Hyukkie, darling remember when you introduced me to her, your were all smiles , holding hands with her. I wanted to be happy for you, I really wanted to.
But, I had a problem

I love you

You sat there, hugging your knees 
bawling your eyes out, I can hear everysingle one of your incoherent words.
"Hyukkie? " I called to you, only standing a few feet away. But you seemed so far away. 

After a few moments, you look up to me. 

"Hae" he said in a raspy voice. 

I swallowed the lump in my throat, his eyes were bloodshot and puffy, he looked so tired and hurt. 
The look in his eyes, hurt me so much. 

I feel so helpless

What would I give to take away the pain in your heart.

Remember?  I was your wingman, I would prepare eveything for you and girl to enjoy.

I admit, I hated her, but I simply put all of hatred because of you. 
Was I just blinded by my love for you? 

But no . . . 

I was right, all along. 

"Why does this happen to me? "
You asked.
"I-I"
"I love her, I gave her my all."
Your everything, how I wish it was me. I pursed my lips, and resisted the urge to cry, I sat in front of you on the floor. 

If I told you that I love you, it would ruin everything. 
But I know I love you more anyone else will. 
I love you, more than I love myself. 

Remember? The day she left you, the day she said she didn't want you. 

You got so drunk you couldn't yourself home.
You were so drunk, I had to pick you up. 
You were so drunk you kept saying sorry and degrading yourself. 
You were so drunk.  . . . to see I was crying as I took you home. 
It pained me to hear every sound you make every single emotional dagger she put into your heart rip you apart. 
But I love you, I have and always will. 
I will stand by your side.

Your cries filled my ears, the more I hear it the more anger consumed me. 
Unconsciously, I walked to your desk.
Picked up a frame, a picture of you and that godforsaken . 
I look at you, and my heart sank even more if it was even possible.

 
I bring my hand up and smash the frame on the floor. 
Startled, you look at me, and I go towards you I pick you up and you stood on your own, I ran to your bathroom and retrieve her make up and handed most of them to you. 
I look at you again, and gave you a small smile. 
I throw it onto the ground again. 
and stomped my feet on her belongings. 
You got what meant, and did the same to the rest of it. 
You went to your closet and got the clothes she left and you started ripping them apart. 
You were still crying.

After everysingle thing she own was destroyed and was piled on the floor. 
You put your head on my shoulder and cried again, this time you sounded a bit relieved. 
I waited until all of it faded into sniffles. 
"Hyukjae?"
No answer. 
I took a deep breath. "Let's stop being friends." I was fine if he hated me. I just wanted to say it. 
"I love you, I have and always will."
I put my left hand on his head running my fingers through his hair. 
"I'm ready to throw all of this away, just know that I love you so much, I knew she would hurt you but I wanted you to be happy."

"Hae"

I didn't know what to make off of his tone, all those years of knowing him suddenly looked like nothing. "I love you, and I'm sorry." I finally said, he wasn't reacting. 
That was it, I lost him. I wasted years of friendship. 

I planted a kiss on his forhead, and pulled away, leaving his head hanging low. 

I walked away