know where that guy went.”

            “Kyuhyun…?”

            “Oh? You don’t know? Haha… As I figured. Well. Good luck and I’ll phone you when I get hold of Sungmin. Bye.”

            Furrowing his brows together, Eunhyuk can’t help but think about Sungmin and… Kyuhyun. The two seemed to be harsh on another. At least on Sungmin’s side and Kyuhyun was just passive to everything Sungmin does. He didn’t know that there might be actually something between the two.

            For thirty minutes he looked every park and restroom that was near but there was no sign of Sungmin. Eunhyuk held his breath as he took the call from Leeteuk. “Good news. He’s actually at Kyuhyun’s apartment so no need to look and worry yourself with him. It was right for you to contact someone. Now, you go home and you’re also drunk aren’t you?”

            A tiny smile broke out from his lips. Leeteuk is really their reliable leader. “Yeah. I guess you’re right. I’m going home right away. Thanks.”

            “No problem. Be safe.”

            “Yeah.”

            As Eunhyuk climb the steps to their apartment, he can’t help but wonder if Donghae is already asleep. He sighed. “Probably.” The guy never waits up for him and is probably deep in sleep. He sighed as he pushed his key in the door knob. \

            Opting to not switch on the lights he proceeded to his room trying not to make a sound. However the instant he made the slightest creak the bright glare of the light filled the room. He was blinded for a moment so he had to take a minute to adjust his eyes.

            “Where have you been?”

            The sound of Donghae’s voice just in front of him, made him blink his eyes rapidly. “Donghae… I’m sorry if I woke you… Why are you still up?”

            Donghae looked at the couch and Eunhyuk followed his gaze where a rumpled blanket and pillow was propped up on it. Has he been waiting for me? Impossible…

            Donghae ran his fingers through his hair and sighed. “I was worried by you’re not turning up at the usual hour… I can’t contact you in your phone and nobody else in the group knows where you’ve been.”

            A warm feeling spread inside Eunhyuk’s chest and he tried to stifle it. With a pang of pain, he tried to conceal and bury the hope with a forced laugh. “Hahaha… I was with Sungmin… hehe… We went drinking and… we got drunk…. Who would’ve thought that I’m tougher than he is?” He walked on towards his bedroom without making eye contact with Donghae. He was becoming conscious of the intense look the guy was giving him.

            “Oh… I’m going to take a bath first before I go to sleep.” Eunhyuk looked back at the door. “I’ll lock it so no need to worry. You can go back to sleep. Thanks for worrying about me. You shouldn’t have.” He tossed offhandedly.

            “…”

            “Eunhyuk…”

            “Yeah, yeah… I’ll do the dishes.”

            The closing of the door indicated Eunhyuk went to his bedroom already. Donghae looked at it with longing and concern. He sighed deeply and proceeded to his own room. “That was not it… you dope.”

            Eunhyuk leaned on his closed door and clutched at his chest which was still bursting with that little hope that Donghae do care for him… even if just a friend. The stab of dull pain was suffocating that he had to take deep breaths to ease it. He want to be more than friends with Donghae.

            Possibly become his lover… “Ah… I’m really erted…”

             A sad smile curved his lips. “Of course… it won’t happen…”

           

 

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The past following days both Eunhyuk and Donghae had become busy with their variety shows and solo projects that they can’t properly talk and it was evident in the two that they had grown farther apart. There was this gaping hole between them and each is afraid to make a move. Leeteuk couldn’t keep himself from noticing what was happening between the two.

            It was an afternoon in one of the variety shows that prodded Leeteuk to talk to Eunhyuk. “Hey, there… Are you feeling alright? You seem to be down lately.”

            Eunhyuk couldn’t even open his eyes to look at their leader from all the lack of sleep that he had since the night he went home late and found Donghae waiting for him. His eyes were hurting so much just from looking at the harsh glare of overhead lights in the set. The pounding on his temple is a sure sign of an oncoming migraine.

            He squinted to look up to Leeteuk who was standing near his chair. “Y-yeah.. I think I can manage though without the lights.”

            Leeteuk frowned with concern. “Are the lights bothering you that much? Maybe we can request the director to dim it out a bit.” With a knowing smile Leeteuk muttered, “Or maybe your illness has something to do with Donghae?”

            With a sigh, Eunhyuk closed his eyes again. “Am I that obvious?”

            He heard a chuckle from the man beside him but did not take any insult from it. “Only to a few. Kyuhyun and Siwon clearly see your situation. And I believe even Ryewook and Kang-In are a bit concerned.”

            Eunhyuk snorted in disgust at himself. “Practically everyone in the group knows about, then? What the… I appreciate them keeping it to their selves. That was nice of them.”

            “Yeah. I’m not sure we can help you though with Donghae. That guy is so honorable. And he probably sees all of you as his maknae that he’s willing to look after like his own little brother. I can’t blame him though for thinking that way. You all act like children most of the times.”

            Glaring at Leeteuk, Eunhyuk can’t help but notice the glint of amusement that he saw in him. He was troubled by it but maybe he was just hallucinating from lack of sleep. Maybe that’s it…

            Leeteuk looked back to see the stage manager motioning for them already. “Come on we’re set.” He helped Eunhyuk to his feet by grabbing hold of his arm. When Eunhyuk stumbled from the dizziness, Leeteuk gripped him by the waist to steady his balance.

            “Thanks.” He muttered.

            Leeteuk smiled, his eyes looking like slits of half-moons. “No problem.”

            The interview went well but Eunhyuk couldn’t remember most of what happened. Though from the smiling and giggling whispers from the audience: it must have gone well. He wasn’t quite sure about that: his consciousness fading in and out of him, though barely.

            When he gone home, he found it empty, as what is happening nowadays. Donghae had become busier than usual that he would even spend the night outside or not go home for a few nights straight. He sighed. He can’t do anything about that.

            He stumbled through his room and left the switch off than risk having a hammering migraine. At least with the darkness, he could keep the pounding to a minimum. Exhausted, he didn’t even bother to change clothes and just flopped down on top of his bed, only loosening the jacket that he had on. He was feeling a bit warm than usual; sweat already forming a thin film on his forehead.

            He actually heard when he came home. The creak of the door opening and the soft thumps of his feet on the hardwood floor were easy to miss. However, to a person like him who was waiting, it couldn’t be easily dismissed. Small puffs of breath circled on his face as he tried to sit up from his bed but Eunhyuk only managed to stir up the painful throbbing of his head.  Defeated, he lay back down on his pillow and just let the opportunity to talk to Donghae pass. A small hot tear graced his cheek.

            “Must be from the fever…” He rolled onto his other side, hugging his life-size pillow with him in an attempt to abate the heat he’s already feeling on his right side. He was getting uncomfortable with all his clothes on. He tried getting up one more time and actually succeeded but not before triggering vast succession of headaches.

            “Dang these migraines…! Where the hell did they come from?”

            He swung his legs out of the bed and steadily made his way to the bathroom where he stripped until he was . Turning the showers full blast he stepped into the tub and felt the cold onslaught of shower on his burning flesh. It actually made him feel better.

            The sound of the shower going on just inside Eunhyuk’s room reassured Donghae that the guy was already safely home and was just taking a shower. He went into his own and did the same, the stress and the sweat of the day clinging to him. It was ten minutes later when he finished and took a carton of milk from the fridge when he noticed that the shower was still going on.

            He knocked on Eunhyuk’s door. “Eunhyuk.”

            After several firm rapping on the door, there was not even a single sound that answered to it. With a frown, Donghae the knob and it actually gave way to him. “Eunhyuk.” He looked around the room just in case he was worried over nothing and embarrass himself. But there was no sign of Eunhyuk—only the wrinkled jacket that he wore in the morning. It lay atop his bed and on the looks of it, was carelessly tossed aside.

            He turned to look at the bathroom door that was slightly ajar and found himself walking towards it. Just then, it opened and a wet and dripping Eunhyuk stood on its doorway. There was shock and surprise etched on his face as he was met by Donghae.

            Donghae isn’t actually the type to take advantage of someone: regardless of what is the situation. However, at this precise moment that door had opened and produced a sweet, dripping and innocent Eunhyuk in front of him, he hadn’t anticipated the way his eyes roamed hungrily over the length of his body.     

            It was a quick assessment but not before his mind imprinted every detail of Eunhyuk’s body to his memory. His eyes moved back to Eunhyuk’s reddening face. “You know… I could charge you for that look just now.”

            Donghae averted his eyes from the feast laid out in front of him and cleared his throat. “It seems you’re okay. You better dry yourself and put some warm clothes on before you catch a cold.” He handed him a clean towel and was just about to leave the room when he heard Eunhyuk say something.

            “I jerked off.”

            Donghae stopped upon hearing those words but he dared not look behind him. “You better go to sleep. You need to rest.”

            “That’s the reason why I took so long in the shower. Don’t treat me like I’m some innocent, naïve kid who only knows how to joke around.  I’m a man you know and I do have a hell of pride and it’s not pretty being compared to a child. God…”

            There was frustration in Eunhyuk’s voice as he said those words and it made Donghae stiffen.

            “I’m sorry if I’m … upsetting you. I’d keep that in mind not to treat you like a child. Thank you… for sharing your thoughts.”

            “What the hell…? You’re gonna up and leave like that?! Aren’t you aware that you’re just running from the real problem and doing nothing to solve it?”

            Donghae glanced a peek at him. “I am—What the fu—holy mother of …”

            Eunhyuk was shooting daggers in his direction with his eyes and his cheeks were burning pink from the emotions. He actually looked… cute like that but that wasn’t what caught his eyes. It was the thing below and just between the junction of his thighs. It was up and ready to fight with him. Only one thought came to describe it—ANGRY BIRD.

            The RED one.

            “Jesus… Why don’t you put a snap to that thing and then let’s talk.” Donghae let go of his façade and just let the words slipped out from him, already uncaring as to what Eunhyuk might think of him talking this way. He was just too tired to play the big brother with him. If he wants adult, he’ll give him adult.

            Without waiting for Eunhyuk’s reply, Donghae strode out of the room and couldn’t help himself to feel a little childish by slamming the door shut. The loud bang reverberated across the four walls and he flinched at it. God… Eunhyuk is making him do things out of his league. !

            Eunhyuk kept looking at the closed door with astonishment in his face. That was the first time he heard Donghae talk like that… and react like that to him. He looked down at his erect manhood, a smirk settling on his lips. “Nice one junior.”

            He shook his head the accrued exhilaration making him light on his feet and fast as he can move. Finally, Donghae will heed his complaints and hopefully his feelings. He winced. That is if he get around to confessing the damn embarrassing things.

            Finally dressed only with pants that were hastily zipped and ed and a jersey he found lying on the bottom of his closet, he went out of the room only to find it empty. A frown can’t keep itself from showing on his face as he looked around the living room.

            “Where the hell did he run off to? Damn him! We’re not finished yet.” Without preamble he strode to Donghae’s room and slipped himself in, not bothering to knock.  Anger burned itself within him as he found the room without a single sign that Donghae had been there.

            “Are you satisfied with wreaking havoc in someone else’s room?” The quiet question came from the doorway and Eunhyuk whipped towards it. Strangely, his anger quickly abated at the sight of Donghae.

            Donghae stepped into the room and quietly closed the door. Sighing deeply as if he was consigning himself to a nasty job—such as talking to him—Eunhyuk can’t help but feel insulted by that. He pouted and dropped his sorry hide on Donghae’s bed. The guy doesn’t seem to mind.

            Actually seeing Eunhyuk on top of his bed do affect Donghae in such a way that made him want to slap himself real hard. He grumbled and brooded on his lounge chair, looking at the barely dressed slender Eunhyuk also pout his way. He sighed. They’ll never go anywhere sulking at each other like this.

            “So what was it that really bothers you?”

            He was caught off guard by the question. As much as he liked to be honest to Donghae ASAP it seems he still can’t bear to be completely honest. No, not yet. His mind is not still conditioned to the image of him confessing to the guy. Gosh… what as issue… He felt disgusted with himself, being a coward like this.

            “If you’re not going to spill it, then that’s fine with me. You better leave and I want to sleep.” He started to stand up.

            “ you.”

            Merely a dark brow lifted in retaliation to the harsh words. However, there was no denying the fiery light of Donghae’s pupils as it burned in anger. Well, the twitching of his jaw is evidence that it was actually under control yet it was smoldering fire in Eunhyuk’s direction.

            “S-sorry…” I like you!

            It was on the tip of Eunhyuk’s tongue to let the words out but he didn’t.

            “Never mind that. I almost forgot you owe me money right? And two more months’ worth still. Why don’t we talk about that instead.?” He found himself sitting opposite Donghae again but he didn’t complain and sulk this time. It doesn’t matter to him anymore what they’re going to talk about. He’d just lose it with this guy.

            “So when are you planning to pay me? You know you really owe me big time. I’m not too keen on these issues but currently I’m in need of extra money.”

            It wasn’t so much his tone or voice that made Eunhyuk flinch. It was the mention of money. He didn’t forget those debts alright but he’s short on being a beggar himself. He had a lot to settle, too. “I’m sorry but I can’t pay you money right now. I also owe others in the group and they’ve been pestering me for almost a week now, you know… White day…”

            He couldn’t bring himself to look at Donghae so he was forlornly looking at the rug. If he was gifted of super laser eyes, he’d long ago drilled a hole seven mile deep into the earth’s crust. He’d probably dig it himself if he ever humiliate himself in front of this guy.

            He was contemplating whether to just pin down the guy on his bed and ravage him then and there or himself later in the evening. Donghae doesn’t like the way this talk is going nowhere but it’s better than nothing. But he don’t want to sadden Eunhyuk so sighing he stood up and opened the door. “Just pay me whenever you have the money. Doesn’t matter when as long as you pay.” Then left the room.

            He knew that Donghae had left the room but he can’t bear to look up, misery and pain weighing him down. Why not just spill it out? Why can’t he? He obviously likes the guy. BUT. He’s a freaking coward. When will he be able to tell him? Getting angry with himself, he stomped out of the bedroom and only to stop short when he found Donghae leaning on the kitchen counter, obviously waiting for him to come out of his room.

            Balling his fists, he punched him hard on the stomach. Donghae doubled over in pain. Tears were welling up on the side of his eyes and he could barely look at Donghae through them. “I like you!” The look of shock on Donghae’s face prompted him to even yell out, “How’s that?! Bastard!” Fleeing, he thought to seek the comforting confines of his bedroom but thought otherwise. But before he could reach the door, something grabbed hold of his arm and in a matter of moments, he was twirled around and being kissed hard.

            “W—“ For a few seconds that Donghae pulled back, Eunhyuk saw a fire burning deep into Donghae’s eyes. He was taken aback from it not because it scares him but rather the opposite.

            What the hell? I’m…a masochist? .

            But those few seconds was up and Eunhyuk was drowning again in Donghae’s kisses. He was finding himself relaxing with every of Donghae’s tongue inside of him: more like getting hotter and hotter still. The pleasure of intertwining their tongues was so heady that he was already shuddering from it.

            It was a few more minutes and a bedraggled Eunhyuk and panting Donghae pulled away from each other. Eunhyuk’s lips were swollen into deep red yet Donghae can’t stop himself from nipping on it with his teeth for a moment. “Mmm…”

            “Wait… Donghae… what’s the meaning… of this?” Eunhyuk asked between gasps of breath as Donghae continued to shower him with wet kisses.

            Donghae stopped for a moment and with fire in his eyes looked straight at Eunhyuk. “Can’t you get it yet?” Upon shaking his head, Eunhyuk got the most dazzling smile of Donghae. “I like you… you dope.” With that he kissed him passionately, tongues and all.

           

           

~END~

 

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*Hi! I’m back again! Haha!

*I present to you this… this short story that I concocted while I was away in the confines of my bed.

*Yes, bed… Wahh…’Speaking like this (the words above, mind you, is what I’m talking about)is so fun and interesting…

*Hehe… A thought just came across my mind. (-.-) it’s a secret for now.

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