Hey Diary,                                                                                                                   2016/5/7

My counsoler told me I should write in a journal if I want to get my feelings out after my dad died. I never did because I didn't care. My dad always beat me after he got home from the bar, that was 6 years ago. I'm doing it now becuase well I don't know anymore. I started dating Bambam a few years ago and I thought I loved him, but then Jackson came and he consumes my mind. Bam and I have a movie night every Friday and we decided that it would be fun to go to the theate. Wrong! I was determined not to think about Jackson that night but he was there! He was there with this weeks girlfriend. I don't even know what that movie was about. Bam was disapionted that I didn't pay attention. I lied to him and told him i just couldn't take my eyes off him whic lead to us having . How bad is it that the whole time I was ing him I wished it was Jackson. I know diary you are probally like what do I care just break up with Bam! I can't for so many reasons.

1. It would break his heart
2. Jackson doesn't swing that way
3. Jackson hates my guts becasue I'm gay
4. I can't live without Bam he's my bestfriend

I want Jackson though. I crave his touch, his attention, his love. Please help me diary! Please1

Mark