This is it... Enjoy... 1).FRIENDSHIP Sitting on the veranda looking at my shoe, my mind dragged to the first year of debuted, my first year of growing friendship with Seungri. I’m giggle of my own thoughts, I used to hate him but now… now I’m his best friend, his best hyung, the hyung that he loved soo much according to him. But Did I love him that way????.. he’s a guy, a guy who always make me smile, guy that I always love to watch over, to care, to pamper. A guy that like flower which I nurtured with care and love until he’s growing and blossomed like today. Where is he now being a judge and trainer on Girl’s Fighting. He often hang out there now, in China. Getting a lot of friends, hang out in clubs every night. If years ago I’m telling his fans that he’s mine, “maknae is mine”. I doubt that I could say that anymore, look at him now.. he’s belong to the world. 2). FANSERVICE Through all this year, each time we have to show, FM, concert, sajangnim always ordered me to do FANSERVICE with my beloved maknae. Seungri. I’m always happy to do this with him. Singing with him, flirting, bullying, playing a lot, and hugging a lot. The way he’s looking at me, his smile, his humor, everything was so perfect about him. Even started to ship us and calling us 'Nyongtory / G-Ri” . And surprisingly, even Seungri ship us. I love it, love everything about us. I even started to think it’s all was real. That our love was real till sometimes I forgot to hold myself from kissing him on stage. Each time Seungri says that he love me on stage, it seems real. Well even we practice of it first, but my heart always flutter every time he shout that “I love you” in front of all fans. I don’t even know why, but looking at him is like a habit for me or a hobby. Observing his behavior, his beautiful face, his body, his , the way he move his body, dancing on front of me, his blushed cheek, his long neck, his lips.. that kissable lips.. . *Heart skip beating* 3). FATE Is it just a Fate that he accepted into YG? Is it Fate that we were arranged to debuted in one group. Is it Fate that we do this FANSERVICE together. Is it Fate that he’s getting fitted with me so well. Is it Fate that our birthday had the same conclusion V.I : 12+12+90 =114 GD : 08+88=114 Is it Fate that I … 4). JEJU 3 days to relaxing my mind. Yes! I’m off to holiday, decided to go to JEJU island with Xin, Soo Joo, and others. (A/N: SORRY FOR SKIPPED ON FIRST DAY COZ MY MIND ARE SOO FUC**D :’(:’() 2nd Day - Dolphins Driving my boat, I saw dolphins were swimming happily. Decide to get near them, I’m off the engine started to grabbed my iPhone and push the record button. My mind talked .. “Look at those dolphins, aren’t they cute??cute…. Yaa .. cute like someone back home.. cute like.. Panda??” I shook my head, start the engine and drove away. 3rd Day - Club Sitting alone while watching took a sip from my beer glass * though it was a coffee* , moving head along the music, my hand suddenly reach out my phone and start typing. “Hey Seungri, what’re u doing?? Have u eaten yet?? Sleeping already huhh?? Or are u in club right now? Take care baby.” About to tap on sent button. But… why bother asking.. he’s grown up already, turning 26 soon, besides I’m not even the mother like Bae.. giggling on my own thoughts finally I stood up to join Xin and Soo Joo on the dance floor. 5). MISS U Texting… “YAH… maknae! Where are you? I’m back, miss you!!.. are you busy? Can we meet?..” Slammed my body onto the bed waiting for his reply. 1min… 5min…20min…..30min…50min...1hour…1hr15min… I lost count and fallen to asleep. I woke up in my dark room can only see through the dims light of the full moon. Sliding open the door to veranda. Light up my cigarette and inhale a bunch of aching smoke into my lungs. It might be hurt. But it can endure the pain. My black iPhone is still in my hand. Slide in the pattern to unlock my phone, there’s still no replies from him. I was kind of disappointed. Texting again… To: my <3 Ri Panda. “Heyy.. it’s three days more in case u forgot.  “ 1sec…5…10…14sec… my phone vibrate.. “wow…that’s fast.. “ I said happily. Open the message. From : my <3 Ri Panda “I know.. I’m tired.. need to sleep.. gudnite..” “Fu*ck .. that’s all!!! Fu*ck !!! Just that???” I cursed. Exhaling the smoke..*sighing..* “I miss you Ri..” small drop of tears.. falling apart… 6). HAPPY BIRTHDAY “Happy birthday!!!”.. everyone shout out the happy birthday wishes to Kwon Jiyong There was all his friends, Xin young bae, and others He’s partying around, drinking beer, receiving everyone greet. Playing… all just like the previous, there’s will be no sign of Seungri. But, like always Seungri would have sent his present right now, or surprising him by showing up like a second , giving a hug, a present, then disappear. Or even j