4th of April 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 8:45am (unread)

Yah Lee Donghae! I hate you!

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 8:46am(unread)

I hate that until you came into my life, I was just labeled as a grumpy five year old with trust issues and no friends.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 8:46am (unread)

I hate that you managed to somehow waltz in and break down all my barriers by just saying “I’m Lee Donghae, let’s be friends.”

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:00am (unread)

I hate that you clung onto me like a koala through both middle school and high school.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:00am (unread)

I hate that  even though we’re the same age, you grew up to be a handsome athletic teenager while I was still plain old awkward me, always tripping over my own feet.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:01am (unread)

I hate that you ditched everything and everyone to hang out with me, even though you were good looking and popular and everyone wanted to be your friend.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:02am (unread)

I hate that even when the others told you I was just an ugly freak, that I was just a nobody, you stood by me and glared at them as if you would throw your fists at them if they continued.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:30am (unread)

I hate that you vowed to protect me from all the bullies at school.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:31am (unread)

I hate that you got hurt doing it.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:45am (unread)

I hate that when the teachers would call me plain stupid for not understanding and gave up on me, you’re the only one who took the time to explain things to me slowly.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:45am (unread)

I hate that when my parents kept telling me I was an utter disappointment, that I’d never be good as my sister, you told me that I was always the best in your eyes.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:50am (unread)

I hate that you were there to hug me and protect me all throughout my childhood.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 8:45am (unread)

I hate that you were so perfect to a point that I started to fall in love with you.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:15am (unread)

I hate that when I realized I had feelings for you and tried to distance myself from you, you were having none of it, and forced me to sit down and talk to you.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:15am (unread)

I hate that you hugged me when I said I kept my feelings hidden because I was too scared that I’d lose you if I confessed.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:16am (unread)

I hate that you told me you loved me too, and asked me to be your boyfriend, right then and there, at our high school graduation.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:25am (unread)

I hate that you were the one who convinced me to follow my dreams, when I was too scared to do so myself.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:26am (unread)

I hate that you always supported me when my family scowled at me and turn their backs on me when I said that I wanted to become a professional dancer.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:26am (unread)

I hate that it was you who dragged me all the way to the SM studio for my first dance audition when I got cold feet.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:35am (unread)

I hate that I managed to become one of Korea’s most famous  dancers because of you.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:36pm (unread)

I hate that you managed to become an actor and rise to the top of the industry while you were supporting me and my work.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 01:05pm  (unread)

I hate that you were fine with coming out to the public when our agencies were about to force us to break up.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 01:07pm (unread)

I hate that you managed to end all prejudices when we finally revealed our relationship.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 01:07pm (unread)

I hate that you somehow managed to win over the public, to a point they even started their own Eunhae fan club, while I was too busy locking myself away and clinging on to you, afraid that they would force us apart.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 01:30pm (unread)

I hate that you looked so happy that it made my heart flutter, when you announced that the public was on our side and that  no one would ever be able to break us apart.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 2:30pm (unread)

I hate that when we reached the peak of our careers, you asked if we could move in together.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 02:31 pm (unread)

I hate that you were so excited when we finally bought a house for ourselves and left the our apartments behind to start a new life together.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 02:31pm (unread)

I hate that you’re always so messy, leaving clothes everywhere and never throwing away wrappers.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 02:32 pm (unread)

I hate that you don’t get mad at me when I nag at every little thing, instead you just pout and whine and show your puppy dog eyes because you know I’m weak against it.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 03:51pm  (unread)

I hate that you spontaneously sends me flowers to my workplace with short notes of encouragement.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 04:17pm  (unread)

I hate that you always cook for me dinner for me and wait up for me, when I come home late from work.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 05:19pm (unread)

I hate that we’re almost thirty but you still manage to make me blush with your constant teasing and flirting.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 06:04pm  (unread)

I hate that even though we’ve known each other for almost 25 years, a quarter of a century, you somehow manage to make me fall in love with you every single day.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 07:10 pm (unread)

I hate that you’re halfway across the world, filming a blockbuster in Paris right now.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 07:11pm  (unread)

I hate that we haven’t had time to speak at all for the last few weeks you’ve been away.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 07:15pm  (unread)

I hate that there are so many people online commenting how the chemistry between you and your female costar is perfect.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 07:27pm  (unread)

I hate that they’ve forgotten that Eunhae exists.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 07:28pm (unread)

I hate that you might’ve forgotten that Eunhae exists.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 8:00pm (unread)

I hate that there are articles about the two of you hanging out in cafes, theaters, visiting places and going on sightseeing trips together. 

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 8:14pm (unread)

I hate that you have time to do all that with her but no time to even text me.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:20pm (unread)

But what I hate the most is that ever since the day I told you all those years ago that I hated my birthday because my parents used it as an excuse to show everyone how pathetic I am compared to my sister, and parade me around my extended family like a circus freak, you’ve been there for me on that day.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:21pm (unread)

You’ve thrown me parties, tried to bake cakes for me, found me presents and somehow managed to make me look forward to the day that I despised the most.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 9:22pm  (unread)

I hate that you forgot...

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:10pm  (unread)

Yah Lee Donghae!

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10: 15 pm (unread)

It’s my birthday today...

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:15pm  (unread)

I’ve been waiting for a call from you all day, you idiot.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:21pm (unread)

It’s fine if you’re busy. You could’ve just texted me.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:22pm  (unread)

But you’re ignoring my messages too.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:45 pm (unread)

Why aren’t you replying to me, Lee Donghae?!

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:57pm (unread)

Look I...

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:57 pm (unread)

I’m sorry for bothering you...

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:57 pm (unread)

I just...

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:58pm (unread)

I saw an article that said you were going to go on a romantic cruise with your costar today for filming.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 10:59 pm (unread)

And I just couldn’t help but wonder if you’ve fallen out of love with me.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:00pm (unread)

She’s really beautiful. I’ll never be able to compete against her. I know don’t stand a chance.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:01pm (unread)

I know I’m not perfect, Donghae.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:02pm (unread)

I know I nag a lot. I’m not good looking. I keep getting jealous and insecure. I know I’m a burden sometimes.

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:03pm (unread)

I... I’m sorry for everything.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:51pm (unread)

Donghae...?

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:52pm  (unread)

I lied...

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:52 pm (unread)

I don’t hate you. I’ll never be able to hate you, you idiot.

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:57pm  (unread)

I love you, Donghae. 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:57 pm (unread)

I love you so much it hurts. Please don’t leave me. 

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:58pm (unread)

Please Donghae. I’m losing hope...

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:58pm (unread)

I promise I’ll try to be a better boyfriend...

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:59pm  (unread)

Yah Lee Donghae!

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:59 pm (unread)

Why aren’t you replying?!

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 11:59 pm (unread)

Donghae-ya please... I love you...

 

 

Message to : Pabo Hae <3 

Sent at 00:00 (unread)

Hae...

 

•••

A knock resounded on the door, startling Hyukjae out of his stupor. He got off the couch, slightly dizzy at the change of position and from having spent the whole day on the sofa, staring at his phone.

 

He walked towards the door in obvious confusion, wondering who would possibly visit him at midnight.

 

To his utter surprise Donghae stood outside the door, his brown locks looking completely disheveled, his skin pale enough to look slightly ill, holding on to his suitcase with one hand and his coat in the other. His hair was damp, sticking to his forehead and his lips were almost blue. Donghae was panting slightly as he flashed the other a small tired  grin.

 

“What are you doing here?! You’re supposed to be in Paris!” Hyukjae exclaimed, bewildered.

 

Donghae didn’t seem to have enough energy to mutter up an answer, as he managed one step into the apartment, hauling his suitcase along, then collapsed into Hyukjae arms.

 

“Donghae?!” Hyukjae screamed out in alarm as he wrapped his arms around his boyfriend to prevent him from falling.

 

Hyukjae moved one shaky hand to Donghae’s face, brushing the bangs away from his face, as he shivered feverishly under his touch.

 

“Hae you’re soaked!” Hyukjae exclaimed as he realized that Donghae was completely drenched. “And you’re burning up!”

 

Hyukjae kicked the door close, hauling Donghae off the floor, placing an arm under his thighs lifting him up and carrying him into their bedroom leaving the suitcase behind while Donghae stubbornly held on to his coat. 

 

He was relieved that he had built up his muscles through all those dance practices as Hyukjae managed to get them both to their room pretty fast.

 

“Hae take your clothes off.” Hyukjae said softly, not waiting for a response before prying off his sweater and his trousers leaving him only with his boxers on, and seating him at the edge of the bed.

 

Hyukjae placed his hand on Donghae’s forehead then both his cheeks, alarmed at the warmth as his boyfriend was shivering violently against his touch.

 

“Just a second.” Hyukjae said before dashing into the kitchen and looking through the drawers for medicine.

 

He returned hurriedly holding a cup of water and some pills, making Donghae swallow them, holding the cup of water to his mouth.

 

Donghae looked extremely pale, his eyelids dropping with exhaustion.

 

“Wait, let me dry your hair.” Hyukjae said, running into the bathroom, and grabbing a couple of towels. “Then you can rest.”

 

He out the towel over his boyfriend’s head and started to gently dry his hair, panicking slightly as he wondered whether they should go to the hospital. A flash of white wrapped around Donghae’s hand caught his eye.

 

“You’re hurt!” He exclaimed alarmed, grabbing Donghae’s wrist which was wrapped up in a bandage.

 

Hyukjae finally looked at Donghae’s face properly, his heart clenching painfully as he realized that his boyfriend was crying.

 

“No no don’t cry, Hae.” Hyukjae murmured gently, his hands cupping Donghae’s face, while he wiped away the tears with his thumbs. “Does it hurt? Are you hurting anywhere?”

 

Hyukjae’s eyes travelled across Donghae’s body looking for more injuries, sighing in relief when there weren’t anymore.

 

He looked back at his lover’s teary orbs and placed a gentle kiss against his thin lips.

 

“It’s okay, Donghae. I’ll look after you.” He whispered as he gazed at Donghae lovingly.

 

But Donghae only sobbed harder.

 

“I’m... sorry... Hyukkie...” He managed to stutter out through his cries.

 

Hyukjae immediately shushed him, wrapping his arms around his shivering boyfriend who sat in the edge of the bed, trying to cover him up with the blankets at the same time trying to comfort him.

 

“You don’t have anything to be sorry about.” He whispered gently, rocking the other back and forth.

 

“I wanted... today... to be perfect...” Donghae hiccuped as he sobbed. “Your birthday... I ruined it... I’m sorry...”

 

“Oh Hae...” Hyukjae sighed in fond exasperation, has he rubbed his hand soothingly down the other’s back, trying to calm him down. “You didn’t have to come all the way to Korea for it. I would’ve been happy with just a phone call. I was actually waiting for one from you today.”

 

“But... I had it all planned out...” Donghae’s entire body was shaking as he cried.

 

“It’s ok. I’m happy you’re here. That’s enough for me.” Hyukjae murmured pressing kisses to the others forehead.

 

“But...but... all my plans got messed up...I broke my phone in the Paris airport... and the flight was delayed... and then plane had to do an emergency landing... because the weather was terrible... and then when the flight finally landed it was almost noon... and I was supposed to be back hours ago... and when I was rushing out of the Incheon airport...I almost got hit by a car and-“

 

“You what?!” Hyukjae screeched in terror, tightening his grip on his boyfriend, staring at Donghae with wide eyes.

 

But Donghae didn’t seem to notice the fear in the other’s expression as he sobbed heartbreakingly, buring his head in Hyukjae’s chest.

 

“And then I had to go to the hospital... because I hurt my wrist... and I was even more late than I already was...” he continued, his voice slightly muffled. “By the time I made it to Seoul... it was already late evening... and I had to go get the cake... because I already ordered one ... but it was raining so hard that the taxi went so slowly... and the shop was in the other side of town... and when I got there it was already closed... and no one was there... and then I had to turn back and come here... and the taxi broke down halfway... so I decided to walk home instead....”

 

“You walked home in this weather?” Hyukjae said alarmed, looking out of the window of their apartment as thunder sounded loudly.

 

“I wanted us to spend the day together... because your birthday is special... then maybe go to our favorite playground in the evening... but it was raining so hard...  but I wanted to get home before your birthday ended...and by the time I got the our building it was almost midnight... and the escalator was broken...so I had to run up the stairs...and the suitcase-“

 

“Hae, our apartment is on the top floor. Please tell me you didn’t run up twelve flights of stairs just to get here before midnight.” Hyukjae uttered completely horrified.

 

“I didn’t make it in time!” Donghae wailed, a new track of tears flowing down his cheeks. “It was already the fifth of April when I got to the door.”

 

Donghae looked absolutely devastated as he sobbed pitifully, clenching his eyes shut as if to block the pain.

 

Hyukjae felt so many emotions crashing down on him at once. He felt heartbroken for the man in his arms. Donghae had quite literally gone through hell and back to be here for his birthday. He hadn’t forgotten. 

 

He felt guilt burn through  him as he thought of how he spent the day, mopping about because Donghae didn’t call him, while his lover was literally traveling halfway across the world in the middle of a thunderstorm just to be there for him.

 

“Thank god you’re okay.” Hyukjae blurted out, hugging Donghae tightly before gently prying his lover’s head off of his shoulder so that he could look into his eyes. “Donghae, it fine. I don’t care that you couldn’t come home before my birthday. I’m just so thankful that your safe. . You could’ve been seriously hurt.”

 

Hyukjae’s gaze softened as Donghae teary orbs stared back at him sadly.

 

“But I missed your birthday. I know it’s an important day for you.” He said pouting, bending his head in shame.

 

His heart clenched painfully as Donghae’s eyes filled up with tears again. He looked like a puppy who had been left out in the rain. Hyukjae resisted the urge to squish his cute lover to his chest and smother him with kisses.

 

“You being here with me is the best thing I could ever ask for.” Hyukjae murmured gently caressing his boyfriend’s face. “I missed you a lot. And you didn’t answer my calls or reply to my messages so I missed you even more than usual.”

 

Donghae’s head shot up as he stared at Hyukjae in shock.

 

“You tried to call me?!” He squeaked out.

 

“Yeah I did.” Hyukjae smiled, placing a loud smooch on his cheek, wrapping the blanket more tightly round Donghae.

 

“But I didn’t know. I shattered the screen.” Donghae said out looking worried. 

 

“I know that now.” He replied smiling in fond exasperation, kissing Donghae’s nose.

 

“I’msorrypleasedonthatemeforever.” Donghae blurted out in one go.

 

Hyukjae couldn’t help but chuckle at his lover’s adorable apology. They knew each other too well. Donghae knew that Hyukjae would’ve been extremely upset if he had completely ignored him on his own birthday. 

 

“I won’t ever be able to hate you, you idiot.” Hyukjae said smiling. “I admit, I was a bit mad at you but I was stupid to think that you actually forgot my birthday.”

 

Donghae’s big brown orbs stared at him hopefully.

 

“I really should’ve known that you were pulling a crazy stunt like this today. We’re both idiots. But you’re definitely the biggest idiot here, flying halfway across the world in a thunderstorm.” Hyukjae answered softly, bringing his hand up to the other’s nape pulling him forward and capturing his lips in a sweet kiss.

 

Hyukjae broke apart then placed another kiss on his forehead, which was still slightly warm from the fever.

 

“I love you Hae. Thank you for coming home for my birthday.” Hyukjae whispered softly, placing another loving kiss on the thin lips.

 

“I love you too Hyukkie. I’m sorry I couldn’t make it on time. This wasn’t how I wanted it to go.” 

 

Donghae’s eyes were filled with sadness and disappointment.

 

“Hae, I told you that it doesn’t matter. You’re here now. That’s all I care about.” Hyukjae replied gently, as he laid his boyfriend down on the bed and covered him up with the blankets.

 

“Go to sleep Donghae.” He said tucking his lover into bed, then gestured at his own damp clothes. “I’ll join you after I get changed.”

 

Donghae looked as if though he was about to protest, but the exhaustion was clearly winning over as he yawn and struggled to keep his eyes open against the comfort of the bed.

 

“But... I still have something to tell you...” He tried to speak stubbornly, fighting against his tiredness.

 

“Later Hae.” Hyukjae chuckled as he placed a kiss against his boyfriend’s forehead. “You can tell me about Paris when you’re all better.”

 

Hyukjae quickly washed up, changing into a pair of pyjamas before grabbing some extra blankets and walking back into the bedroom. Since Donghae was only in his boxers, Hyukjae was worried that his fever would get worse if he got too cold. 

 

He stopped in surprise when he was the thick coat Donghae had been carrying lie on the foot of the bed, while Donghae lay fast asleep clutching a gift bag and a piece of paper.

 

“Oh Hae.” Hyukjae’s eyes welled up with tears as he thought of the trouble his lover had gone through just for him.

 

He took the gift bag and placed it on the bedside table, then pried away the slightly crumpled piece on paper, to unfold it and read what was written in it.

 

Donghae’s messy handwriting stared back at him.

 

•••
 

Lee Hyukjae.

 

I’m not sure why I have to call you by your full name but Heechul hyung told me that this had to be done formally. But then Hyoyeon (she’s my costar by the way) told me that I should just call you what I normally do. And even though Heechul Hyung’s the best manager in the entire universe, he’s not very experienced in the relationship department so I’m just going to take Hyoyeon’s word for it.

 

Hyukkie,

 

I’ve been wanting to do this for a long time now but I wanted to be completely prepared and not the usual messy chaotic self I usually am. (Kyuhyun just told me that I’d always be a complete whirlwind no matter how organized I try to be and Heechul hyung just smacked his head for it.) When I found out that I had to come to Paris for my next movie I was really eager cause I’d finally be able to figure out a way to completely surprise you.

 

Jongwoon hyung told me that I should pick a special day for both of us, so I thought what better than your birthday? We’ve spent it together ever since we had known each other.

 

I’m pretty sure I’m not supposed to say these parts in my actual speech but it’s not like I’m going to remember any of this by that time. I’ll probably wing it. 

 

So I’ll just write everything down for now. (I’ll keep this in my coat pocket in case I’ll need it.)

 

Apparently according to Yuri, my stylist, the location is the most important part (something about setting the mood). Hyoyeon dragged me to quite a lot of theatres in Paris and forced me to watch so many films hoping that I’ll somehow be inspired.

 

In the end, Leeteuk hyung told me that I could just go to a fancy restaurant and get it over with. But since we’re both public figures I thought that that wouldn’t be very wise. (See Hyukkie, I can be mature when I want to be.)

 

...

 

Ok fine it was Sungmin hyung who reminded me that we couldn’t do that.

 

And then Hyoyeon told me that I should take you on a romantic cruise ride. But I refuse to do that. Nothing romantic ever happens on a cruise. Hyukkie, we’re never stepping a foot near a ship because I just know that it’s going to hit an ice berg, and sink and we’re both going to die.

 

Everyone quipped in with their ideas to help me out, and Heechul hyung told me that I should blindfold you and take you to a secret spot in a mysterious woods and surprise you. (I think Heechul hyung has a very sadistic idea about love because that sounded way too similar to the plot of that horror movie we watched... I’m still traumatized by the part where the killer jumped out of the bushes. I refused to let you even go to the bathroom without me after that. Do you still remember?)

 

I think I got slightly carried away. Anyway our friends and my costars were completely useless. But I met a nice old lady in this French cafe I visited and she came over to ask me if I was ok, because I had been staring at my macaroon for almost half an hour without eating it.

 

She suggested that I should choose a location that had fond memories for both of us. And I felt so stupid because I didn’t think of that before. 

 

That’s why I thought of visiting our old playground on your birthday. Because it was a private place away from the public and a horror story didn’t take place there. And Jack didn’t die a tragic death in a playground either. But most importantly because some of our best memories were there.

 

It’s that playground where we met. And where I gave you a nemo sticker on your fifth birthday because I couldn’t find anything else and you cried because I was the first ever person to give you a present.

 

It’s where I first saw you dance and where you first saw me act out my lines for the school play. And where we went after our high school graduation, after we confessed our feelings.

 

So Hyukkie, as soon as I get home from Paris on your birthday and surprise you, we’re going to that playground.

 

And I even planned everything ahead of time so we can have a solid hour of cuddling before we need to go there. (Hyukkie are you proud of how organized I’ve become?)

 

Leeteuk hyung told me that what I’m going to say is the hardest part and to think it through but Kangin hyung protested that I just had to be overly cheesy and loving with my words and everything will work out. (But then Kyuhyun added I’m always horrifyingly cringey and Heechul hyung smacked his again for that.)

 

But honestly speaking you’re the best thing that ever happened to me. I know I’ve always been a clingy best friend and lover and I’m sometimes really possessive (but that dancer was getting way too close to you that one time) and I’m really childish and immature most of the time (but Heechul hyung said that it was one of my more endearing qualities and since you’ve put up with it for so long, I think you’re ok with it too?)

 

Oh and Sungmin hyung told me that I should add in something that I’ve never told you before to this speech.

 

So fun fact: I had your name saved in my phone as ‘my Hyukkie’ before we even started dating. 

 

What I mean is you are the most perfect person ever. You’re the best looking, smartest and cutest person I know. You’re so precious that I don’t know what I would do if I ever lost you. You’re my everything.

 

(Kyuhyun just read this and told me that I was being sickeningly sweet. I’m being bullied over here Hyukkie, and you aren’t here to defend me. I miss you <3 )

 

But I’m going to be home soon. On your birthday and surprise you. (I even ordered your favorite strawberry cake!!)

 

Hopefully everything will according to my plan. (Of course it will, I planned everything perfectly hehe^^)

 

Hyoyeon and rest of the crew your are going on a romantic cruise together. I’m supposed to be there too but I’m going to skip it to come back home to you. I did tell them beforehand that it’ll end up as a disaster and they’ll all die tragically but they laughed at my face and called me a titanic freak!

 

Anyway in the end, what I really wanted to say was,

 

I love you Hyukjae.

 

And I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

 

I want to be yours for the rest of eternity.

 

Hyukkie.

 

Lee Hyukjae.

 

Will you marry me?

 

 

•••

 

Hyukjae looked up his eyes filling up with tears as he finished reading the crumpled letter. His shaking hands went to the gift bag he had put down on the bedside table, reaching inside to pull out a leather box.

 

He opened it, to find two matching platinum bands shining inside it. 

 

Hyukjae looked back at Donghae, only to see his lover awake and staring back at him. Donghae’s eyes were fluttering slowly, it was clear that he was barely holding on to his consciousness. He didn’t even have enough strength to speak but somehow managed to smile tiredly as Hyukjae stared at him speechless.

 

Donghae had planned out an entire proposal while he was away.

 

His lover had gone through meticulous lengths to organize a romantic surprise.

 

And even when everything went wrong, Donghae had travelled halfway across the world and walked through a rainstorm just to get to him.

 

Hyukjae hastily wiped away a lone tear that dropped down his cheek and leaned in, placing a gentle kiss on Donghae’s thin lips.

 

“Yes Hae. I will marry you.” Hyukjae murmured lovingly.

 

Donghae’s weak smile widened as relief filled his eyes. Hyukjae couldn’t help but press his plump lips on his lovers again.

 

Hyukjae took the rings out of the box, slowly sliding one on to Donghae’s finger. He chuckled slowly when a weak hand took the other ring off him, and slipped it onto Hyukjae’s own finger.

 

They both smiled as they intertwined their fingers together, two platinum bands shining proudly in the light.

 

“Come here Hae.” Hyukjae whispered before turning off the lights off and sliding under the blankets himself.

 

He wrapped his arms around Donghae, who immediately clung onto him, snuggling against his chest, neither of them letting go of their intertwined hands. Donghae fell asleep within seconds, exhaustion finally wining over.

 

Hyukjae held his lover closer to him, running his fingers through the other’s hair, gently brushing against Donghae’s warm skin gazing at his lover with fondness.

 

“I love you too, you idiot.” Hyukjae murmured pressing a kiss against Donghae’s forehead. “You’re my idiot.”

 

•••

 

(A/N: Haha no one expected it to end like this right?

I would love to hear your comments on this!!

I’ve actually written a non au eunhae fanfic of when Hyukjae proposes. I’ll leave the link to it down below.

https://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/1447935/6/extra-ft-the-proposal

It's quite late now. I'm going to go to sleep. Goodnight!

 

Anyway thank you for reading!!🖤)