Waking up from my slumber, a smile immidiately crept on my sleepy face when her beautiful self is the first thing i saw when i open my eyes

'She's still here' I tought to myself and pull her closer to feel her warmth and nuzzle my nose with hers like i used to do and made her crincle hers and giggle and try to get away from me but I'm persistent so i pull her even closer and nuzzle even more that made her annoyed and have to cup my face to stop and give me her adorable pout that made me awe

'cute'

cupping her hand with mine, I then move to give her a kiss, a gesture I rarely do that made her startle and flashed, slapping my arm a couple of time while burying herself on my chest, She's adorable when she's embarrassed so i try to let her face me and kiss her again but she didn't let me and suddenly stand up and run out of our room, fully awake, I then rise from the bed and streach before going after her and prepare our breakfast

I love my life, i already have my dream company with my co-owner wife and best friend, I have a loyal, supportive awesome friends, have everything and anything I wish for specially when I merried my childhood sweet heart, yes the love of my life, the person who make me smile and do things like an idiot, make me happy so much I think my heart will burst out of my rib cage, the beautiful woman I need and complete me, the one who made my nightmares go away and turn into sweet and beautiful dream just by her warm hug alone, when I'm with her everything is right, the sleepless nights and bad days vanish whenever I see her, I can't get enough, I want her close to me, do everything and give her everything, tell her how much she mean and love her,the love of my life, except for my mother and sister Im Nayeon.

I'm on a good mood, who wouldn't when the first thing you see is the person you merried and love so much every morning right? Today I preper breakfast for us, I ate mine but she didn't... again, unlike before, she just watch me eat and smiles at me lovingly, it apsets me that she's not eating with me and compliment my cooking but I didn't breang it up, because I know the reason why and besides i still prepare for us even if she don't want to eat because I want her near me and i don't want to ruin this, I can't be mad and greedy I must be contented and be grateful because she still didn't leave me

Its almost two weeks when my co-owner and bestfriend Jihyo approve my leave I can't remember or rather, I don't want to remember why cause Im not prepared. This day im planning to book a trip with my wife to her favorite, I plan everything, we will drive town and sight seeing on the beach holding hands but then, I remember that I broke my laptop and phone in pieces weeks ago so I can focus on my wife only, cause my wife is jealous when she got ignore because of my work and always the cost of our argument and her ended up mad and sleeping on Jihyo's leaving me alone on our apartment, I don't want that to happen again so I ignore all the things that can ruin our alone time, I'm afraid that if I will entertain one, everything will vanish She will vanish and I can't take that.. at least not yet.. I plan on buying a new phone but then again, I remember it's become uncomfortable outside this days, people judging you and look at you like your crazy by just strolling around town talking and adoring the love of your life so I dismiss the idea and delay my surprise trip for her for the time being and just spend the day watching movies, spending the time having fun just me and her alone, ignoring and avoiding the possible distraction that can ruin everything, we were happy, I am happy. But then, the day I desperately and cousiously avoid come.
 

"I'm home!" I shouted assuming that she's on our room and put the grocery with the kitchen table and check on her

'hmm, maybe she's on the garden again, she likes that garden, well I should prepare, I can't wait to surprise her with this" I said to myself remembering the only place I see her when she' s outside, on our mini garden that I made on the rooftop full with her favorite flowers and  name the garden on her when I propose to her, I still remember her big smile showing her bunny teeth that never leaves her lips when she said yes, I still feel the butterflies on my stomach just by remembering it and I can't wait to see it again when she see what I made for her. Im going to make a romantic dinner for her with her favorite food and her hanging out on the rooftop from the mintime is perfect to execute my surprise.

I finish cooking and done preparing but still no sign of her, I decided to wait for a little longer while tapping the table but still nothing, the food is getting cold so I decided to fetch her on my own, Im on the middle of wearing my jacket when the doorbell rings, I got so releave that I run to the door to open it

"Yah your la-Ah, Jihyo what are you doing here?come in,come in! “ My releave turn into a stiff smile when I saw my best friend standing on my door, it's been a while since I see her and it's rude I didn't invite her in so i invite her inside and immidiately go to the kitchen to make some juice for her

"Did you already have dinner? If not you can have dinner with us, I'm just waiting for my wife to go back from the garden, she really like that garden I made for her" I said and give Jihyo her juice and return to the kitchen to get an extra plate and utensil for Jihyo who already have a frown on her face

"Eonnie" my eyebrow twitch, I can clearly hear the concern and sympathy on her voice

"Hm?What? did you already ate? I also made desserts you want some?"

"Eonnie, stop this already, it'll just hurt yourself further " She said stopping me from arranging the plate on the table

"Wha-what are you talking about? I can't hurt myself from simply arranging plate you know" I laugh my nervousness off and go to the other side of the table because i know what she implying

"Eonnie, you know what I'm saying" She said

"L-look, if you don't have business here please leave, I still have dinner to prepare, Nayeon is on her way here" I said rasing my voice that made her shock and me myself  and I know I just flip Jihyo's buttons and I didn't mistaken when I saw her eyebrows frown and with her stomping near me, she xclaimed

"Stop this none sence Yoo Jeongyeon!"

'No'

"Did you really lost yourself?! “

'Not now'

"Nayeon-eonnie will not come back!"

'Please dont'

"She's gone eonnie! Deal with it!" She shouts and give me hard slap that made my head jerk to the side and when i return to look at her i immidiately saw her angry and tears already falling on her face and so as mine as she forcefully slap the truth out of me leaving me nomb

"You're not the only one grieving eonnie, we all are, we're worried about you, you lost contact, you didn't even answer when we visits you! I know you two vowed till death do you two part but we're not ready to lost another love one, so please stop this and come back to your senses! " Jihyo exclaimed and then silence, I didn't reply because everything she said is right, I just stay still with my head cast down watching as my tears fall droplets on the wooden floor blackly, then I heard Jihyo click her tongue maybe she got annoyed at my luck of response, who wouldnt ?, then I hear her stomp closer and purposely bump her shoulder with mine hard that I flinch from the impack to the door and with annoyed voice said

"Her wake days is almost ending, stop this stupidity and visit and take care of your wife and let her go peacefully, if you really care and love her, don't be a stupid coward pain in the and do what is right" As the door click shuts, all momories of our happy moments together and the memories that ened it all flash all together on my tearful eyes that blur my vision. Now that my fantasy I created for her and me alone inside this box apartment, it's finally time to end it all and face the heart wreaking reality.








 

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A Disaster , cloths, broken furniture's empty beer cans scattered on the floor and table when i wake up in the middle of night and it's making my already aching head ache more and  throat dry and feel exhausted, physically and emotionally, I then carefully walk my way to the kitchen to get some water to satisfy my thirst as I try to remember on why I trush my place because my head ache is acting up until I come across my broken phone on our kitchen floor and then it hits me, the shock, the anger, the heart ache, the sad realization, and then I realize that I'm already crying and the feeling of trushing the place emerge again, it hurts, it breaks me, I can't accept the fact that the love of my life, my lovely wife is taken away from me just like, that, I regret everything, I should have treated her better, I shouldnt have argue with her, I should have choose her over my job and accept the dinner date! if I just agree with her, she shouldn't have run away hurt and apsent, if I just agree with her, the accident wouldn't happened, I want to kill myself to see my beloved again but because of Jihyo confiscating all the possible object that can kill myself Im stuck here alone and blaming myself, I missed her, I want to see her, I want to feel her, just by the tought is enough to make me cry even more and then, all of a sudden, i feel her, her soft and familiar hand cupping my cheek and when I turn my head new tears fall as I saw her standing in front of me, her usual concern face shown on her face whenever she's worried about me, afraid that she'll suddenly disappear, I shakely but immidiately hold her cupped hand on mine and I feel like crying again when I feel her warmth, the warmth I known and love.

I take the palm that cupping my cheek move it on my lips to plant a sweet and longing kiss on her palm and put it back on my cheek, rubbing it with my thumb, my heart beats fast when she give me a shy smile because of my gesture I rarely do. This moment over welmed me to much that I reach out and hug her, kiss her, and then suddenly music plays on my mp3 that place on the kitchen counter and its our favorite song, i look at her and she's looking at me, and with her knowing look and adorable bunny teeth smile that I adore so much,she pull me in the middle of our kitchen and and the two of us dance on a sweet dance, the light on the kitchen become our disco light.
 

"I love you so much" I don't know how many times i say this words again and again but i don't care,  I will do the sweetest and chivalrous gestures to her whatever people think of me, I will do and show her everything to show her how much I love her and she's the only woman in my life, godJihyo knows how much I missed and need her in my life, I know this it's crazy on how I am still seeing my wife if she already passaway, call me crazy but I don't care, us being together again, my feelings and hers is only important matter and nothing else.