My stomach churns as I think about what can happen today. 

Will I see you again? 

Just like my anxious heart, the sound of the engine came nearer. The bus stops like it’s waiting for me.  

As I walk towards my favorite seat, I scan my surroundings briefly. 

You are not here.

A pang of loneliness struck me. I am close to losing it but then you stepped in. 

For a moment, I thought my heart will burst at its seams. I pretend to look okay. But I know, I’m not doing any good.

I see you looking for a blank seat.

I gulp, panicked a little bit. Because the thing you’re looking for is right in front of me.
I pretend to look outside. The skies keeping me occupied for a moment. But who am I kidding? You’re all I think about.

I feel you getting nearer. My peripheral vision tells me so.

I didn’t know it was possible. To feel your  presence even though you’re not literally close to me. 

Can I look at you? 

I really want to.

But a part of me is scared.

But really, I can’t help it. 

I gave in. 

I stole a glance.

You smile briefly at the guy at your right before you sat down.

I let out a sigh. You are so beautiful. 

Like this, I can only look at you from behind as now’s not the right moment.

I smile bitterly and wonder, will the right moment come?