it was supposed to be a normal today.

supposed to be. 

but her loving and sweet daughter really had to ask about something she had a hard time forgetting about.

as if she would willingly forget about it.

"ma, who's you'we fiwst lowve?" little youi asked, her missing front teeth looking very endearing to seungwan. the young mother kneeled in front of her daughter and looked right in her eyes.

"why are you curious sweety?" she wished her eyes didn't quiver. she gently held youi's shoulder, silently asking all the gods there is for help.

"because i like to heaw youw stowies." she mumbled, sensing her mother's anxiety and translating it as anger.

"awe you angy mama? i'm sowwy." her apology consisted of her usual puppy eyes and lips forming a pout. she looked as any child would be to their parents, irresistable. and who's seungwan to resist this baby anyways?

"no i'm not angry baby. come here, i'll tell you who's my first and greatest love." she patted her thighs so youi could climb the couch to sit on her lap. 

"her name's auntie joohyun."

---

the warmth of the sun didn't feel scorching at all, it made joohyun more relaxed under seungwan's hold. she gazed upwards to observe the dance that the leaves were doing. 

"hey, let's dance?" she asked to the quiet seungwan who was too busy reading her book. she looked towards the woman to find it very, very invested with her book, 'to kill the mocking bird'. joohyun smiled and decided not to disturb her any longer. 

"why so quiet hyun?" seungwan suddenly asked, fingers combing through her soft tresses. joohyun indulged herself to seungwan's action, humming in satisfaction. she grabbed the other free hand of the younger girl and threaded it with her own.

"i didn't want to disturb you." her voice still giving goosebumps to seungwan as if it was her first time to hear it. seungwan's lips turned into a small frown at the admission.

"you won't ever be a disruption to me my love," she said, caressing her plump cheeks and watched it as it turned a pink hue. 

very cute, seungwan thought with a smile.

"i think you're being too invested with your books that you're already speaking like the characters," joohyun laughed, her body vibrating joyously against seungwan's. the latter raised her eyebrows in question. 

"what are you saying? i always speak like this." her eyebrows furrowed and her lips jutted in a pout, resembling a baby's face.

"you look like a baby right now." joohyun mumbled, suddenly getting lost in her lover's eyes. seungwan smiled ever so gently, and it tugged the older girl's heart string how soft she looked.

"you look lovely today wan." she said, lightly shaking her head to get rid of the hazy thoughts. the said woman kissed her temple.

"as you do. you look lovely everyday."

---

"was she kind mama?" youi asked her mother, cuddling closer to seungwan's chest, her best attempt to listen closer.

"she was." reminiscing about the woman gave different wavelengths of emotions to surge in seungwan's heart. she didn't know what to feel about it. "we even argued several times because of her kindness." she laughed it off, but deep inside, something did hurt saying those words.

"she's the kindest person i knew."

---

seungwan's eyebrows seemed to have this permanent groove on it ever since the encounter just earlier. joohyun looked worried beside her and took her hand on her own. 

"don't think about him anymore please," joohyun pleaded, caressing seungwan's knuckles that was slo