being an idol was never easy. being an idol, it meant you already signed up to all of the consequences from the day 1. non-stop and crazy schedules, no privacy, and you had to deal with haters.

they are what a minatozaki sana was experiencing. being a top k-pop idol at this generation, of course it was not easy at all. being an idol was her childhood dream, and it was not as lovely as she thought before. people tended to see only the beautiful side of idols, but they didn't know deep down there idols were suffering too.

to be honest, sana was already tired. but she was the one who chose this path, so she had to do this until the end. she always tell herself this whenever she's feeling down.

"are you tired?" her manager, myoui mina, asked.

sana felt she didn't really need to answer mina's question, since her face showed it all. she only had 3 hours sleep last night, and she was in car right now, heading to airport. she had flight to japan in 2 hours.

sana just nodded her head. mina, as her manager slash bestfriend, knew really well about sana's schedule. it has been really a tight schedule. mina was the one who arrange all of sana's activities. she had tried her best to arrange it, but she couldn't help it too because their company was being an as always. company overworking their artists, nothing new.

"i'm so sorry."

mina couldn't help but feeling guilty. sana raised her head, and look at mina.

"don't be sorry, okay? it's not your fault."

sana really wanted to curse at her company, but she knew she couldn't. sana gave mina a light pat on her shoulder.

"you are my manager. you have to follow my schedule too. you must be as tired as me, minari."

well, it's the truth. mina even had to wake up earlier than sana, to prepare everything.

"after we arrived in japan, you still have time to rest a bit. you can sleep to on the plane." mina said.

sana just nodded, and flashed a smile. she leaned her head to the window, and closed her eyes.

suddenly, she thought about someone. sana couldn't help but smiled.

"are you thinking about her again, huh?"

"don't tease me, minari." mina giggled.

that someone is her moodbooster. sana had something for her, but sana didn't know what it was.

sana didn't even know what her name is, how her voice sounded like, how her fullface looked like.

sana just knew that she was everywhere and she was always with her.

this sounded weird, but sana had something for one of her fansites.

yes, fansites. it's normal for an idol to have fansites. they would come to any official schedules, and took a lot of beautiful pics of their idols. sana had a lot too, but this one was really special.

she didn't only took pictures. she also took care of sana really well. sana could feel it too. she didn't only care about photos. she cared about sana as well, and sana thought it what made her so special.

as mentioned before, being an idol it means you had to be ready to deal with haters. and sana experienced it once.

she was at the airport. she had a flight to america. and someone (obviously a hater), threw an rotten egg towards her. but that fansite ran and stood right in front of sana, covered her. and sana was safe, but the egg was all over the fansite's shirt, and of course it didn't smell good. sana had no idea where and what her bodyguard were doing that time. her fansite saved her, not her bodyguards.

not only that. actually the fansite did a lot of things for sana. sana still remembered, she got hit by a baseball stick. once again, sana didn't know what her bodyguards were doing. sana was really worried because on the next day, the latter didn't come. sana assumed that she has broken her arms, and maybe had a surgery done. the worst thing is, sana couldn't do anything about it. she couldn't visit her either.

but the rotten egg incident remained the most memorable for sana, because for the first time, sana got to stand that close to the fansite. sana had never got to see that latter's face clearly, because her face was always covered by a mask, and she had a big camera too and it covered her whole face. but, that time, she could see her face clearly. she was still wearing mask, but sana could see her pair hazelnut eyes, and she was lost in them. 

"we are here."

mina's voice woke her up from her deep thought. she really hoped she would see that fansite again. well, sana herself was sure that she would be here.

-

after a long flight, they finally arrived in japan. sana was not in the mood and sulky during the flight. mina knew what the reasons, so she just stayed quiet and let sana had her time. mina didn't want to make the latter's mood worsen.

the fansite tha sana had been waiting to see didn't show up at the airport. it has been 3 days since she disappeared, and sana was wondering why.

sana wanted to see her so much.

or maybe she missed her.

"i got a call. they said the press conference was cancelled. you can rest for today."

sana was laying on the bed in a hotel. she was supposed to have a press conference 2 hours from now, but seems like luck was on her side.

sana mouthed a yes. mina only smiled at her.

sana stood up, and went to bathroom for a relaxing shower.

-

after dinner, sana came back to her hotel room. she looked at the clock on the wall. it was 8 pm.

sana lied on the bed, and rolled to the left and right. she was used to her hectic schedule. she had free time but she didn't know what to do.

she was so bored.

she was alone in her room. mina was in her own room, probably sleeping. sana didn't want to bother her.

an idea popped out in her mind.

she stood up, and grabbed her coat. she didn't forget her cap and mask too.

she didn't want to walk on the road getting  noticed. japan was her home country, of course she was more popular here. she didn't want any attentions for now. she wanted to enjoy her time.

sana actually had to ask for mina's permission for this, but if she did, mina wouldn't let her go alone. 

so sana decided to be a rebel tonight.

-

sana didn't know where to go. she just walked on the road, randomly. she didn't go too far from the hotel. she didn't want to get scolded by mina.

the road was not really crowded. the hotel itself was far from the main road, and it's almost 9pm. the weather is cold too. people rather to stay in their room than walking on the road at this hour.

sana put both her hands inside her coat's pocket. she was never good in dealing with cold weather.

her eyes wandered to every part of the road. sana felt really relaxed, and free. it has been really long since the last time she did this.

sana was busy looking at everything. she didn't watch her own steps.

until she bumped to something.

"what-"

she could hear an annoyed sound. seems like she bumped to someone.

"oh my god, i'm so sorry." 

that someone was holding a bag of snacks. seems like she just got back from seven eleven. 

"i almost dropped this because of you. watch your steps. it's dangerous too."

"i'm so sorry." sana bowed again.

"yeah, it's okay."

sana couldn't see her face of her hair and the poor lighting. but that someone finally raised her head up, and their eyes met.

both of them stayed at their places, didn't move, even a bit.

"m-minatozaki s-"

the girl quickly covered with her palm. 

and sana wasn't a dumb too. she remembered where those eyes belong to.

"sorry, i have to go now."

she wanted to leave but sana quickly grabbed her arms.

"wait."

dahyun cursed inside.

"are you shyshyshy knockknock? my fansite?"

sana had a hard time to find the fansite's name, and she chuckled when she found it. she couldn't stop laughingfor 5 minutes straight. 

what's with the name shyshyshy knockknock as a fansite name..

"w-what are you talking about?"

sana was suddenly scared. she was scared that she had hit on the wrong person...

"a-and what is shyshyshy knockknock?"

"look at me."

the girl was looking at the road for the whole time. sana's hands are still on her arms.

"i said look at me."

her grab on the latter's arms tighten. sana had to make sure once again. she only remembered her eyes, so she had no choices.

the girl slowly raised her head, and look at sana.

sana was really sure, it was her fansite.

"you can't run again. i recognize you."

the girl sighed. sana put her hands down.

"what's your name?"

"excuse me?"

"i'm asking what your name is."

the girl hesitated for a while.

"k-kim dahyun."

never or even once in her life dahyun imagined this would happen to her..

she flew to japan because she had class exchange. she went to seven eleven to grab some snacks, and walking on japan road in her ahjussi outfit, minding her own businesses.

she never expected to bump to a minatozaki sana...

like is this a drama or something...

dahyun was always a dumb. she should have recognized her voice and ran away immediately.

dahyun had always admired the older, so much, until the point she even decided to run a fansite for sana.

and sana was standing in front of her, only two of them, on the random road in japan, without her mask on, without her camera, and not on an official schedule.

dahyun found the whole situation weird and awkward.

"i finally found you."

"what?"

dahyun thought she heard it wrong. sana has been looking for her? or what?

"what do you mean?"

sana flashed a smile. and dahyun swore she was close to death.

she saw sana's smiling through her camera a lot of times. but this time, she did it directly. not through her camera, but she saw it with her own eyes. and she did it to her.

dahyun is still a fangirl afterall...

"i've been looking for that someone who run the shyshyshy knockknock fansite, and here you are. i finally know how you look like."

dahyun were not really sure how react to this...

"w-why are you looking for me?"

sana chuckled.

"i didn't know you were this cute."

her idol just called her cute.

dahyun was living every fangirls' dream in this world.

dahyun's face is now a whole red tomato.

"because i'm interested? i want to know the face behind the camera that has been taking a good care of me."

sana was not wrong. dahyun was a whole dumb and idiot when it came to sana.

she would do everything.

"uh, well.. about that, i just feel like i have to do that."

"thank you for that, really."

sana flashed another soft smile. it looked so genuine.

"yeah, it's nothing."

"why didn't you show up for the last three days? i waited for you. and how are your arms?"

dahyun was taken a back. she never thought that sana would wait for her. and wait, she never thought too sana remembered about her arms because of that baseball stick accident.

"i was really worried about your arms. i wanted to reach you but i couldn't. i didn't even know who you are that time."

and wow, dahyun never thought sana cared a lot about her.

"i had an class exchange here, so i flew to japan three days ago. about my arms. i had a small surgery, but it's all alright now. don't worry."

"glad to hear that. just don't do it next time. let the bodyguards to their works."

"but all of them - uh sorry."

sana laughed.

"it's okay. i agree about that."

dahyun nodded.

she still couldn't believe what was happening right now.

"oh, dahyunie. i need to go back now. mina must be freaking out right now. i didn't tell her that i'm going out."

"y-yeah, okay."

"i'm staying there by the way." sana pointed at the hotel behind her. 

dahyun's eyes widen.

"what? me and my classmates are staying there too."

"did you do it on purporse? you are my fansite, you must knew that i'm staying there."

"n-no! don't get me wrong, i'm not a sasaeng. i know how to respect your privacy, i really had no idea that you are staying there too, it was my school-"

sana laughed again.

"w-why are you laughing?"

"calm down. i was only teasing you."

"o-oh.."

"i gotta go now. come to room 450 in 10 minutes. i'll be waiting."

"what?"

"come to my room. 10 minutes, okay? i wouldn't tolerate if you are late, even for only 1 minute. see you there, dahyunie?"

"wait-"

sana turned her back, and left dahyun alone.

"did she just tell me to go to her room? and what? dahyunie?"

dahyun's brain was questioning a lot of things.

dahyun's phone suddenly rang.

an incoming call from son chaeyoung. 

"hello?"

"dahyun, where are you? it's almost one hour already."

dahyun didn't know if she should tell chaeyoung or not..

chaeyoung was her only friend that know about her running fansite for a minatozaki sana. dahyun has been keeping this as a secret. she didn't want to another people, her friends, or her family to know.

"listen, chaeng. i know this sounds crazy, and i can understand if you don't believe this, but seriously.."

"what? why are you being serious for sudden."

"i-i just bumped to minatozaki sana. she said, she has been looking for me because she is interested. she asked me my name, she called me cute, and she ing invited me to her hotel room. she is staying at the same hotel as us, please keep this as a secret."

there's a 5 seconds silence. chaeyoung didn't say anything.

"c-chaeng?"

"dahyun, are you drunk? just comeback already."

dahyun sighed. she knew it chaeyoung wouldn't believe her.

"i swear, i'm not drunk. i'm sobe as . if you don't believe me, now get your and meet me. and should i take you to her room too so you will believe me?"

". i'm coming."

chaeyoung hung up the call. 

"should i go?"

-

i ing laughed at shyshyshy knockknock too.

and i planned to make this as one shoot, but seems like i have to continue. i don't really have any idea. any suggestions?