Run away.

 

I went all around the world 

Trying to forget about him 

About the pain he brought into my life 

 

Machu Picchu, Peru 

 

My last destination before returning home 

It was a long climb to reach the top 

But as I looked down  

At all the stone structures  

Placed across the green land 

And the towering mighty hills 

It was all worth it 

As I held my camera  

Shots of the scenery being captured  

Somehow with such a simple landscape 

It turned out beautifully 

Aesthetically pleasing to the eye 

I stopped for a while 

Hung the camera around my neck 

Closed my eyes 

And inhaled  the air 

It felt different, foreign 

It felt like my burden was partly lifted 

Like I was partly free 

I opened my eyes 

Trying to capture nature's beauty 

Intensely observing how perfect this looked and felt 

Turning back  

I looked at the trail I followed to reach this high 

I didn't want to forget it  

I didn't want to forget every inch of this 

I adjusted my camera  

To the appropriate height  

And continued take pictures 

Suddenly in my camera 

I saw someone 

Someone that tugs at my heart 

I saw him 

I saw him staring back to me 

I saw him coming forward but I didn't put down my camera 

I pretended he wasn't here 

That he wasn't here to ruin my freedom 

That this wasn't real 

And I began to walk too 

Pretending that I was in the midst of photography 

Pretending I was one with nature 

Until he grabbed my upper arm firmly 

That is when I snapped back into reality 

Knowing I am not invisible to him 

 

"hey" 

 

His voice 

Never fails to make me weak in the knees 

The way he smiles 

Drew my heart back to the same old feeling I had 

I slowly dropped my camera 

Lifted my head a little higher 

And finally 

Met his eyes 

Unknowingly  

A familiar warmth blossomed from my heart 

And started to circulate all over 

The dark hues in his eyes  

Invites me 

And somehow makes me feel like our souls were connected 

As one 

And its genuine, innocent 

His face 

Still had its defined character 

A perfect feature that no one would miss 

His smile 

Still shows that he cares  

That says, 

 

"I'm here for you." 

"I'll never leave you." 

"I trust you." 

"I still love you." 

 

I looked at him 

Eyes looking up and down 

It looked like he got skinnier 

And with that  

I could hear my inner self 

Screaming at me at the back of my head 

Saying I should worry for him 

And inevitably I gave in 

And all this  

Just all this 

Broke down my wall 

The wall that guarded my heart from pain 

The wall i built ever since I left him 

I looked down at the ground 

Not wanting to face him 

My vision blurred 

And I swore I could see 

Millions of pieces  

Of broken heart pieces 

Filled the spaces between and around us 

I felt a warm tear trace along my face 

And I could sense 

His expressions change almost immediately 

A semi dark cloud appeared above the crown of his head 

Worry washed across his face 

And immediately, 

He gripped my shoulders firmly  

Enough to fill myself with confidence  

To look up at him 

I see his eyebrows furrowed 

His lips parted before closing again 

He hesitated and said, 

 

"Changkyun-ah, are you okay?" 

 

The way he said my name 

Made me feel utterly overwhelmed 

Butterflies in my stomach were racing around 

I couldn't think straight 

My mind was clouded with a thick cloud that didn't allow me to think 

But that sentence was attached with a sense of distantness  

Which makes me feel the tinniest bit of guilt 

I wiped away my tears 

Forced a small smile 

Collected all my bravery before barely whispering a sentence 

 

"I'm okay." 

 

And the conversation ended 

We stared at each other  

Not really knowing what else to say 

Somehow it didn’t feel awkward 

But neither did it feel comfortable 

Without even a single word being transmitted 

I could sense that this was my que to turn and walk away 

Continue my path of solitude 

And forget everything 

"No." 

My heart screamed 

I know I didn’t want to either  

But this was good for me 

Right? 

I was ready  

I wasn’t ready to do it all 

"No." 

Right there and then 

"Don’t." 

I broke eye contact first  

Looking away  

And decided to release myself from his grip 

And walk away 

But this doesn’t happen 

fortunately 

Before taking even a step 

He pulled me close 

With an arm around my waist 

And another the back of my head 

"I missed you, 

I missed you so much, 

Please don't run away like that anymore." 

Concern strung on his sentence 

Something tore my heart into two  

And my whole body suddenly had a mind of its own 

I found my arms hanging around his neck 

I shut my eyes tightly 

As hot tears poured out my eyes 

Every feeling I felt before was replaced  

With a warm, happy, tingly feeling that filled my heart 

"I missed you too. I'm sorry." I mumbled 

I felt content at last 

My pain disappeared  

All thanks to him, 

Jooheon 

That was his name 

The man i loved ever so dearly 

The man i swore would never let go 

The man I thought running away from  

Was going to save me from my scars 

But who knew, 

Just his presence  

Cured my wounds 

Made my darkest moments turn into light 

Turned the worst to the best  

I love him. 

I love all of him. 

And I have never felt so contented  

Never felt so blessed  

Ever in eternity. 

My happiness is Jooheon 

And only he can make me smile again. 

 

 

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