Lee Joon his lower lip, feeling the awkward tension silences between them and suddenly sighed, causing Doo Joon to look up, getting out of his sleep. He part's his lips, but Lee Joon instantly interrupts declaring, "we need to talk", and walked passed the handsome male. But his hand shifted behind him, grabbing Doo Joon's wrist, dragging him inside with him. Lee Joon had been to the BEAST dorm before, actually several times with his friend, Ki Kawang, with MBLAQ to celebrate with Beast and he has been alone with Doo Joon before to study, in his room. This shouldn't have felt knew to Lee Joon, but something was rather new, something unfamiliar. As the thought's began to cloud his head, Doo Joon had fully awaken from his sleep and followed, no, being dragged towards his own room in confession. What is he up to?, Doo Joon thought as they both entered his room. Lee Joon felt go of Doo Joon's wrist and closed the door behind him, no, he brought his full attention towards the door and securely locked it as Doo Joon rose a brow, confused mentally.

"Yeh! what are you going Hyung, is this really the time for such ---"

"we need to talk", Lee Joon repeated as he turned to face the younger but handsomely male. Doo Joon sighed, in confusion and sat on the edge of his bed, wanting to question what was so important around this hour that he was woken up for. He sighed again, exhausted as his sleep was interrupted, but his gaze followed Lee Joon as he approached his study desk, that was staked with books on both ends while in the center was is closed laptop. Lee Joon opened the surface of the laptop and began to enter his email account as Doo Joon rose a brow asking dully,

"you don't have internet or something Hyung?", getting slightly annoyed now. But suddenly his eye's rose as he saw Lee Joon turn his slender sculpted body to the side relieving his email lit on the laptop's screen. Doo Joon stared at it and read the sentences suddenly realizing it was his diary entree, in, Lee Joon's inbox? Doo Joon's facial suddenly flushed with embarrassment and horror, not knowing when or how his note was sent to Lee Joon. Suddenly Doo Joon couldn't glance up to see the beautiful facial of Lee Joon's, afraid it might contain disgust. But rather Lee Joon stood, in silences and asked in a very strict hush serious tone, wanting an explanation, or so, Doo Joon thought he was about to hear. Rather Lee Joon softly yet in his serious manner asked,

"is this yours?", Doo Joon swallowed and glanced down, sitting quietly. If I don't answer him, he won't know, he won't question anymore, he thought and processed on doing just that. Lee Joon, however continued to ask the beautiful male repeatably wanting an answer, as he was eager to know.

"Doo Joon, answer me", "is this yours?", "did you send this to me?", the only thing Lee Joon didn't ask was why, and with that Doo Joon felt abit relieved. As thought's clouded Doo Joon's mind whether to relieve or not, to ease Lee Joon's curiosity; he wasn't able to handle the idea, that maybe, Lee Joon will detest him. His throat began to burn as a tightness was gripping a hold on his chest, suddenly he saw a slender smooth thin hand on his knee. It was Lee Joon's, as he bent down in front of him and asked in a soft hush tone, soothingly practically, "Doo Joon-ah, please tell me, are those your words?..."; this tone suddenly caused Doo Joon's pulse to rush as he parts his lips wanting to relieve the truth. Yet no words were escaping his mouth as it instantly felt dry, he however, did manage to nod a no. Lee Joon's soft facial suddenly sadden as he stood up, feeling slightly hurt but brought his posture back saying a hush tone, "fine". He approached the doorway as Doo Joon looked up, his eye's following the gorgeous male going towards the door to unlock. Although Doo Joon should have felt relieved, his ears suddenly caught Lee Joon's remark,

"if you didn't send it, someone in this house did and I will find out just now ---", Lee Joon stated cutting off his own explanation of action he was about to perform. Doo Joon instantly shoot up to stand and ran after Lee Joon, holding into the edge of his doorway and gripping Lee Joon's wrist to halt him from his movement. Knowing how impatient Lee Joon was, he wasn't going to allow him to wake 's up and cause a scene, a scene that it was only involved in now. Lee Joon stood in his track but was abit angry and upset rather, feeling as though a cruel practically joke was played on him just now. He vigorously tired to snatch his arm out of Doo Joon's grip, but it was no use as he was instantly pulled back inside. Doo Joon pulled Lee Joon inside and pushed him firmly to the side as he stood watching him close the door again. Doo Joon, turned to face the confused, hurtful expressing Lee Joon, his beautiful facial expressed infantrymen and aching. With a swallow of his pride, Doo Joon looked at him directly and declared,

"those are my words, Changsun...", he was caught now.

Lee Joon’s P.O.V, in first person. The story will be through Changsun's view now, it's much easier for me.

I looked over my shoulder at Doo Joon and slightly narrowed my eye's after the brief pause we had. He suddenly sighed and released my hand and took that as a sign of disgust as he began to apologize to me,

"I shouldn't have said or even thought of such things",

"I don't know what got over me, it's probably the recent schedules that must have messed with my mind",

"I'm really sorry Changsun ---"

"what exactly are you sorry for?", I instantly asked cutting him off. I turned to face him, my eye's still narrow in slight confusion. I was expecting Doo Joon to pour his remaining heart since he was caught, rather he had that mature posture I admired so much. As leader, he clearly fit his role, never easily breaking down, even with such a situation; he remained calm and hush. But I was rather confused honestly, what was he apologizing for?

"For admiring you in such a vulgar manner", he stated with a hint of question, unsure if that was how he wanted to apologize for the embarrassing revealed information.

"vulgar?", I asked. It slight hurt me knowing, loving me in such state would be considered vulgar to Doo Joon, I found the word suddenly repulsive as I shivered slightly. I suddenly lowered my lashes and began to chuckle,

"loving me in that manner is considered vulgar?", I asked directly as the sly smile lingered my lips involuntarily. I was honestly hurt at the point, I tired my best to laugh at this situation. Doo Joon gazed at me quietly, unsure what to say, so I continued.

"Doo Joon-ssi, I'm loved my millions of girl's and boys, in such a manner", I emphasized the 'boy' ending abit. He glanced down to the the side to look away from me, my chest tighten as I asked softly,

"are you sorry because you regret loving me? ---",

"No", he instantly stated and gave me his full attention. I exhaled deeply, feeling relief.