Chapter 1: It’s been months and it still hurts like hell. A few days ago Sanha posted on his instagram in memory of Moonbin and I cried so hard. Moonbin was a beautiful person, and I’ll always miss him. We’ll carry his memory with us, always. Thank you for remembering him, it’s a small relief we’re not grieving alone.

I'm crying so much right now. I'm devastated. He wasn't my fave member but I really liked all of the members of Astro. He's the original reason I followed Astro's career since debut. TVXQ are my all time faves, and Balloons was the first TVXQ song I ever heard. When I heard "mini Uknow" was going to be in a group I was happy for him. I immediately loved Astro. I really liked his personality, always enjoyed to see him in DDOCA videos, respected his talent and the fact that he never used the "mini Uknow" title for status. He always seemed friendly and fun in videos. I swear, I just want someone to say its not real. Please say that someone was lying online and he's fine! After Jonghyun... it hurt so much. Why does this keep happening?!

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