L.JOE'S POV

"Oppa! Look at this!" said ~~~~~.

I turned to see her up on a hill looking at something. Her face was enlightened with joy and admiration. I climbed up to see a nice view of the town. Really breath taking but not as breath taking as the girl next to me.

"Waaaah! Oppa you can see everything up here!"

She looked up at me with twinkling eyes. Cute if I must say. We decided to just sit down and enjoy the view. Her snuggling up right next to me. I felt at ease with her here. Me just holding her makes me feel like I'm on top of the world.  It was a nice moment. To think for three months I lived with out this girl. It was torture for me. Looking back now, I wonder how I survived. 

Flashback

"Wow you look so pretty!"

"Did you do something new with your hair?"

"You look like a model!"

I turned to see what all the commotion. I didn't understand what every one was really fussing about.  I strained my neck to see what every one was crowding around. My eyes landed upon something different. The back of a girl. Long straight hair. Perfect body. She looked good. Now who is that? Couldn't be some one new. They act as if they know this person. 

My questions were answered when the girl turned around. Smiling brightly. It was breath taking. I knew who this was. It was ~~~~~. We broke up not that long ago. It didn't even last long. She just sent a text saying it's over. Honestly I wanted to ask her about it. I had to much pride though. If she didn't want me anymore than fine. I'll survive. I've been Ok so far. Well not really. I've been doing my best to avoid her.

Anyways seeing her like this was new. Gone were the braces. Gone was that high ponytail that would slightly be more towards the left. Gone was the slightly large uniform that hid her perfect figure. That was all gone. It was all replaced by perfect shining teeth, beautiful long and silky looking hair, and a uniform that fit her perfectly. Stop it L.Joe. Don't look at her. It'll only hurt you more. You can live without her. Yet inside my head all I could hear was a little voice telling me not to ignore and go to her. 

I saw her walking up to me with that smile of hers. It was like the world just turned brighter. It almost made me smile back at her. Almost

"Hi L.Joe." she said. 

Her voice sent tingles down my spine. Slightly high pitched with a hint of aegyo as it always was. I did my best not to let my emotions get the best of me. I kept my face as straight as possible and quickly walked away. It was hard. It even took all my strength to not turn back and run to her. Embrace her in a bone crushing hug and beg her to come back to me. 

Days past and she still looked amazing. Every day she just got more beautiful. It may not seem possible but in my eyes it was possible for her. She shined like the sun to me. She stuck out to me. It was like there was a spotlight on her, expressing her beauty in many ways. I was always left in a daze. There was one thing that annoyed me though.

"~~~~. Please go out with me."

"What's up beautiful"

"Yo y go out with me! I can make all your dreams come true" *wink wink*

Stupid boys. Having their eyes on her. I wanted to capture them all. ONce capture I would want to shoot them or kill them with my bare hands. I would feed them to the sharks. Especially the guy who made the last comment. What a ert. Knowing ~~~~, she must be creeped out. I do not want her to feel uncomfortable by these guys. I don't want any one of them to look at her either. To them she was just some hot thing walking around. I find it stupid that they were asking her out just for her looks. No cared if she's a caring girl. They didn't know that she was smart and the nicest girl you can ever meet. So they should all shut up! None of them fit her anyways. She needs someone who would care for her. Not see her as some sort of pleasure object. She needs to be loved not desired for her body. She needs someone she can depend on when she needed it. Be there for her when she was at her worst. Love her to no end. Maybe even die in the process of making her happy. It seems as if only I can love her like this. I just want to take her and make her mine. Just so I can get all these boys away from her and give her the love and the right attention she deserved.

But no. I can't do that. 

Just let me die instead.

END OF FLASHBACK

I was an idiot back than. Letting my pride get the best of me. Letting myself get hurt when there was no need. If I just let my emotions get the best of me back then, things could have been different. But no. I just let myself get hurt. In return I was hurting her to extremes.

FLASHBACK

"~~~~~. Are you feeling well?"

Upon hearing her name I looked to see the teacher with a worried look. I looked at ~~~~. She looked extremely pale. There was a lot of bags under her eyes even though she tried to cover them with make up. I was able to see it faintly. What had happened to her? Has she gone ill? No L.Joe. Ignore it she'll be ok. She's strong.

"hmmmm? Oh I'm fine Mrs.No. I'll be fine."

Oh BS. She doesn't look fine at all! NO! Stop thinking about it. Don't let your emotions get to you man.

But she looks so weak and fragile. 

Later that day during lunch I found her just sitting. Listening to her friends talk. Gosh did they care about her? She looks horrible! She wasn't even eating. Was something troubling her? If so what was it? I wanted to just walk over there and force her to eat. She looks like she hasn't eating anything at all. So pale. She looks so sad. Whats making her like this? She's usually happy and cheerful. She always has a smile on her face. Theres not even a hint of color on her skin. I just wanted to kill anyone who was making her like this. 

For the whole day I couldn't help but think about her. I kept worrying that she was in deep trouble. Heck she even fell a couple of times. I wanted to help her but I was to late. Some one was always there to her rescue.

Maybe she doesn't need me to look out for her. She has others to do that. But why the hell do I feel guilty if I don't help her? Like It was my fault for her being like this?

END OF FLASHBACK

To think I was the one who made her like that. Guilt still fills me up when I think about it. I made someone I love hurt so badly. I should just be punished for it. 

"Penny for your thoughts?"

I looked down to see her looking worried. Did I make her worry again?

"Oh just nothing."

"You sure?"

"Yeah....."

We stayed silent for a moment. Then an idea struck my head.

"Hey you want to go get some ice cream?"

She looked at me with a smile on her face. I knew what the answer would be before she answered. 

We headed back down to get some ice cream. Deciding on flavors and eventually paying, we went for a walk.  I couldn't help but steal glances at her. She looked cute just eating her ice cream. I smiled at myself. I know that she'll always be the one for me. I can never let her go again. Then I heard her giggle a bit. I gave her a confusing look. She looked at me and smiled.

"Yah! Stop stealing glances at me. I can see you!"

"I can't help it. Who wouldn't want to look at you."

"I know. I'm just to pretty for words." she said jokingly. 

I love it when she jokes around like this. Not the real serious type when it wasn't needed or doing that fake shyness thing other girls do. I loved this about her. 

"You know I love you. I love EVERYTHING about you," I said emphasizing the everything by stretching my arms as wide as I can. Childish but anything to make her smile.

She started to blush and look away. Cute

"Such a liar. Just so you know I don't like you at all."

Here we go again. The teasing war has started. Teasing and joking around was our thing.

"Yeah I know. You love me. Admit it."

"Hmmmmmm........NOPE!"

"Yah!"

She started to run away from me. She just looked so cute. I started to chase her but slowly. Just letting her enjoy the thought of her maybe being faster then me. Then she looked at me quickly and made a face. Ok that did it. I quickened my pace and caught her easily.

"Your mine now," i said with a smirk on my face.

To think just a week ago I was miserable. Just sulking away into nothing. To think she was doing the exact same thing. Now here we are all happy  and what not. I'll never let this be ruined.

"So what are you going to do now mister?" she said.

"I'm never letting you go. Ever. And this time I'm not gonna let my pride get the best of me."

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