April 24th

Dear Diary. Or journal whatever I dont care. I just received you on my birthday from my beloved twin brother Kwangmin. Let me tell you a little bit about myself yeah? My name is Youngmin I am 16 years old, I am gay, I wanna become an idol one day uhh well I dont know what else to put here. I used to have a journal but I got bored with it but I think I would like to start writing again. Ill tell you about my brother later because I have to go now

 

April 27th

Dear diary I know I havent written in you for a few days now but Ive been busy. Let me tell you about my twin brother Kwangmin. He is the most beautiful boy in existence. Im not afraid to admit that Im in love with my own twin brother. But I know it will never happen because he has always said that he was straight (which is a big ing lie tbh) but even when he does come out I know he would never want to date his own twin brother. I know one  day I will have to get over him and find another guy but for now I just want to fantasize about him for now while Im still young I guess. Theres a really cute guy at school but he already has a boyfriend. But even if I was his boyfriend I wouldnt be able to get over Kwangmin just like that. Oh well

 

April 28th

Dear diary. Today at school Kwangmin was in my favorite shorts of his. You know, the ones that show off that nice of his. Hmm what I would do to him. Its so hard to resist him. Also I saw him talking to a girl and they seemed pretty flirty with each other. Sigh I guess he really isnt into guys like I thought he was. I dont know how to simply ask him what he is. I mean he was there for me when I came out as gay so I dont want to upset him but its hard to accept that he is straight. Its gross actually but whatever

 

May 2nd

Dear diary. Its been a few days since I wrote in you but honestly nothing much has happened just a boring past few days. Kwangmin brought a girl over but they seem to be just friends. They were playing video games as friends normally do. I think she was a lesbian anyways because she was talking about her girlfriend. Or bi. But the important thing is she is not dating Kwangmin

 

May 3rd

Dear diary oh you will not BELIEVE what just happened Kwangmin just came out as gay I am so ing happy I had to contain my happiness I was so excited when he told me and my parents. However he told me that he has a major crush on this single gay guy at school. So yeah looks like my chances are still not looking high. Sigh oh well at least he isnt straight

 

May 4th

just testing out this new pen <3 :) 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 :( ^_^ ^w^ :3 Aa Bb Cc Dd Ee Ff Gg Hh Ii Jj Kk Ll Mm Nn Oo this Im not writing the rest

 

May 5th

dear diary today in lunch Kwangmin was flirting with that guy. Well turns out he got back with his ex boyfriend. Kwangmin was quite upset. Also we will be going on a family vacation soon

 

May 8th

dear diary today we went to a carnival for "sibbling bonding" or what I like to call it "a cute date with my non existent boyfriend" sigh Im such a lonely boy I need a boyfriend preferrably Kwangmin. Anyways we played many games, went on rides, ate food, watched fireworks it was a great night. I held onto Kwangmin during some rides and he felt warm. I love his warmth so much. Honestly though it literally felt like a carnival date. All it was missing was the kiss on the top of the ferris wheel you know what I mean? It was an amazing day

 

May 12th

dear diary today was a great day. My parents took me and Kwangmin out of school early for our family vacation and since we dont have any final exams since we took them early we dont go back to school until September! Also yes I had to change pens because the blue one stopped writing

 

May 13th

dear diary I just got a nice pink pen but I miss that blue one I need to get another one. I stole it from someone a school so thats why I didnt have more. Anyways today we left for Japan. Ive been there once as a kid but now I truly get to experience it. Im bored on this flight, Kwangmin is next to me on his ipad and mine is charging. I also just felt like writing in my journal. Its very calming to me. There are some cute guys on this plane damn. Kwangmin doesn care though he is busy watching Yuri On Ice. I mean I dont blame him its cute and gay so whats not to love about it. Also I think VIXX is on this plane. I swear I just saw Leo. Oh wait no its just some guy who looks like him. Hes still gorgeous as hell though. Ugh I feel motion sickness on this plane. I hope we get there soon or else I will puke

 

May 14th

Finally landed into Tokyo and got to our hotel. Also I got a pack of different pens so Ill try them. Lets see. Meh I dont really like the red. Not a fan of the green either. Hey I like this one though. Hmm blue but not the blue I liked before. Lets see AH YES PERFECT THE SAME AS BEFORE. <3 :) 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 wow I love this color so much this is a nice pen. Ok well as I was saying we finally got to our hotel and Im tired so Im going to pass out asleep. Also Im happy to say me and Kwangmin are sharing a bed <3

 

May 17th

This has been an amazing vacation. I have bought so much clothes, cds, plushies etc and even JGV heh heh but thats not important right now. Me and Kwangmin were in the hotel pool this morning when he asked me "Youngmin I have a funny theoretical question. If I was in love with you what would you do?" and it cought me off guard so I just laughed it off and he blushed. I am such a ing idiot what if that was my chance to tell him? Well you know what? Tomorrow me and him are exploring Tokyo alone just the 2 of us while our parents do their own thing. Maybe Ill find a nice place to tell him

 

May 18th

Well...I told him. I TOLD HIM DAMMIT! And well he accepted my feelings and told me that he also was in love with me. Alright let me tell you how it all went down. We went to a cafe which we were unaware that it was a place where couples come all the time. And the barista I guess not noticing we were twins asked Kwangmin "alright sir will you and your boyfriend have this for here or to go?" and I felt a warmth inside me. Kwangmin didnt even correct her and he said "yeah we will have it to go". Anyways we went to a park nearby and saw a cute gay couple cuddling on the grass under a cherry blossom tree. Well Kwangmin turned to me and said "man I cant wait until I have a boyfriend who I can do similar things with you know?" I forget what else he said but then the subject of our future boyfriends and husbands came up and well he asked who I had a crush on at school and accidentally told him. I decided to just go through with it and told him my deep confession of how much I love him and how much he means to me. To my surprise, he confessed the same feelings to me back. I was completely shocked but filled with such happiness. I dropped my bags and hugged him gently. He hugged me and I soon found my lips on his soft warm lips. It was the most magical kiss ever and I have kissed other guys before but the kiss of my twin brother was like no other. So now, my boyfriend is my twin brother. I am so happy. I am very very VERY happy. I love Kwangmin so much and I promise to never ever hurt him and give him the love that he deserves <3