"Three years ago when I came to know Mary,

The first time someone look beyond the rumors and the lies,

And show the man inside,"

 

Author's POV

No one understand Kyuhyun as a child with a mental retardation except his father, his mother and his driver, Shin Ryujin. Right now, Shin Ryujin is trying to be patient in handling Kyuhyun. Whether he liked it or not, he should do that because he's the only one who left to take care of him. Ryujin sighed again, while looking at Kyuhyun, who still sat beside his father's grave. Every week, since his father died, Kyuhyun asked him to visit his grave for at least 2 times a week.

Cho Seungmin, Kyuhyun's father, died after swallowing cyanide shortly after he came home from work. Ryujin knew that it was all his fault, who was controlled by the power of lust rather than loyalty. Fortunately, Kyuhyun didn't know that his mother and Ryujin were the one who made his father died. Well, the incidence which happened last year was a shame and he promised to keep it until he died.

"Hey, Kyuhyun! We better go home now, rain will come soon," Ryujin repeated his sentence for the third times. This time, Kyuhyun looks to obey his words and started to stand up. While still looking at his father's grave, he closed his eyes and started praying, hoping he might still be given the strength to live his lonely life.

"Let's go home!" Kyuhyun finally said after praying. Shin Ryujin gave him a nod and followed from behind.

Kyuhyun's POV

My father's death isn't the end of everything, because I know sooner or later, everyone will leave me. They will leave me, slowly. Starting from my mother, then my father and maybe later, Ryujin hyung? I don't know. I can't read their minds. I don't know why al of them have to leave me. Are they ashame to have a son/a friend like me? Are they no longer able to take care of me? I never knew the reasons, because they didn't let me know.

But there's still one person, who I knew 3 years ago, someone who always come to me ever since she moved next door. Her name is Choi Sooyoung. She's tall, has a bright smile, chubby cheeks, long hair and skinny body. I really like her smile, maybe because it's contagious or maybe because she looks beautiful whenever she smiles, or maybe...

"YAH CHO KYUHYUN! I thought you've moved to another city! Where have you been?" It's her. Sooyoung already stood in front of my house's door. I rolled my eyes and sighed, "From my father's grave. So, what are you doing here? Your mom will be really mad when she saw you here, talking to a boy who has a mental retardation like me," I said as I passed her.

It's her turn to roll her eyes and stopped me from entering my own house. "You know that I don't really listen to what my parents taught me, right? So what's your problem now?"

I don't know. I feel extremely annoyed everytime people blames and forbid me to make friends with anyone. I know that I've suffered for a mental retardation, but why can't I have a friend?

"Oh, come on Kyu! We've talked about this before! I want to be your friend and my mom can't forbid me to do such thing! But now it's up to you," she said as she removed her hand from my arm. I shook my head and kept silent. I don't know why I did that but I'm sure Sooyoung didn't like my attitude.

"If you changed your mind, you'll find me inside my room. I hope you came," she said softly and walked away. I heard Ryujin hyung mumbled something, but it doesn't really matter. I'm 17, no one can control me now. I went inside my house, running to my room and slammed the door. I'm angry with the fact that stated I'll be forever alone. I'm angry with my situation. I throwed everything which are located right in front of me. I'm yelling and breaking my mirror. I can see my reflection there.

I looked really crazy, with my messy hair, flushed face and weak body. Ryujin hyung suddenly showed up and shouted, "Are you okay, Kyuhyun? What have you done?!" I looked around, all things that should be located neatly on the table was thrown. My room looked really messy. Some are broken, some are still good. I regret and cry to what  I have done.

"Hey, calm down," Ryujin hyung tried to calm me down. My shoulders began to tremble and tears started to streaming down again on my face. "This, take your medicine," he said as he gave me a white pill and a glass of water. I shook my head, I'm not relapse, I don't want to take this medicine. But Ryujin hyung seemed to force me and I can't refuse him because he's just like my older brother.

I took the medicine, then swallowed it, then wiped my tears away. Slowly, I begin to feel sleepy and my eyes are half-shut. I looked at Ryujin hyung who's sitting beside me. His face is softened and he said, "You'll be fine," and everything went black.