I waited for you. God damnit, I waited for you.

I waited for so long, for you to come back to me.

But why?

Why did you have to do this to me?

We were in love, but you left me for your career.

You told me you loved me.

But I'm not sure if that was true.

You told me you were coming back.

But you never did.

I looked for you.

I waited for you.

I missed you.

And then I found you.

With another woman.

Do you know how much pain I felt?

When I saw you with her.

Tears streamed down my face.

They still do.

Why can't I stop crying?

I keep crying for you.

You hurt me.

But I can't seem to stop crying.

I shouldn't cry over a jerk like you.

But I just can't stop.

Why can't I stop?

I shouldn't have fallen for you.

I knew it from the start.

You and me.

Never should have happened.

I knew it all from the start.

That we could never be together.

Everyone told us.

Everyone knew.

But I wouldn't listen.

I thank you.

For helping me realize what a jerk you were.

But I still know.

That I'm still falling for you.

Everyday.

Every hour.

Why can't I learn to let go?

These tears keep falling.

They won't stop.

I hate you.

I hate you so much.

I thought you were kind.

I thought you were sweet.

I thought you were the one.

But you were just a player.

I thought you were better.

But then you went and betrayed me.

Do you know how hard this is for me?

I keep crying.

Crying for something.

Something that I know I will never have.

Because he will never love me back.

Never once did he love me.

Never once did he like me.

Never once did he look at me.

Never once, were we in love.

I realize that now.

That I was delusional.

I  never fell for him.

Even though I believed it.

I was ignorant.

Stupid.

Gullible.

For believing everything he told me.

He told me he left for his career.

But it was for another woman.

Maybe he knew this was going to happen.

Maybe he knew we were going to end.

Maybe.

As memories flood me.

I cry once again.

These tears.

Won't stop.

I fell for the wrong guy.

I fell for Lee Minhyuk.