Chapter 65
3 Years Without Love, With HappinessIt has been a few weeks since SinB starts her practical due. So far everything was going so well with she's being Jackson under guidance
She had set and determining in her heart about what should she do with all those Jackson dazzling side. She decided to ignores all of his stares in her. She has to admit that she's felt a bit uncomfortable with his stares but what can she do. She can't avoiding herself from Jackson or else all her efforts while in nursing school will just be such a waste
"Nurse Hwang, have you checking all the list of our patients that has been discharged on yesterday?" The head nurse was asking her while she's checking out their patients list
"Uhm, yes. I've checked it and has been transform into the main data file" SinB said in serious yet there's a soften in her tone
"Ok, good" that head nurse who was a woman at the middle age nodding her head before flipping the file in front her
All of sudden, an ambulance siren can be heard and everyone was aware about what might be that ambulance bring in it. That ambulance soon appear right in front the main door of the hospital, nurses are running toward it while bringing a stroller with them
SinB just stand there without doing a thing. She has faced this since a few weeks ago already. And every time she did, her expression was still the same. She's froze and she knew she shouldn't be froze. She should've helping those nurses for bringing out their patient from the ambulance
Soon, the stroller that has been push by the nurses come into SinB sight. She can saw that there was a young guy who was laying on the stroller with blood was gushing out from his body
From his conditions, SinB knew that guy must be just got involved in an accident. He's loss his conscious and then there's two person was walking along that stroller, they're probably that guy parents
SinB assume them as one since that woman was crying meanwhile the man was calming her. While was eyes the mess scene in front her, suddenly she's got shock when Jackson tapping her shoulder, waking her up from her thought
"Nurse Hwang, I need in operation room now!" Jackson all of sudden comes and ordering SinB for give him a hand in operation room in calm yet panic tone
SinB was stand like a stone as with her superior order. She's only awake when the head nurse shaking her body
"Hey! Don't you hear what doctor said? Your service was needed in operation room right now! Go!" That head nurse command and SinB quickly hurrying her step toward the operation room with operations equipments
SinB inner organ was shivering as soon as she's step into the operation room. With the earlier guy was laying on the patient bed with blood still gushing out non stop from his head and other parts of his body. He lost his conscious
There's three nurses including SinB in that operation room, Jackson was the only one doctor in there. All of them are hurrying themselves to save that guy who was struggling between death and live
"Hwang Eunbi, watch over the monitor heartbeat of this patient and make sure it's in normal beat, Xie Yie hand me the tranquilizer, Alice report me every patient progress" Jackson said in fast pace but clear in his tone
It's really proving that he is an expert in surgery. SinB and her two others colleagues was following all Jackson words, while watch over the monitor of heartbeat SinB heart was beating really fast
Her nervousness was engulfing all over her heart, this is her first time facing this kind of situation and this is also her very first operation. Of course she has did a few operations while nursing school before but it's not a real human or body. They use a death body or a human replica
"Patient has severe injure at his head and abdoman area. Heartbeat was in abnormal beat" one of the nurse reporting while Jackson doing his job in operating his patient heat
"Keep an eye on the heartbeat" Jackson said and SinB eyed the monitor once again, her hands are shivering while controlling the button that has been connected to their patient body
"Heartbeat is decreasing doc!" That nurse said in panic make Jackson look at SinB with sweaty forehead
"Maintaining the heartbeat Eunbi" he tell to SinB with nervous and a bit command tone, he understand that this is all are new to SinB
"It's getting low! Eunbi Focus!" With the pressure that she got from her colleagues, SinB lost her focus and starting to scare doing something and all her hands are making a wrong step. She's unconsciously press the button of that guy heartbeat a bit harder and it cause their patient becomes uncontrollable
"His heartbeat increasing in abnormal beat! Eunbi do it properly! We might be lost him!" Jackson tone getting harder and stern
Jackson forehead getting sweaty because he's afraid that he couldn't safe his patient. This guy family are all waiting at outside this operation room and he can't disappoint them
"Eunbi calm down. Don't be nervous or scare, thinks about saving this patient. His family are waiting for the good news" Jackson encouraging SinB with a bit softer tone
"Doctor! Patient got spasms!" Alice voice getting higher due to her panic
"More tranquilizer!" Jackson was cursing himself for losing his focus while encouraging SinB earlier
"His body was rejecting it" Xie Yie said this time and all of sudden the long beep sounds can be heard from the monitor that in SinB observation
SinB look at that monitor with eyes wide open. Her hand has stop pressing the button earlier and their patient has lost his heartbeat
As soon as he saw this, Jackson immediately command Alice to get him the things that assembly like iron shape and switch it on for giving that guy electric shock. That's their last way in making that guy awake but after getting two times electric shock
That guy still didn't wake up, his heartbeat has getting lost and the zigzag red line has turn to straight line. There's only one answer for that line. That guy has lost his live and they're all are fail in saving his live
SinB can't help but blaming herself for this fail operation. They're fail because of her nervousness and scareness in doing the steps. SinB has fail in her first operation, she's so disappointed with herself. She just crashing their patient families hope
After everything has done, Jackson told to that guy family members that he couldn't make it during the operation. SinB clearly can see how sad and how bad that guy mother was crying, she even drop herself on the floor after getting Jackson news
SinB also just found out about that patient fiancé, they're should be married on next month. But now that he's gone, no wedding event will be hold on next month and SinB cause it
"How can you be so stupid SinB? Why? It's not like you never done any operations before!" SinB was scolding herself while sitting on the bench in that hospital small park
"Look what has your stupidity did, his family lost him. His fiance will do a death occasion instead of their marry occasion" SinB said again and her eyes has flowing the tears
"Has done scolding and blaming yourself?" SinB got startled with a sudden voice that comes from her behind. She's becomes more startled when Jackson all of sudden sitting next to her on the same bench
"D-doctor?" SinB wiping her tears and Jackson just smile gently. He's handing SinB a cup of coffee and his other hand holding another cup of coffee
"It's fine, you should stop crying now. Everything has passed" Jackson said in his fluent English
"How can I stop? I practically kill him" SinB said in her low voice
"Did you mean it?" Jackson ask make SinB look at him the shaking her head
"See? You didn't mean it. That mean it's not your fault. Fate already has written that he'll met Him on today" Jackson try to comfort his practical nurse
"But it has me my task in saving his life and I couldn't fulfill it"
"You've done your best just now. Beside it's fine, I truly understand you. It's your first time got involved in real operation right?" SinB nodding
"Everyone will be nervous and scare on their first time. So it's fine, especially when our jobs got involve with someone life. Everyone was putting their hopes on us when we're actually also a normal human that make a mistake too. So don't blame yourself, make this failure as the motivation for you in your next and future operations" Jackson giving SinB his comforting smile
"But I just make his family and fiance sad. That guy still has a long journey in his life. He's probably will be a good husband and father for his future kids. But I. I just ruined it"
"You're also a human Eunbi. People make mistake and so does you. Doctor, nurse, surgeon and other else that related to medic world aren't a God. We're all a human that has God sent for treating and curing their illness. Our jobs is only for curing and healing, not making people to stay alive. That's all God job" SinB listen to her superior words quietly
"If God has set that guy will be die on today, he's still gonna be die. If you're not his death cause, he's still gonna be die in other way. So listen here, stop blaming yourself and don't make this once failure destroying your ahead life. Ok?"
SinB somehow feel a bit lightened with Jackson words. She doesn't know from where it's come but she found a warm and comfort feeling. This two feeling is only can she find when with Yuju but now that she felt it from Jackson. What was happening, SinB asking herself
"Are you always comforting all of your colleagues like this whenever they're fail in the operation?" SinB ask and Jackson was chuckling
"Well, not all. Only a special one" Jackson sending his wink making SinB laugh a bit
"Thank you doctor. I feel more, calm right now"
"You're most welcome. Hey, drink that coffee. It's gonna be cold if you didn't drink it. Poor me, I bought it for warming your body but you didn't drinking it" Jackson said in playful sulking tone make SinB laughing
"Thanks again doctor. For this coffee"
"No problem" SinB nod before take a sip of that hot coffee
Meanwhile Jackson just eyes her act. He's unknowingly smile to himself. She found SinB side was a bit cute but quickly shook his mind off from thinking that such of things
"So, I heard that you're from Korea?" Jackson starts another conversation
"Yup"
"Wow, should I speak in Korean then?" Jackson suddenly speak in Korean make SinB widening her eyes
"You're Korean??" Jackson was chuckling to SinB cute reaction
"No, I'm original Chinese. My uncle married to Korean woman and I used to live with them from I'm 8 years old till I have to comeback here for starts schooling in medic school about few years ago"
"Ouh, so you must be fluent in Korean then"
"Yea, a bit. Which state did you live by the way?"
"Seoul"
"Really? Me too, hurm I wonder if we ever bumped to each other before"
"Maybe not maybe yes" SinB was shrugging
"Yes you're right"
"Uhm, doc?"
"Yes?"
"Uhm, no it's fine. Forget it" SinB was about to asking if Jackson still single or not but quickly shook off her mind from asking that kind of question
"What is it?"
"N-nothing. I was just blurted out. Don't mind me"
"Come on say it. It's fine, I'll not be mad"
"No it's really nothing"
"You're a weird person Eunbi Hwang" Jackson said and he's earn a small laugh from SinB
"Hey, I just notice it. You're Hwang and I'm a Wang. Our surname was a bit similar right?" Jackson exclaim in cheer tone
"Yea, wow. Hurm, maybe I'll got your expert aura in surgeons for future" SinB jokingly said
"You don't need my aura Eunbi. Trust me, you have a potential in becoming a great nurse in future"
"Thanks for your supporting words Doc. By the way, don't call me Eunbi, call me SinB instead"
"Huh? SinB? Why is that?"
"Because... " SinB words was trailing at the end "I want it" she then grinning at her own words making Jackson unconsciously chuckle
"Ok then. SinB, I'll call you SinB from now on and you have to call me oppa. Can you?" Jackson wiggling his eyebrows while said that and SinB just scrunching her nose in disgust
Just in the short time, Jackson managed did SinB to becomes his friend. What will happen if they're gonna face each other for another long time together?
Chapter 65, check! See? Jackson is a good guy, isn't it a cruel thing if you guys wanna kill a good guy like him?? XD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
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