Jimin

Today we had had our fan signing and like always I sat next to Jungkook, we always messed around with each other and had a lot of skinship since the fans really enjoyed that but it pained me that it was just an act towards each other. While we were behind the stage getting ready to go interact with Army I was playing with my phone let time pass by until I heard a familiar laugh, it was Jungkook he was laughing at Jin-hyung, those two are always bickering but no one can take it the wrong way it's just too cute when they argue. I secretly took a picture of Jungkook laughing so much that his bunny smile was shining along with cute wrinkles on the side of his eyes, he was holding his stomach while leaning his body a bit back. I know it makes me look like a stocker but I'm always taking pictures of him when he acts like this. I don't know how long we were out there talking with fans but I decided to lean towards Jungkook and grab the side of his suit to see if he had a pocket for me to put my phone in and luckily he did so I slid it in there, he never complains when I make him hold my things, he probably thinks he has to since his the maknae and all. At one moment I was messing with him with the small balloon I had in my hand until he took it from and started hitting me with it. He was using his other hand to hit me with it but I noticed that the hand that I had the balloon in was replaced with Jungkook holding on to it very firmly, it felt warm it was a good feeling. I know that we have to interact with the fans but I hate it when he flashed his bunny smile to willingly to them and has deep eye contact with them. I know he sometimes shows his smiles towards me when I make him laugh but he never stares at me like that, I've cashed him a few times staring at me but he is just being polite when I'm talking or doing something interesting. I had this weird feeling today since last night and I don't know why but I now that Jungkook is acting to nice towards me, I'm not complaining I love it when he acts like this but I'm not used to it, he might be in one his teen moods. Today he is not rejecting my clinginess towards him, usually when I wrap my arm around him or touch any part of my body on him he either pinches me or slightly pushes me away, today he was returning the skinship as well....Oh how I wish there were more days like this. I know that I should stop fantasizing about having a loving relationship with him I mean he is still in high school and is only 17, I'm 20. He might not even know what he wants or likes, especially being gay or having any feeling towards me only that is more than a friend or seeing me like an older brother. But he doesn't see me as an older brother or friend he never calls me hyung, he always says it's because of my height but he calls Suga hyung and he isn't that much taller than me, does he hate me or just likes messing with me because I seem easy. Th