Its finally happening, yes it’s finally happening as Sehun stood in front of me. He told me that he wanted to talk and this time, he isn’t looking in my eyes and he’s rubbing his nape, a sign telling me that he’s nervous. We’re 20 this year and we are about to graduate from university and today’s our last day. Sehun and I were like an on off unofficial couple where he would tease and call me his Girlfriend and I’ll tease and call him my boyfriend while other times we introduce each other as friends. We held hands, hugged a couple times, kissed a couple times and even slept together a couple times. I was happy with the arrangement because he never failed to show me love. Today was our graduation day and all of us were planning on a drinking party at a club later on and we were all done with graduation of speech, collecting of certificate and throwing of graduation caps in the air did Sehun pull me aside to talk. It was itching me to know why he was so distracted and upset and he’s been a little cold lately like he wouldn’t be so enthusiastic over the phone and he doesn’t really smile when he sees me anymore. Could it be that he’s over me? Is he done with me? A little tired of me? I frowned when my mind got clouded with what he was about to tell me as the sky darkened, it was like an impending doom and I felt my heart sank as Sehun ruffled his hair.

“The reason why I’m distracted lately and keeping my distance from you is because.. I… have a... Girlfriend.” I heave a sigh of relief as if I thought he didn’t like me and.. wait.. I looked back and widened my eyes. “You.. have a Girlfriend?” And over here, I ing thought he liked me, I ing thought I was his girlfriend. He nodded and sigh “I’ve been meaning to tell you but I can’t open the subject somehow.” My eyes welled up, my heart was aching like as I reached out to slap him across the face, his eyes widen as my hand stung and I’m pretty sure his face stung as well. “So you weren’t planning on telling me? Oh my god Sehun. How expected of you.” I spat “when Jennie appeared, you didn’t even ing tell me oh my god.” I leaned on the wall for support as I felt my heart crushed into pieces “when we were 16, remember how we learnt to love and Jennie appeared? It ing hurts.” I shouted as I clutched my heart “you broke me. And Joo came along to fix me but it didn’t work. 2 years later. You came back and it was love you taught me again.” I pushed Sehun angrily and frustrated “YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU.” I felt my heart pinched again “BUT YOU DIDN’T LOVE ME AT ALL. You were just fooling and playing around with me.” I cried out angrily “AND NOW YOU HAVE A LEGIT GIRLFRIEND FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG. And you didn’t plan on telling me?! Were you planning on dragging me along and led me on? How Long were you planning to play me?” I asked in a Low Whisper as Sehun looked at the ground, anywhere that isnt me “ANSWER ME GOD DAMN IT!” I shouted and frustratedly turn behind to kick the wall before turning around in defeat and sigh.

“So is this the end of us? Sehun and Hanuel?” I grinned like a maniac “why would I even ask that right? It’s futile when the answer is so obvious and right in front of me.” I sigh and ruffled my hair, my faces a mess and my hair is already all over the place. “I guess.. that’s everything. Thank you Sehun and I hope you love this girl more than me.” I turned to leave but he grabbed my hand and I knew he was going to spin me around to hug but I pushed him before it could happen as I leaned against the wall “Sehun. Stop. We can’t do this anymore. I wasn’t anything more than your temporary love.” I walked away, feeling myself wobble when Sehun made me stop “stop!” He shouted as his fist unclenched and clenched “you were real.” He whispered “YOU WERE THE REAL ONE. .” He can’t control and started spewing “I really loved you. I just.. I ed it all up ok! I really.. love you.. I ing love you it hurts!” There as a moment of silence as my tears silently fell to the floor “goodbye Sehun.” I Whisper as I walked away and to the front steps of the school as I weeped silently. “I know schools out and all but I didn’t know you are going to be heart broken and cry like crazy.” A voice said as I looked up and saw Xavier before I wrapped myself around him and cried like a baby “hold on. What’s wrong?” He asked, frowning as I hiccuped while trying to tell him “Sehun has a Girlfriend…” Xavier in a breath “and I’m not his Girlfriend.” He frowned as he hugged me tightly while I sobbed into his jacket as I cried while he patted my back.

“You know Hanuel. I’m sure he loves you.” I shook my head “he never did. It was a one sided thing!!” He frowned and caress my hair “How about the grad party tonight?” Xavier asked “do you still want to go? I can cancel for both of us if you need recovery.” I frowned and pressed my cheek against his wet denim jacket “you don’t have to skip because of me.” Xavier shook my forth and back “you know I really liked…” Xavier stopped short “Sehun. But seeing how… he treats you.. it’s really disappointing and heartbreaking.” I sigh and closed my eyes, inhaling his perfume. “Do you want to know a trick that will get Sehun running back to you?” I looked up at Xavier, my Chin on his chest as I look at him with puppy, red puffy eyes. Xavier grinned as I wondered what Xavier has up his sleeve. “That’s right Sae. You and I are going to act as Boyfriend and Girlfriend and make Sehun realize that he wants you. Tonight, our operation starts.” I frowned “it’s no use Xa. Sehun won’t come back. He will never come back.” Xavier raised a brow “how will you know Sae? It’s not like you were ever in a relationship with him around. Try it. Challenge him and test it tonight. I swear on my name that he will come back to you.” I sigh, resigned “fine. What’s the first step?” Xavier grinned and grabbed my hand before pulling me with him “what’s that for?” I asked as Xavier raised a brow “You know.. Sehun is behind right? He’s looking at us. Don’t look back.” I couldn’t help it, I really wanted to turn behind to look at him but Xavier spun me and stood in front of me as I looked up at him as he leaned in and kissed my forehead as my eyes widened. “Make this work. I’ll pick you up later to the party.” He winked and walked away as I frowned.

“So… you also kept Xavier from me?” Sehun asked when he walked up to me, he gave me a sad smile and I felt bitter, he had no rights to say that I’m the same as him. “What do you mean?!” I snapped “you and I aren’t in the same category Sehun. I didn’t keep Xavier from you. I told you every tiny BIT and PIECES of me that weren’t lies.” Sehun stares at me “damn. Hanuel I…” I held up a hand and continued walking away. Sehun made me angry, how dare he put me in the same category with him?!