// A/N: this is my favourite song in the Youth album bye 

" don’t tell me I’m delusional

to me, my appearance is the right answer

so cool, aren’t I?... "

brian, he was my crush for 4 years since i was a freshman. seeing him walk to school with another girl made me extremely jealous and angry for some reason. emotions swarm unto me as i see him walking happily with the new face, arms on her shoulder. 

i storm off to your first class and slumped in my seat. i put your head on the table with my hands covering it. brian was in the same class as me, and i didn't want to see him at the moment. both of us are very close friends, but he doesn't know of my feelings for him.

just when i put your head on the table, i heard brian walking into class with a loud 'OI EVERYONE'. i knew it was him, it was like a daily routine. he reminded me of some annoying chimpanzee that couldn't keep his mouth shut for a minute. 

his seat was right in front of mine and i felt his presence when he sat down in front of me. "Krys! Wake up! There's a fire!" he screams, as if i couldn't hear him. same old prank. same old. i sat up straight, rolling my eyes. 

"what do you want?" i said with an annoyed tone. 

"woah, woah. someone's angsty today." he shivers in fear and returns back to his seat. 

the thought of being angry was so childish but i couldn't help it. i was so frustrated with myself i just wanted to— 
"hey, (y/n)." brian turns around again. 

"my sister's joining us for lunch today. she's a freshman this year." he winks and goes back to his seat. 

wait— sister?! i suddenly realised. i was wrong. i was sooooo wrong. oh god. this is so embarrassing. 

"that girl you came to school with... was your sister?!" I said with a slight tone of surprise.

"well, yes. unless I was lied to my whole life." he looked at me weirdly and went back to his seat again.

oh god. 

i'm such an idiot.