– Sungjong POV –

Sunggyu- when will Myungsoo come back? 

I look up to him and put down the ice caramel macchiato I was gonna drink and shrug my shoulders, we are currently in a cafe nearby my apartment Sunggyu hyung called me out wanting to check on me and see me no matter how much I decline it he still wouldn't budge so my resistance ended in vain because he isn't infinite leader for nothing. Well I'm used to it by now, ever since Myung entered the military him and the other hyungs would come and call me just to see me and talk to me and see how I have been doing. It already been 2 years since Myung enlisted in the military I was suppose to enlist last year but we decided to postpone it for now. 

I don't know hyung

Sunggyu- you don't know? Why? 

We haven't talked yet the last time we talk was like a two weeks ago he said he would be busy and wouldn't be able to call and talk to me and when we last talk we didn't talk about it.

Sunggyu- are you two having a problem or drifting apart? 

What? No hyung we are doing fine actually we are doing great I was also expecting we would be having problems but nothing I'm just worried if he is doing fine and all since it has been two weeks since we last talked. But other than that I could say we are stronger than before because of his enlistment 

Sunggyu- good then, well I'm sure Myungsoo is doing fine, and it's been two years already so any moment he might call you and tell you he'll be coming home 

Yeah I guess I just want him back hyung you know? Umma and appa are asking about him and whenever I visit his parents I can see they miss him too

Sunggyu- be strong Sungjong-ah 

Ne hyung I am trying not just for us but also for both our parents

Sunggyu- so you haven't been staying at his apartment? 

No, I still went there and sleep there at least 3 times a week so that byul would still be used in Myung's apartment and also to clean up the house

Sunggyu- didn't you guys have that cleaning service? 

We used to at first but we decided to cancel the contract I just don't feel comfortable letting someone come and go as they feel even though they just clean the house 

Sunggyu- I see, anyway have you been feeling well? I heard from Geonam hyung that you were ill?

Ah that was last week hyung I'm fine now 

Sunggyu- are you sure? 

Ne hyung, seriously you worry too much no wonder you are getting old quickly

Sunggyu- yah! 

Kekeke I'm just joking hyung, don't worry I'm doing well I'm not neglecting my health I guess last week was just a hectic one and then I got caught in the rain so I got a flu and all

Sunggyu- make sure you drink your vitamins Sungjong-ah 

Ne hyung 

Sunggyu- oh tomorrow come to the company okay? 

Eh why? 

Sunggyu- we have a interview

Ehh? Interview? What kind of interview?

Sunggyu- aisht just come -_-" I can't remember what it's for 

Kekeke okay hyung I understand

Sunggyu- good I would go now I still have a recording for the variety show I'm mcing 

Okay hyung, fighting! 

Sunggyu- message me when you get back to your house 

Ne hyung, Anyeong! Have a safe drive

Sunggyu- mhm 

When I arrive back to my house my dogs and byul immediately welcomed me home and I pick byul up after rubbing their heads and scratching the fur behind their ears. I went to the living room and took a sit on the couch as I continue to rub byul's fur. I look at byul's gray and shiny fur and I can't help but smile a little. Byul always manage to make me remember about Myung and somehow make me less lonely it's like because of byul I feel like Myung is still beside me.

Byul-ah it's been two years since your dad enlisted we'll get to see him soon you miss him too right? 

Time went by real quickly but still these two years of him being in the military I had to spend sleepless nights lonesome days and no matter how much I don't want to admit it also tearful days. There are times when my depression would attack and Myungsoo isn't there to help me cope up and scare my monsters away. So those times I would cry in a corner while I hug his pillow that is now only has a faint smell of him, those are the times that it was really tough for me but other than that everything is well and at least we got to speak with one another once a week and for that I truly treasure those times. 

Like I said to Sunggyu hyung we are doing well, we don't have to constantly be beside each other to make sure we still the same for one another. We understand each other better now and more level headed with this kinds of things, all I want is to have Myungsoo back out of the military and basically back close to me to our family and friends. I want to see him lounging in his living room reading some manga while byul is on top of his stomach sleeping when I come over to his house. I want to receive message from him saying he is going to some of his solo schedule, I want to see him posting pictures in his Instagram. I just want to see him do all those things he normally do 

I lift byul up and kiss his nose as I then put him down and went to bed, I don't want to dwell on this matter and get myself depress not when I promised him the last time I had my depression attacks that I would be strong and wouldn't have any depression attacks because of my longing towards him. I don't want him to feel guilty that he was the cause and that he wasn't there to console me when I had my depression, even tho he doesn't say anything I can hear in his voice that he is blaming himself for not being beside me when I need him and that he blames himself for being the cause of it. 

When I woke up it was already morning I lift my head from the pillow that Myungsoo would use whenever he is here before and look at the clock hanging in the wall and see that it was already 9 am. Well wow I manage to sleep longer compared to the past days, I stretch my arms and I then stand up and fix my bed as I then went to the bathroom and did my morning routine. After I'm done I grab my phone and look if I have any messages and calls, I opened the message that Woohyun hyung sent me telling me to come to the company around 10 am I look at the clock and curse left my mouth as I immediately put down my phone and rush towards the bathroom again and took a shower. 

Aisht I'm gonna be late it's already 9:20, I went under the shower head and started scrubbing my body and I close the tap as I then pour shampoo on my hair and then pour some body soap on my hand and started lathering my body with soap and then open the shower and wash away the shampoo and body soap. Once I'm done showing I then wipe my body dry and started putting lotion and moisturizer on my body and I then put on my bathrobe as I then head towards my vanity table and started apply some facial products that I use and I then blow dry my hair and then went to my closet and pick some clothes. 

When I'm done I grab my phone and my clutch bag and before I leave the house I kiss my mom goodbye and tell her I'll be back later and off to the company. With that I went out and rode the elevator, after 15 minutes I finally arrive at the company and I pulled my I.D and press it on the scanner and the door open and I rush towards the elevator and when I got to the elevator my phone started ringing so I picked it up 

Hello?

Sungyeol- y