Lisa's POV

Chaeyoung is out with her Photoshoot. Jennie and Jisoo are with their familes. Me, I'm here alone inside my room reading a post about Chaeng's goal on Instagram

I wanted to dance with my father on my wedding day

I didn't realize my tears flows down

Wedding

Chaeng's dream which she can't have if it's me

I thought I already buried this feelings for her. I thought it was the best for us, for our group and for our future

My heart aches thinking someday and someone will snatch Chaeyoung away

The one who has the leisure to whisper sweet words on her ears. To see the smile on her lips and to kiss. To hug to feel her warmth and the joy to hold her hand

......

I know I'm a coward, afraid of being rejected, but who doesn't?

And I'm here crying, being emo, thinking how life is so unfair

Why do I have to meet her and what's worst is

I...

I fell in love

My brain says stop being delusional be rational, fear, rejection, disbandment and failure but my heart says different it says try.

Go for it.

Take a risk

Win Park Chaeyoung

I'm battling my inner self

I have to decide, within 4 months my contract will expire

What if I pursue Chaeng and I failed. What will I do?

Should I quit and go back to Thailand and be a photographer?

Nah...

I have to decide

How long will I hide and be like this

I'm so confused

But

Do I want to be a person who stays beside her loved ones just watching, doing nothing while she's being taken away without confessing or putting a fight or knowing if we feel the same way?

Maybe I'm selfish to think like this. I'm already lucky and blessed to have the fortune and to achieve one of my dreams to be a K-pop star but 

I really really want her