SUNRISE — [WOOGYU]

Words Count: 3,615 (all words) and 3,567 (story only)

[...] 

I don't know if you were scared.

but the dawn

will arrive without fail

Waking up in pain,

in the existential dark

waiting for the morning to come

She's the sunrise, my rise (My everything, baby, you're my everything) [...]

— MINO, Sunrise

A sigh escaped Sunggyu's rosy lips as she rolled over for the fifth time in bed. No matter how hard she tried, sleep wouldn't come at all.

He opened his eyes in frustration, but all he could see was darkness.

That was definitely his biggest frustration. Sunggyu would never understand why he was born without being able to see anything but infinite pitch. It was a real torture for him, even though he got used to living like that all his life, he still felt agony without being able to know what the colors he knew so much by names were like, what it felt like to be able to read a book, as well as being able to watch the sea at sunset.

He couldn't enjoy any of this. It would never stop frustrating him.

"Are you still awake, love?" — Woohyun's voice woke him from his thoughts.

Sunggyu sighed again, feeling his entire body tingle with the husky voice of someone who had just woken up from his boyfriend. He would never get used to that intense, deep voice in his ear.

“I can't sleep again." — He said simply, rolling over onto his back, though he still couldn't see anything.

Woohyun watched his boyfriend still with drowsiness weighing on his eyelids. He was tired too, but he couldn't help but worry about his boyfriend.

Sunggyu's opaque, unfocused eyes stared at the ceiling, or rather, searched for something to fix his gaze on only to be in vain. The dark circles under his eyes from so many sleepless nights were present under his eyes, growing purple and deeper.

At times like this, Woohyun would wish to end all the evil that haunts Sunggyu's mind. If he could, he would dispel every one of those who took away his peace and robbed him of a peaceful sleep, all to torment him and constantly remind him of thoughts full of self-sabotage. Those thoughts looked like real madness to Woohyun's eyes, after all, his boyfriend was perfect for him, but it wasn't what Sunggyu believed or thought most of the time.

He carefully wrapped an arm around the thin waist of his frustrated boyfriend who turned towards his chest and buried his face in it. Despite the unfocused gaze, Sunggyu enjoyed being in Woohyun's strong arms. Only he could convey such security and warmth to her, he wished he could close his eyes and let himself go by that soft and calm sea that was to love Nam, but for him, things weren't that easy.

"What's bothering you, Gyu?" — Woohyun woke him up again from his deep thoughts, smiling so that the dimple in his cheeks was present. Sunggyu only knew this from hearing people around her always praise her boyfriend's beauty. He also noticed as soon as he touched his cheeks, as he smiled. Woohyun should have a dazzling smile. It was just one more reason for Sunggyu to be so frustrated. — “Tell me who they are. I'll pull those weeds out so you can sleep in peace."

It finally made him smile. Sunggyu also had such a beautiful smile.

Woohyun loved seeing him smile like that so much.

Just like Sunggyu's heart that raced whenever he worried about himself.

“I'm fine, Woohyun." — He tried to soothe him, touching his left arm. He slid his fingers gently until he found his hand, which he withdrew from her waist to intertwine both of their hands. — “You worry too much."

Woohyun smiled even more softly, kissing his boyfriend's forehead. Pulling the strands out of her forehead and in front of her small, opaque eyes.

He would never get tired of admiring Kim's beauty. The same was someone with such a kind soul that Nam wondered if he was really real, in the same way that Sunggyu also wondered whenever he heard how much he loved him escape from the other's lips.

It was just so cruel to have someone like that, so beautiful, so perfect, and not be able to have the basic ability that everyone else had, which was the ability to see.

Woohyun would never understand what Sunggyu's world was like, but he knew it was deeply sad to live in such an empty complex. It was like existing and not at the same time.

Sunggyu couldn't witness the wonders that existed in the world, whether it's little things like the garden that Woohyun's mother tended every day and was so proud of, the river that ran through the city bridge that was always breathtaking during sunset. sun, or even famous places where nature was mesmerizing. After so many thoughts and reflection on it, Woohyun had concluded that he would do his best to show Kim how much he loved him. Even though Sunggyu couldn't see the size of his smile every time he saw him, he could still hear his heart racing and the sound of his joyful laughter.

He would do anything to show his boyfriend how special he was and how much he loved him just the way he was, — Woohyun would do anything to see him happy

“You have many qualities, Gyu." — He started to say, the soft skin of his boyfriend's hand with his thumb. — “But lying isn't one of them."

Sunggyu laughed, lightly closing his eyes in a way that was extremely adorable to Woohyun's gaze.

"Nothing goes unnoticed by you, does it?" — He joked in a friendly and amused tone, rare moments he allowed himself to have fun without realizing his limitations.

This time, Woohyun laughed. His voice sounded like music to Sunggyu's ears.

“I worry about my boyfriend, obviously not." — Woohyun extended his hand towards his beloved's cheek, allowing himself to leave a light caress on it. — "Tell me what torments you so much, Gyu."

The smile that had formed on his lips slowly faded, like a ghost of the happiness that had been moments ago.

It was always like that for him. Everything was momentary.

It was surprising how that love even lasted longer than he'd expected, but Kim knew that this too would be momentary.

Gently, he moved away from Woohyun's body, returning to lie down with his opaque gaze directed at the ceiling.

He was grim once more. With his stone cold expression and his jaw clenched in anger, frustration or whatever else Woohyun was aware of filling his heart at that moment. His fingers curled into a fist and then loosened, a common habit she realized he possessed. Sunggyu used to do that whenever he was angry or frustrated, he had discovered one day, when Kim was accidentally hit by a baseball on one of their dates, when they stopped to see students playing that day. He felt like laughing at the memory, but he remained silent with a silly smile on his lips.

Woohyun couldn't help but notice those little details that would go unnoticed by other people, he was always passionate about everything that involved Sunggyu. He wished he could change the way Sunggyu seemed invisible to others, wished he could convey the same security Kim conveyed whenever he kissed him and told him that he loved him too.

"Don't you think it's funny?" — He asked suddenly, breaking the silence between them and waking Woohyun from his deep thoughts.

Woohyun yawned, noting the time on his bedside clock. He must have been awake for half an hour by now, since it wasn't long before the clock struck four in the morning.

"What is funny?" — He asked, slightly confused by his boyfriend's speech.

Despite being tired, Woohyun struggled with sleep. He wouldn't sleep at such an important time, not when Sunggyu needed him most.

“How we look like a fairy tale." — Woohyun frowned in confusion even though Kim couldn't see it, although he silently knew about his boyfriend's habit. — “Those tales where there is an impossible love, a tale where the