''Can't you see him? He is ing dying!''

Seungri just sighed and got up from his seat, opened his arms.

''And look at me--I don't give a , hyung.''

''Stop this, Seungri.You look like , you don't even eat--''

''I'm not gonna stay here and talk about this.See you later.''

''FINE! YOU KNOW WHAT--YOU GUYS ARE PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER--JUST ING RUN WHEN YOU CAN'T DEAL WITH IT-- YOU CAN RUN AWAY FROM EVERTHING!''

Seungri walked towards the door.

''EXCEPT YOURSELF SEUNGRI! YOU CAN'T RUN AWAY FROM YOURSELF!''

Seungri didn't even look his back.

Everyone was talking about Jiyong.How sad he was, how tired he looked.Seungri didn't give a .He really didn't.Because he was not better than him, and if Seungri was feeling like , Jiyong should feel like that too.It was only fair like that.

He didn't want to break Jiyong's heart, of course he didn't want it.He was in love with that damn man, he could just break his own heart for not making him sad.But this was different, Jiyong deserved this.Everyone was worrying because Jiyong was not an expert when it comes to hide his feelings.He wasn't eating well, he wasn't going out too much, he was posting depressive things on his instagram, he was always writing songs, smoking like every damn minute.So everyone was feeling sad for him, wanting to make him feel better.But they couldn't.Because the person who could make him feel better was, not a volunteer for that.So everyone started to push his limits, asking questions, blaming him for making Jiyong like this.But the reality was not that easy.If he was the guilty, he wouldn't watch the love of his life like that, he would just go to him and apologize for thousand times. proud, he wouldn't even think about it for once.

But it was different.

''DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA--- HOW I FEEL WHEN I SEE YOUR DAMN SMILE WITH ALL THAT MANS-- PHOTOS AND VIDEOS-- STOP ING DOING THIS SEUNGRI!''

He just sighed when Jiyong dragged him into the studio and started to yell.

''Are you done? I need to go.''

''Why are you doing this?! Just-- Seungri! Can't you see that I'm dying?!''

The damn sentence.The same sentence he heard like everyday.

He suddenly leaned closer to older, looked at his eyes calmly.

''Can't you see it?'' He asked and Jiyong looked at him confused.

''The only thing I see is my boyfriend, travelling all over the world and leaving me.''

Seungri smiled sadly and rolled his eyes before walking to door.

''Then go and some Japanese girls.Like you always did.'' He said before going out, and he could hear it when Jiyong kicked somethings in the room.

He was drunk, Seungri.

You know that he loves you, Seungri.

It was just a mistake, Seungri.

Bull.

Seungri was drunk too, when the blonde dancer started to flirt with him.He was so drunk, but never too drunk for calling Jiyong and asking him to take him home.Never too drunk for cheating on him.He was not that kind of guy.But Jiyong was a heavy drinker, everyone knew that.Seungri complained about it every time, but when Jiyong just started to mumble things and cling to him like a naughty kid, he couldn't help but let him do whatever he wanted.

''Hyung.'' Glory looked at him worriedly.

''What's wrong? Is there any problem with--''

''No, not that.Everything is done.Just-- Look at this.'' Glory turned his phone's screen to him.

There was a fan account, showing that Jiyong commented on Seungri's last posted video.

''He didn't.'' Seungri shooked his head.

peaceminusone: I love you.

''Hyung I think--''

''No, it's okay.They will understand it as a fan service.Like they always do.''

''Hyung.'' Glory smiled at him. ''You miss him.''

Seungri just sighed and ruffled his hair.

''You do.''

''Yeah, I ing miss him but that doesn't change anything.'' He finally gave in, because that boy was the only person who didn't blame Seungri.He was just a good friend, who always tried to comfort him.

''It should, hyung.He misses you too.I mean look at him, when you post something he runs into your account like in one second.Probably, he your post notifications.He just-- can't stop himself, hyung.''

''So what?'' Seungri looked at him after rubbing his face. ''So what? What should I ing do? Please tell me because I have no idea.I'm so sick of everything.''

Glory just squeezed his shoulder slightly.Of course he was not in the state for telling him what to do.

Before going for DJing, his phone vibrated.

From: GG Babe! ♥

I miss you.

He just deleted the message and opened the damn photo.He saved it because he didn't want to forget it.They took a photo of Jiyong, going out of an apartment.And Seungri knew who was living in that apartment.

So he did his job.And he enjoyed.Like he wasn't hurting himself with Jiyong.Like it didn't hurt like hell when he saw the photo.Like his heart wasn't aching every night.

''What are you trying to do Seungri? All SNS is filled with you.Partying with your ing business partners.''

''I'm not doing anything bad, hyung.You know it.''

''Not doing anything bad for band.But for Jiyong--''

Seungri sighed loudly while texting on his phone and Youngbae paused for a moment.

''You know that he doesn't like David.I'm not saying you're guilty, Seungri.But just-- I don't want to see you guys like this.''

Of course he wasn't the guilty.He wasn't the one who became too drunk for keeping his inside of his pants.

''What are you doing here?'' Seungri asked when he came his home, around 5 a.m.

''Did you sleep with him?''

Seungri laughed and took of his jacket after his shoes.

''What do you want to hear?'' He asked and looked at the man, who was standing in the middle of the room.Seungri could say that he cried, actually Jiyong was a cry baby.He didn't have a problem with crying every time he felt sad.But Seungri was not like that, he would always wait until he went into shower.

''Don't with me, Seungri!'' Jiyong suddenly got closer to him.''Did you slept with him?''

Seungri smiled and looked at him.

''Yeah, I did.He ed me so good.''

''Stop this now!'' Jiyong suddenly grabbed his chin harshly, Seungri would make him stop with a one move, but he didn't.

''Why? Imagining his in me make you feel disgusting?''

''Seungri I swear--''

''Tell me how it feels to imagine it.''

''Why are you letting him ing touch your leg?! Why the -- you just--- He is into you! And you know it!''

''Did it feel good?'' Seungri asked suddenly, Jiyong surprised.

''Did you like to her?''

''What the are you talking about?! I don't even remember Seungri! I swear I don't--''

''I saw she went to Chanel show.'' He looked at the man.He was really calm because he wasn't angry, he was sad. ''And I'm not a ing idiot.She can't just go somewhere like that without--''

''No! Just listen to me! Seungri please--'' He held onto youngers arms.

''Listen what Jiyong? You came out of her apartment after ing her and boom! A low model like her goes to a huge fashion week after that!''

''She ing said if I help her in work, she wouldn't even remember about that night!''

''Whatever.'' Seungri pushed his hands but Jiyong quickly held him again.

''Baby.''

''Don't say that--''

''No, you Seungri! I miss you okay?! I miss you and she doesn't change the fact that you're my baby! No one can change that!''

''You ed her, Jiyong! You ed her! Just tell me-- How would you feel if I was the one--''

''Don't say it.'' Jiyong's voice suddenly changed. ''Please--''

''You ing put your damn inside of her! What do you want me to do!? What should I do, Jiyong?! Should I take that inside of me again?! Would you? Would you?!''

''I would!''

This surprised Seungri.He looked at the man, who was busy with ruffling his orange hair.It was obvious that he was thinner now.

''If you would say that you slept with David-- I would punch you! I would ing kick you but I wouldn't let you go!'' Jiyong suddenly pushed Seungri harshly. ''Why are you letting me go?!''

Seungri was taken a back because hearing that things from Jiyong was really weird.Jiyong was the kind of man who got jeaolus over plants.

''Can't you see that I'm ing in love with you?! You're not just a boyfriend Seungri---hell you were never-- I was always like an idiot teenager when I'm with you-- It didn't even change--- I don't even remember! I was like half dead-- I'm not even sure we did something because -- I can't even remember that night-- I ing drink too much--The are you trying to do?! Why aren't you swearing at me, punching me?!  Why the you're partying with your friends?! That man is eating you with his eyes!''

Seungri sighed and rubbed his forehead with his fingers.

''I miss you.''

Jiyong whispered after few minutes, his hands found youngers.

''I miss you.'' He intertwined their fingers and waited for a reaction.Because he was missing him more than he could ever describe and he was sure, Seungri would understand that from his tone.

''I'm just--'' Seungri murmured something and when Jiyong felt that Seungri held his hands back, he couldn't help but smile.It was the most beautiful moment after weeks.

''Please, Seungri.'' he whispered and it made Seungri lift his head, looked at Jiyong.When Seungri leaned closer to him, Jiyong gladly accepted his lips.They didn't kissed for weeks and it was too long because in a normal day Youngbae would always make disgusting sounds, tired of the kissing view.

''You should-- just go home, okay?'' Seungri pulled back and ran his fingers through Jiyong's messy hair. ''You need to sleep.'' He said in a soft tone and Jiyong looked him like a damn puppy.

''Should I go?''

Seungri smiled.

''You should.We will-- we will get over this.'' he added and it made Jiyong smile widely.

''Okay-- Okay I'm going home.''

Actually, it was so weird because even with this little interaction, Jiyong started to eat.Sleep.Stopped working.After few weeks, he was looking healthy.Smiling more.Smoking less.

''Tell him to stop, Seungri!'' Jiyong suddenly threw himself on Seungri, they were in Seunghyun's house and the drunk man was running after him with a slipper.Jiyong was giggling like a kid, hiding on Seungri's chest.

''Hyung! What the --'' Seungri put his arms around of the thin man and Seunghyun's hit was hurting him instead of Jiyong.Because he was really thin, almost disappearing into Seungri's arms.

''Stop it---''

''Ahh!''

''Don't hit him!-- Youngbae hyung!'' Seunghyun was hitting Jiyong's legs when the youngest was trying to stop him.

''Hyung---I guess Daesung is touching your paintings!'' Younger suddenly shouted and it made the drunk man stop before running to other room, probably looking for Daesung who was in toilet.

''God---You saved me--'' Jiyong was still giggling.

''Why he was hitting you?''

''Does he need a reason? He is ing crazy!''

It made Seungri smile and Jiyong couldn't help but melt in it.He always loved to see his maknae smiling, it was like a beautiful piece of art.For him.

Jiyong just sat on the couch and looked at his leg.

''God--he really made a bruise--''

He was almost falling from the sofa when he suddenly felt the younger on top of him.But Seungri quickly held him and put his hand under his head.He was kissing him all of sudden and Jiyong quickly wrapped his arms around of youngers neck because , he was about to die.Even before debut, he was always touching younger.His shoulder, his chest, his fingers.Touching him.But after that scandal, he needed to keep himself away from him until Seungri wanted it.So it felt amazing, it was like listening his favorite song after a long time, like drinking hot chocolate after walking through snow for hours.

Seungri suddenly stopped.Jiyong was panting and he was beyond of shocked because Seungri was acting so serious all the time and suddenly he kissed the out of him.

''Can't you see it?'' Seungri asked softly, his lips was still touching olders.

Jiyong smiled before lifting his hand and caressing Seungri's chubby cheeks.God, how much he missed this.

''I can see it.'' He answered and he could feel Seungri leaning into his touch.

''You're dying, baby.'' He added and Seungri looked at him.

''Finally, you can see it.''

''I'm sorry.'' He whispered and pecked youngers lips softly. ''I'm so sorry.''

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Blame thin Jiyong...

He gives me feels like this.

Seriously, doesn't he the ing cutest? I know he is damn good, hot, btw the king of the k-pop lmao BUT, doesn't he the cutest when he can't stop himself and giggle on the stage like an adorable kid? Like for a second G-Dragon mask is falling down and Jiyongie is starting to chuckle.

BLAME.HIM.

:)

Just wanted to write, hope you like it <3

Kisses!