Just another of being an idol. It's fun but can get a little fustrainting , but for the most part I like it . Mainly because I have all my friends by my side. It is quite livley, and a lot better than life as a trainee. Well I am da leader so ... I also am like a mom to everyone. Plus even though nobody belives me I belive im the visual of Astro.Well I have a free day so im going to go outside and have fun , by myself... On the news there have been reports of people hurting others so im going to have to watch out for them. It's peacefull out here , for it is snowing and cold so not many people are out here today, plus the reports of people hurting others might have made them stay inside all day long. I can't wait for Christmas because I had bought all the gifts for my fellow members, they will absolutly love them ! I can't wait. As I walk through the snow I notice a crimson color . I fear something at the end of it , but if someones hurt I should help them ! As I folow the path of blood I notice it get larger and larger as I walk on that's when I saw someone on the ground . Dead. I imeaditly call 119 and report the body. When they came I told them everything I knew and they told it's best if I stay in side and wait for the authorites to say it's safe. I obey the officers words and came into my dorm to find that  MJ was missing , he haddent been back scince he left last night to visit family . I was not to worried for he was with his family .. right? I think back to what the officer said and worry that something happend to him on his way there. I call him . Ring. Ring. Ring . It went on for a while but then the line went dead.. I fear something happend to him so I decide not tell Sanha for he get's really emotional and I fear he danger himself trying to find him. I plan on calling someone but for now all I can do is wait to see if he comes back