I'm listening to Daughtry's Waiting for Superman while writing this so if you want some added effects, listen to that song. And you might want to play that on repeat 'cause this is an awfully long oneshot story.

 

MMXVI

 

“What the fxxking hell Kim Jennie?!” She winced and moved the phone away from her ear. She heard Jisoo giggled and she bet that this girl was the one who told him about this.

 

“Hanbin-ah, I’m fine,” she said but apparently, her boyfriend was not listening at all.

 

“You should have been careful. What if it was more than just your ankle? What if you injured your knee? Or your hand? Or---“

 

“What the hell?! I said I’m fine, Kim Hanbin!” she shouted, cutting him off. She saw Rosé and Lisa’s eyes widen while Jisoo just shook her head. Damn. She didn’t even realize she was breathing hard. Shxt. Why so emotional?! She excused herself and went to her room she shared with Jisoo.

 

“Hanbin-ah, I’m . . . It’s just . . . “

 

“It’s fine. I’m sorry for being so concern. Bye.” His voice was so sarcastic and cold, she felt something stabbed her heart. What the hell was her problem?! He was just concern because she sprain her ankle on their pre-recording for Blackpink’s debut performance on Inkigayo.

 

She threw her phone on the bed and angrily ruffled her brown-dyed hair. Urrghh. She’s hating herself already. Why was she so bxtchy?! And before she could stop it, her tears stream down her cheeks. Why was she such a crybaby?!

 

She jolted when she heard her phone beeped. Videocall on her KakaoTalk. She swiftly wiped her tears and smooth her hair before answering. She saw her Bobby-oppa’s face on the screen.

 

“Hi oppa!” she greeted happily, trying her best to hide the melancholy and pain inside. Bobby just seriously stared at her then he suddenly shouted which kinda surprise Jennie.

 

“Yah Kim Hanbin!! You made Jennie cry!!” And she could hear the other members of iKON reprimanding Hanbin. She couldn’t help but giggle as she heard Chanwoo scold their leader. After sometime, all of them left, leaving Hanbin, facing Jennie through the screen. Awkwardness surrounding them.

 

She was holding her breath. She wanted to say so many things. Sorry. For bursting out like that. She was just so stress because of their debut plus her bullying issue resurfacing. So much to think of. That’s why when he got angry, she just lost it. She also wanted to say thank you. For always being there. For always being concern. For loving her. And of course, I love you. Because damn, that’s the truest thing in this world full of lies. She loves him. So much. Always. Perhaps forever.

 

She looked him in the eyes and saw so many emotions in them. As if they both wanted to say the same thing.

 

“I’m so awkward, I know,” he said and she couldn’t help but smile.

 

“Yeah, and I’m such a crybaby and a bxtch,” she answered and he also smiled. And everything was fine. They’re okay again. Maybe that’s what matter most. That even though they don’t say it, they both understand each other.

 

(And Hanbin knew, that sometimes words were needed, so he wrote songs for her, telling her about his insecurities and fears of losing her. But above all, he sang her songs about his love for her even though his voice was so awkward and he anticipated her bxtchy comments that didn't really sounded harsh because of the quivering of her voice and the tears on her eyes.)

 

MMXV

 

She was hating this. She kept looking at her phone. Then she would drop it on the sofa. After some minutes, she would pick it up, only to roll her eyes and dropped it again. This happened for about an hour until her unnie got enough.

 

“Jendeukie what is your problem? My head’s hurting just by watching you,” Jisoo complained and sat beside Jennie on the sofa.

 

“Oh, nothing,” Jennie emotionlessly said. Jisoo glared at her. She knew Jennie and right now, this girl was obviously lying.

 

“Unnie, Hanbin-oppa is still not calling Jennie-unnie,” Rosé stated as she passed by the living room. She went to the kitchen to help Lisa in cooking their lunch.

 

“I thought they’re in Japan?” Jisoo asked and Jennie nodded. She sadly sighed and covered her face using her hands.

 

“Yeah. They still have schedule in Japan,” she muttered and she didn’t even care if her unnie didn’t heard her or what. Apparently, she heard Jennie.

 

“Your really are Jendeukie. You’re clingy and sticky,” Jisoo jokingly said and Jennie couldn’t help but laughed. But it was true. She was really clingy. She hated when Hanbin didn’t call or message her. She always want to know what he was doing. And it just sadden her that he was so busy with their debut that he didn’t have time for her anymore.

 

“Tomorrow’s his birthday, unnie. And I don’t know how we should celebrate it. We’re oceans apart,” she dramatically said and Jisoo giggled.

 

“I have an idea. A very, very wonderful idea,” she said and whispered her plan to Jennie who was by now blushing furiously.

 

(And Hanbin would always say that his best birthday ever was on 2015. Everyone would said that it was because iKON had finally debut but no one would know it was because of a certain young woman who gave him the best gift ever. And no, Hanbin would never say what it was. Just that she loved how Jennie's usually cold brown eyes darkened only for him. Only Bobby knew Hanbin had a hard time getting to sleep and probably spent hours in the shower after that certain videocall with his girlfriend.)

 

MMXIV

 

She wasn’t crying this time. She swear she wasn’t crying. She stubbornly held back her tears. No way. She wouldn’t cry. No. NO. She angrily pushed the button of the vending machine, waiting for her coffee-in-can. She glared at the vending machine, all her emotions swirling in her brown eyes.

 

She jolted when she felt someone crouched down and get her coffee-in-can. She turned to glare towards that person but stopped when she saw one of Winner’s member. He looked down at her and smiled. He offered the can. He grinned and god, he was so handsome and that made her speechless. She even forgot to bow.

 

“You’ve been glaring on that machine for minutes already. I thought of helping you,” he said and she shyly smiled at him. Damn. What the hell is wrong with her?!

 

“I’m Minho by the way. You are?” he asked and Jennie automatically offered her hand to him.

 

“I’m Kim---“

 

“Jennie!” They both turned and saw Kim Hanbin standing not far from them, looking at them with unreadable expression on his face. Her brow arches up. What the hell is the problem of this guy?! She heard Minho-sshi chuckled beside her which made her looked at him. He smiled at her and patted her head.

 

“Go, Hanbin looked like he needs you, Kim Jennie,” he said and Jennie couldn’t help but smile at his deep voice. God, that was y. She jerked when she felt a hand on her arm and she was yanked away from Minho. Hanbin curtly nodded at his sunbae and dragged Jennie away.

 

Jennie was actually getting angry. She was trying to remove his hold on her but she couldn’t remove it. Not only because he was dragging her, but his hold was rather strong. She knew he was angry. What she didn’t know was the reason. Wait. She was also angry. At this guy for dragging her.

 

She gasped when he banged the door opened of the music studio, which was suspiciously empty, and pushed her inside. He closed the door and even locked it. She opened to reprimand him but all the words died in when she turned and she saw his expression. He was so livid. She involuntarily took a step back.

 

“What. Do. You. Think. You’re. Doing.” he said. Each word punctuated with big strides towards her. Jennie took backwards step and gasps when her back hit the wall. He put both his hand on the wall near her face. She was trapped, god. And he was so close. What the hell!

 

“I don’t know what you are talking about,” she said, trying her best to muster her courage. But his scent was clearly clouding her mind. Damn Kim Hanbin.

 

“You’re talking to Mino-hyung,” he said, his eyes not leaving hers. She was searching his eyes for any uneasiness but there was nothing. Angriness was swirling on those beautiful brown eyes. And bloody hell, even if you kill her right now, she wouldn’t admit it that he was so handsome right this moment.

 

“So?” she asked but it turned into a soft whisper, she didn’t know why. She saw how his eyes drift towards her lips and he visibly gulped. That’s when the uncomfortable feeling appears. They remained like that for minutes and Jennie struggled to roll her eyes. This was killing her.

 

“Screw this,” she muttered and she heard Hanbin mumbled a ‘huh?’ before she grabbed him by his neck and her lips came crashing with his. And everything became blank. She forgot everything. YG. Pink Punk. All her problems. How their Eunbi-unnie left them, too. How hopeless they feel, as if they wouldn’t debut at all. She’s been training for 4 years already. All the male trainees have debut now. iKON was preparing for their debut. All that remained where them. The girls. She had forgotten all her frustrations because of that kiss.

 

And she moaned when she felt his tongue tentatively swiped on her bottom lip. Her hands were busy yanking on his hair while his arms wrapped around her waist, pulling her closer. And damn, she knew this was b