Something about myself a feeling blooms the time my eyes fall looking at the photograph standing and representing Tzuyu at her funeral.

  Her smile, her eyes, her words   I just miss everything about her.    Jeongyeon unnie told me after slapping my face so hard while we are standing just the two of us at the room of Tzuyu's funeral    She smirk shooking her head wiping her tears while looking at me with her eyes full of grief   "She always say to me that she loves me so much and if she were a guy she'll date me" she say it so soft but you can hear the hurt    At those times I just bow my head listening and can't let out my emotions   I can still feel the touch of her palm..   It doesn't hurt it felt numb..   But why does it feel like I'm going to cry..   Ah! I remember at those words of Jeongyeon unnie    I realize all of it...   "But Chaeyoung do you know that those words doesn't define anything at all"   Jeongyeon unnie' smirk turn to something that wants to push me to realize it...   "Because Tzuyu will always show that she loves you"   My head clutch up then look at Jeongyeon unnie    And I can see that she really wants me to see it    "Through her actions"   I cover my face with my two hands   "Stop it" the only thing I said while I just stood there.   Still tears won't fall    Slowly I felt Jeongyeon unnie's arms giving me a warm hug.   "Why did you have to realize it so late Chaeyoung-ah?"       Yeah, why do I have to realize it so late?   That I love Tzuyu so much.     <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 1ST RECORD   "Hey where are we going exactly?" It's Tzuyu asking me while I just pull her to get outside of our school campus.   I just smile in a way that only I could understand.     "Just wait and see" I said    Today I've decided to start making Tzuyu happy.   From her lips I want to hear those words   My smile grab some strength to long it out....   Tzuyu still curious didn't ask no more and just let me        But I forgot   At this moment life is giving me second chance but second chances doesn't come easy because.   We step out laughing together going out of the school gate when we didn't notice the girl just around the corner leaning on a black car     "So you went to school?" The girl really make her voice approach us   That voice came through my ears and suddenly I feel so lost   Tzuyu's laughter fade in an instant   Tzuyu let go of her hand from my hold then she bow her head to the girl just about our age..   "Saeron -ah why are you here?" My happy smile lose away and change to a firm voice.   She didn't mind my question and my tone of voice    She walk towards our direction and held my hand..   "It's kinda strange that you came to school" she glance at Tzuyu next   Then her eyes came back to me..   "Did Tzuyu-shii had enough of her reasons for you?"   She said it so straightly    I suddenly feel stupid..   I suddenly realize that I've been using Tzuyu all this time and why didn't she react a bit of it   I always tell Tzuyu to reason something for me..not just on school but to Nayeon unnie and the others too   I just do things like going to gambling and being a con artist   I need money and all I want is to have money so that I can take my revenge at a certain someone..   Saeron is one of daughters of a rich businessman who takes a liking to my work and hire me to let him win big..   Saeron became interested at me next   I never really care about anything rather than money before and I just let Saeron  to be with me so I can still get some money from them    Tzuyu know all those things but she never say that I am wrong instead she will let me do those stupid things and even reason for me.     I slide out my hand from Saeron's hold then I held Tzuyu's hand that made Tzuyu so shock and look at our hands then to me looking like so confident   "I'm just going somewhere with Tzuyu" Tzuyu look so confused like she can't believe it.   She just let herself calm but she feels happy at that simple thing which I didn't realize   I'm planning to walk ahead when all of a sudden I felt Saeron held my other hand.   "You told me we will go somewhere too"   That made me look at her confused    "Ne?" I blurted out    She smile and lean her head at my shoulder..   Tzuyu let go from my hold that made me look at her...   She's smiling    "You two can go ahead" she said    I just can't help but look...   "T-Tzuyu"    She nod her head and signal me to go ahead.   But it's not like that I thought to myself...   She thinks that I should leave with Saeron coz that's what I always do.   "Let's go chaeyoung-ah" this time Saeron's voice became firm that I look at her....   In the end I chose to be with Saeron not because I like it but because Tzuyu push me to do so...     <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><>&