The lyrics are romanized.

While reading this fic, remember to listen as well to SNSD's Star Star Star

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1, 2, 3, again 1, 2, 3
Stars, I'm going crazy

My grandfather once told me when I was only a little boy, that when a person wishes upon a star, all of his dreams will come true.

From that day on, whenever I feel down or weary, I always visit the hill near our house every night and look for the biggest star shining among the waves of light.

I lay my back on the grassy land, close my eyes, and wish for the bad things to be sent away.

It has been my sanctuary for almost eighteen years.

Until one day, I wished for the girl of my dreams...

No matter how many times I look at you, I can't see you, oh baby
Because of the tears in my eyes, all because of you
My crying face that is reflecting above the spread letters, oh baby
I promised myself I wouldn't cry again, but I'm crying again

And it did come true...

I finally met Jessica Jung.

My sanctuary hasn’t been the same the day I first met her.

I always ask her to come over and join me to wish every night.

 
What do I do, I don't know what to do, what to do
This is me, I don't know why I'm going crazy like this
All because of you, really because of you
I can't do anything, I 

One time, I brought her to the church where my parents married.

She at that moment asked me out of the blue

“Oppa, what did you wish for...what are you always wishing for the star?”

I told her that it wasn’t just a wish but a promise to love her forever and marry her in the same place where my parents exchanged their vows to love each other for eternity.

Love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars
I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star
Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say
I really can't express myself
I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

At last, we got engaged and immediately prepared for the wedding

But wishing is just not enough...

Jessica and I were promoted in the companies where we work. They brought us to different places...far places enough to separate us. People say that long distance relationship isn’t a hindrance as you long as you love each other.

But it didn’t work for us

We were too occupied by our jobs to the point where we forgot to celebrate our 2^nd anniversary...not even remembering the date. We made the decision to postpone the wedding to focus more on our careers.

Until we became so fed up with each other...And we had this choice to break-up personally

We never cried nor even tried to ask for another chance

No matter how many times I count, I can't see the end, oh baby
Because of all the memories that are in my heart, I think of you again
I couldn't say everything I wanted to so I say them to myself, oh baby
I want you back, I want to go back to your side

We just simply turned around, said our final goodbyes, and walked in separate ways.

It was our choice

A choice which I completely regret

We had no connections for three years. I thought I was free.

I was wrong.

I dated different women but none of these relationships lasted.

I was always the one always asking for a break-up. I attempted to search for answers and ask ‘Why?’

Why?

I do still love her.

 ...the girl whom I wished for the star...Jessica

I'm pleading to you, please, I'm pleading to you
To the sky, my prayer goes to the sky
Cheer me up, cheer me up
Please, where are you now

I made an effort to look for her but she wasn’t traceable

All was left in me was hope

Hoping she wasn’t taken by somebody else

Once again, I returned to my sanctuary, rested on the grass, closed my eyes, looked for the biggest star, and wished again.

I wished for Jessica to come back to me or if not...to see her once more.

And it was that defining moment when I heard footsteps coming to my direction

I opened my eyes to search where those footsteps are coming from

And there she was...

There was Jessica standing in front of me

My heart stopped. For some time, I forgot how to breathe

It was though as if the time had come to a halt

Jessica then stepped closer and sat next to me

She turned to look at me and smiled. But there’s something different in her eyes...it seems sad

I asked her “Why are you here?”

“I would like to wish” she replied

Jessica afterwards rested her body on the grass, closed her eyes and is probably making her wish. Just like the old times.

Stars, stars, stars, stars, talk to me
Is it over? Is that it? Answer me, don't just laugh
Stars, stars, stars, stars, I'm pleading to you
Just for once, my love
Let me fly to your side

In the midst of wishing, she spoke “I’m getting married in two days time”

Those words...I can’t still disregard the feeling...the heartache it caused me

That impulsive realization hits me and tells me that I cannot love her...

...to stop wishing forever

“What do you expect...I’m getting married in the same church where your parents married” she continued

GREAT!

I want to shout at hear, scowl at her and inform her how unfair she was, but instead, I just kept still and weep in front of her.

I don’t care how she thinks of me. Maybe it was just only a coincidence

“My fiancé chose that place because it was also the same church where his parents married. What a coincidence, right?”

It wasn’t just a coincidence, it was my dream for us, Jessica. But your fiancé took it away.

I cannot judge him though. Maybe it was really his verdict.

The girl of my dreams sat up from her position and started to cry silent tears as well.

She looked at me straight in the eyes.

“Donghae...do you want to know my wish?”

“What is it?”

"I want you to remember me"

In a split moment, she tilted her head and placed her lips on mine.

Star, star, star, ooh baby, star, star, star, oh

It was like fireworks

It was magical

It was indescribable

It was chaste but a real kiss.

I can, in spite of everything, feel the touch of her lips the first time she kissed me...the second...the third...and so on.

And this might be the last.

It is.

To end things visibly, she just merely walked away and said her final “Goodbye”

Now.

I stand here outside the church I promised to marry you.

I stand here to watch you marry another man.

Wishing is not enough. We have to need dedication, determination, and commitment to live it up.

Or maybe, Jessica wasn’t really for me.

They also say that when a person dies, after thousands or maybe millions of years, he will live again and meet the same people he met in the past.

As for me, I would like...I’d wish to meet Jessica once more in the future to ask for another chance and relive all the memories we had...

I love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars
I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star
Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say
I really can't express myself
I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

...even just for once.