I've watched the members' goodbye stage today and then saw them again on the home shopping channel.

I should have been there.

My head hurts just thinking about it. Then, all the feelings came creeping in again. It makes me wanna puke now. Here I am sitting miserably at home while my members work their off for the album. I wanted to too.. So bad. But I can't. Not just yet.

Katok.

"Oh."

I picked up my phone thinking the hyungdeul might have gone crazy again in the chat room.

A smile painted on my face when I saw who it was.

- Kwaenchana? -

I just stared at my phone. Now that he asked about it, I know I am not okay... Because he is not here. I was reluctant to answer. I wanted to get on my car and see him.

- Ya! Why aren't you answering? Are you okay? You aren't, are you? -

- 😞- 

- Ya! Choi Siwon! Can you please stop replying with the damn emojis? Aish... You're making me go crazy here! -

- 😢-

- Damn it! I said speak up! Please... -

- I miss you baby... 😢 -

- Nado. Please tell me you're gonna be okay until I see you this weekend. Huh? -

- Eotteokhae? How will I be okay? -

- Sweetie, you're stronger than this. I'm worried about you, honey... please be okay soon. 😢 -

- I... I will be. Thank you, babe. Please come back soon. I miss you so much. So much that Too Late and Girlfriend is on repeat mode all the time. Even in the car. Eunhyuk and Donghae are complaining now. -

- 😊 Give those two rascals some slack, huh. You're smiling aren't you? -

- (Nods) because I'm thinking about how you are smiling too when I told about Eunhae complaining... thanks for always making me smile, babycakes. 😘 Thanks for being my world... -

- Cringy 😖 but I like Cheesy Siwon better than Sad Siwon. Okay? I love Cheesy Siwon. I'm glad he's back. I love my Choi Siwon. Don't let him go somewhere again, ahrasseo? -

- Oh. Ahra. I love you too, Cho Kyuhyun. Forever and ever. 😘😘😘💙💙💙 -

- Kisses you back. 😘😘😘😘 Oh, by the way, can you open the door now? I'm hungry and this chicken is getting cold now. The beer is also getting warm. Palli! - 

- Mwo? Wha-

- Palli! -

I almost dropped my phone running for the door. A passionate kiss welcomed me as soon as it opened.

"Happy now?" He said as he stared at me with those loving eyes.

"Never been happier."

"You should be. I used up one of my vacations for you."

I took those lips again, locking it with mine. "I love you. I miss you. I love you."

"I love you more so please be okay.. Like really be okay now so I can be too, huh?

"I am now... Now that I realize I still have you."

"You will always have me, silly."

Yes. I am okay now. Cho Kyuhyun made me okay. No... He made me more than okay. My baby Kyu just made me live again... And I will always be thankful for having him in my life.

- Hope you like it guys. Ugh. this is a random post so pardon me. Annyeong! - xoxo Lexielle