Final.
1:31 AM
1:31 AM
Jaebum came home late in the midnight and found Youngjae sitting in front of his PC, playing game obviously. He was tired to death and was greeted by an ignorance beloved person.
“Where is the other, Jae?” Jaebum asked Youngjae as he plopped down his body and throw away his bag.
“Going somewhere. I don’t know. Jinyoung hyung and Jackson hyung have schedule and won’t be back till morning, I think.” Youngjae answered, eyes never leave the PC.
“Jae-ah…” Jaebum attempted to call the younger to have his attention again.
“Jae… Youngjae…”
“What, hyung? I am in the middle of the last level, hyung. Wait!” the younger simply said, not paying so much attention to the leader.
“Suddenly I want to compose a song, Jae.” Jaebum admitted.
“Huh?”
“I want to compose a song.” He stated again.
“AARRRGGGHHHH!!! GAME OVER!!! NOOOOO!!!!” Youngjae screamed out loud making Jaebum jumped in surprised. He sighed before turning the PC off and plopped his body next to Jaebum.
“Yes. Finally I got your attention.” Jaebum grinned wide.
“I can play again later.” Youngjae simply said.
“Jae-ah… I want to compose a song, but I don’t want to be alone.”
“Well… you just need to ask Jackson hyung or Mark hyung to help you. Or maybe Bambam again. He did the rap making in your previous song, right?” Youngjae stated, making Jaebum looked at him deeply.
“No. I don’t want to work with them.”
“Then?”
“I want to work with you. I’ve got an idea for the song. It’s ballad. It suits you the best.” Jaebum explained while looking at Youngjae’s hand that played with his hand.
“Me?” Youngjae asked, disbeliefs.
“Yes. You. Come on, work on it now before my idea gone.” Jaebum pulled Youngjae to the room as they began composing the song together. It’s 1:31 AM that day.
The next few days, Jaebum ran to Youngjae in the hallway.
“Yah! Youngjae-ah… I’ve got a good news!” Jaebum pulled Youngjae to the nearest room, making the younger confused.
“What’s that?” he asked curiously.
“I met with one of the composer hyung and give our demo to him. He said that he will help us to complete the song. And if we are lucky enough, we can perform it in our first concert, Jae. Isn’t it good?” Jaebum told him with a big smile plastered on his face.
Youngjae hang his mouth open, not really knew what should he said.
“Youngjae-ah…” Jaebum called the younger, shaking his body a bit. That got Youngjae’s mind back.
“Really, hyung? I mean… REALLY?” he asked in disbelief to which Jaebum nodded repeatedly.
“Yes, Jae. Yes, Youngjae. It’s as real as you and me now in this room!” Jaebum excitedly shouted. Youngjae pulled him in to tight hug.
“That’s good, hyung. That’s so great!!!!” Youngjae pulled away only to hug him repeatedly.
“So, that means that I can sing with you on the stage? Having duet? Just you and me?” the younger innocently asked the leader. His eyes shone so brightly as he expressed his happiness.
Jaebum pulled him in to hug again, “Yes! I will stand next to you on the stage.”
“Wow… I can’t believe that this chance will come sooner than I think hyung.” They continued to converse in the hallway to the practicing room.
“But, now… we have to do our best to finish the song, Jae. Hyung will help us. We should work together with the lyrics.”
“Well… I’ve come with some ideas, hyung.”
“Really?”
“Yes. Let’s work hard on it together, hyung. Fighting!” Youngjae exclaimed making they laughed together.
It’s true that both of them have dreamt about standing on the stage together ever since the younger came as the trainee in the company. Jaebum always took good care of Youngjae and Youngjae always grateful for whatever Jaebum had done for him.
They grew closer and closer since Jaebum found Youngjae crying on the rooftop. Since then, Jaebum never left Youngjae alone, knowing it must be hard for the newbie to adjust with the ready-to-debut group which the members had known each other more than three years.
Jaebum knew him so well that he must be feeling little compared to the other with the title “the only non-dancer”. And with or without that reason, Jaebum cared and adored Youngjae so much. Youngjae is his everything. And standing together on the stage with him is one of his dreams. He is so happy to be able to stand, sing, and dance together with the younger.
He must admit that he really had a soft spot for Youngjae, he can’t stand to get annoyed with the younger for a long time. He just can’t because he adores Youngjae so much, to the point he realize that he must be falling for the younger’s charm.
It was only Jaebum in the dorm when Jinyoung came to the dorm after his schedule. Jaebum was busy, he had papers scattered around him. it was a bit messy and it didn’t suit Jaebum a bit, Jinyoung thought.
“Hyung?” Jinyoung called the leader. The latter just hummed as the sign he was listening.
Jinyoung took one of the paper and read it, “Wow… a ballad? Really?” he asked, curious.
“Yes.” Jaebum simply answered.
“Well… why do you compose ballad song? It’s not so you if I can tell. The last time I remember, you composed ballad only for the soundtrack of our website drama.” Jinyoung stated.
“Well… I kind a want to sing it with Youngjae.” Jaebum left his paper work to look at the younger.
“Youngjae? You are planning to have duet with him? Oh… so that’s why it’s ballad. Uhm, I see…” Jinyoung smirked and Jaebum catched it.
“What’s with that smirk?”
“Oh, nothing, hyung. I think, without your explanation, I know your reason to choose ballad.”
“Well, if you know, why don’t you tell me?” Jaebum demanded.
“The reason is Youngjae. Right?” Jinyoung grinned wide.
“What?”
“Oh, come on, hyung… admit it. You want to stand together with Youngjae, you told us a couple of times. And concert is where you can make your dream comes true because we take a huge part of the concept. Beside, I know your other reason too.” Jinyoung smiled proudly. Jaebum must admit that Jinyoung knows him too well.
“What’s the other reason?” Jaebum asked, a bit curious.
“Youngjae.” Jinyoung simply stated.
“Hey, it’s the same reason.” Jabeum defended.
“No. It’s different. Youngjae is your other reason. You want him to be close to you again as you felt he drew closer with Mark and the others, but not with you. And… with the fact that both of you are no longer roommate, it makes you miss him. You miss Youngjae, hyung. Am I right? Or am I?” Jinyoung once again said proudly, making Jaebum blush.
“Oh my GOD! Are you blushing, hyung?” Jinyoung .
“N-no…” he stuttered.
“Ssuuurreee… you aren’t… just get a little bit excited and I bet your heart beats faster now.” Jinyoung continued teasing him. Jaebum pulled him in to neck hold.
“Yah! I know that I am like a book for you, but don’t you dare to tell anything to Youngjae. Understand?”
“Okay, hyung. I understand. Please, let go of me.” Jinyoung surrender, making Jaebum smirked.
“So, my assumption are right?” Jinyoung asked as he stood up and walk away, whistling his own song with Mark. Jinyoung left Jaebum alone with his thought.
“Yes. I miss him.” Jaebum mumbled, daydreaming a bit before continue to write the lyrics.
It was the day when Jaebum and Youngjae recorded their song. They’ve work hard to compose and write the lyrics for the song. Well, mostly it was Jaebum who composed because Youngjae didn’t have enough time since he is busy with family stuff. But, Youngjae would kindly help Jaebum if he could and Jaebum would be more than glad to stay up late with Youngjae.
They came up with some ideas, but in the end they picked one idea that suit the best with their heart. Both of them know well that the song is somehow represented their situation for each other, even Youngjae somehow felt that Jaebum wrote the song for him, judging by the current situation they faced. But none of them talk about it. They kept it in their heart.
Since the song was about their own story, they gave a whole heart while sing it. So, that the song came out beautifully. Even the composer complimented them.
“Okay! Save it!” the composer finished the recording. Youngjae went out of the recording room, grinning wide at Jaebum who greeted him with an open arm, ready to give the younger a hug of compliments. They hugged for a while.
“You’ve done great, Youngjae-ah...” Jaebum complimented Youngjae, whispering the last word, making the younger laughed.
“Well… it’s done. Do you want to hear it fully?” the composer asked. Jaebum and Youngjae nodded as they found a comfortable position on the couch. They listened to the song and felt so proud, but at the same time, they were touched by the lyrics.
Since it’s ballad, the lyrics was full of sad words. Not like the other ballad which had a poetical lyrics, this song’s lyrics was simply yet beautiful. There was charm that could make the listener’s heart flutter with a mixing feeling.
And just like the fans said, Jaebum and Youngjae’s voice was compliment for each other as if they were made in heaven. Their soft and gentle voice really carried out the song well. When the song finished, none of them speak up.
“Erhm… I must admit that you’ve done great, JB, Youngjae. Congratulation!” the composer broke the silence.
“Thanks for your help, hyung. It turned out really well because of you too.” Jaebum sincerely thanked the composer.
“Yes, hyung. You made it great.” Youngjae added.
“No, Youngjae. You made this song. This song is yours and JB’s. I just help you a little.” The composer gave them a wink and they laughed together, satisfied with the result.
On their way home, Youngjae kept talking about the song and how he felt awe struck by that song for some reason. First, that is the song that he made with Jaebum, his favorite and lovely hyung. Second, that is the song that he will sing on the stage with Jaebum only. Third, that was the song that contain of emotional lyrics that he loves so much. He just hopes he won’t cry while singing it.
GOT7 has been busy again with the packed schedule of comeback and preparation for the concert. Just like miracle, Jaebum and Youngjae’s song is included to be one of the songs that they will be performed at the concert along with Mark and Jinyoung’s, and Jackson, Bambam, and Yugyeom’s songs. It will be a special stage.
They practiced really hard. They felt it all. They knew that this year will be harder than last year, because believe it or not, having comeback and practicing nonstop for the concert is doubled the exhausted feeling, more over they had other schedules to do too.
It surely the hardest time and can be compared with their first year when they had three comebacks. But, Jaebum was glad because no one of the members complaint about the tight schedules. Not even Jackson who had the tightest schedules among the members.
Youngjae and Jaebum had recorded their duet song for a few times before the concert and for that when Youngjae went thru his SNS, he saw a picture of him and Jaebum and the composer hyung spread worldwide thru twitter.
“Hyung, look!” Youngjae gave his phone to Jaebum to show him the picture of the three of them.
“Hey, how can this picture in twitter?” Jaebum frowned.
Youngjae shrugged it off, “I don’t know, hyung. I just found it. And now our fans are wondering if we record for a duet song. It’s funny actually because yes, we recorded our duet song and trying to keep secret for the surprise event in the concert.” Youngjae chukled, along with Jabeum.
They are in the middle of practicing for their concert. They would have their good-bye stage in this week.
Youngjae rested his head on Jaebum’s shoulder, playing with the leader’s hand. It’s been his habit, clinging to Jaebum. And Jaebum didn’t find himself disgusted by it, inversely he liked it a lot. “I can’t wait for the concert day where I can finally stand together with you, hyung.” he said softly.
“Yes, Youngjae. I can’t wait too. I hope we do well.” Jaebum said as he squished Youngjae’s hand.
“Promise me, hyung, that we will stand together and enjoy our time.” Youngjae lift his head to look at Jaebum. They stared hard at each other.
Jaebum smiled softly at the younger, reached out for Youngjae’s pinky finger to link it with his, “I promise. I will stand next to you. Forever.” He shyly kissed Youngjae’s forehead. Then, they continue to rest until it’s time for them to review their practice.
It was in the gloomy night where GOT7 practiced for the special stage in M-Countdown. They will perform This Love by Shinwa. They were practicing hard, no resting, when suddenly Jaebum fell down to the floor and grunting in pain, holding his back.
“Aaarrghhh…” Jaebum grunted loud, making the others halt their moves and immediately went to the leader with worried expression.
“Hyung, are you okay?” Youngjae was the first who asked him. Jabeum searched for his hand and when he finally found it, he squished it hard. Youngjae looked at Jaebum who closed his eyes tightly while clenching his teeth, holding back a huge pain, obviously.
“Hyung…”
“Jaebum hyung…”
“Hyung…” The members gathered around him, looked concerned and worried.
“M-my… m-my b-back… i-it hurts.” That was the last words he said before fainted. They immediately brought Jaebum to the hospital.
In the hospital, the members stayed for a while. Youngjae still could feel Jabeum’s hand on his, gripping his hand tightly.
“Why did it has to be happened?” Youngjae asked in softly tone to nobody.
“Our stage is just in a few days. Hyuuung…” Youngjae mumbled, looking down on the floor where he found himself nearly cry. Jackson, Mark, and Jinyoung came to him.
“Youngjae-ah…” Jinyoung softly took Youngjae’s hand and squished it.
“Will Jaebum hyung be okay?” he mumbled.
“Yes. He will. We have to believe, Youngjae. He is our leader. He is stronger than we think. Right?” Jackson assured Youngjae who nodded lifeless.
In the no time, the doctor came and informed them that Jaebum got spinal disc. And that he should take a good rest for the times being. And that standing or sitting too long isn’t good for him, so he should lay back on the bed.
This news hit them like a storm, because that means their leader couldn’t perform with them for their first ever concert since debut. Everyone is in the solemn state, but there was one person that kept muttering a promise.
“You promise me to stand next to me. Forever. You’ve promised me, hyung. but why?” Youngjae kept mumbling in the verge of tears again. But he knows better that Jaebum doesn’t want him to be sad and weak like this. And that the show must go on.
They were back to the dorm while Jaebum stayed for a while in the hospital. in no time, the news about Jaebum getting injured while practicing and can’t perform in their first concert spread worldwide, making Youngjae and GOT7 sadder.
Their leader is their everything. No GOT7 without seven members. So, each of member’s presence is important and Jaebum played a great role for the group. And what Jaebum said after he conscious left the members on the verge of tears.
“Hey, guys… don’t worry. The show must go on. I know you will do well without me. I will be back again. I promise. Don’t be sad. Come on… we have IGOT7 who wait for this concert for a long time, just like us. Just enjoy the moment. I will back with you again soon. Okay?” That was what Jaebum said to the members.
As the members walked away one by one, the last was Youngjae.
“Youngjae-ah…” Jaebum called the younger. Youngjae turned his body to Jaebum. He looked at Jaebum who smiled apologetically towards him and Youngjae couldn’t hold his tears any longer as Jaebum said, “I am sorry, Jae-ah.”
“Hey, why are you crying? You are about to have one of your dream comes true, having a concert in Korea. Right? Don’t cry. You are supposed to be happy, Youngjae-ah.” Jaebum smiled sadly looking at the younger who covered his face with both of his hands.
“Come here, Youngjae-ah…” Jaebum reached out his hand to pull Youngjae closer. Youngjae kept his hands on his face.
“I want to hug you.” Jaebum asked in which Youngjae lift his head to look at Jaebum directly.
“H-hyung…” his voice was thick and weak due to crying.
“Sshhh… you have to save your voice, Jae. You need it great to impress Ahgase later, right? Come here and hug me.” Jaebum pulled Youngjae closer again. The younger seemed a bit hesitant to hug Jaebum because his back was hurt.
“Why, Jae? Come on. Give me a hug and strength, so I can recover soon and I can stand next to you again on the stage.” Jaebum smiled beautifully, making Youngjae’s heart flutter.
“I will miss you, hyung.” Youngjae said muffled in Jaebum’s shoulder.
“I will watch you and you have to do well, alright?” Youngjae nodded. They pulled away and Youngjae could look Jaebum’s eyes that filled with a sea of emotion.
And unconsciously, Youngjae closed the gap between them, kissed Jaebum’s lips lightly which is shocked both of them.
“Oh… I… I… I-I am sorry, hyung. I-I didn’t mean to…” Youngjae said, looking away from Jaebum’s direction.
“Hey…” Jaebum called him, making the younger looked at him. They stared hard before Jaebum leaning in to kiss Youngjae sweetly.
“I love you.” Jaebum softly said between the kiss and he could taste Youngjae’s tears. They stayed like that for a while.
It’s the day of the concert. GOT7 is ready since early in the morning. They came to the hall for rehearsal. They want everything to be perfect and great, despite the leader can’t join them. Youngjae is working hard, fulfilling Jaebum’s presence.
They can’t do much with the vocal and choreography since it’s too sudden to have Jaebum injuring his back. So, they keep the formation and let Youngjae as the main vocal to cover for Jaebum. But, Youngjae refused it. He said that he can’t cover up for Jaebum’s position. It will be too hard for him, but he will do his best to fulfill Jaebum’s missing part. At least he tried.
When the rehearsal comes to Youngjae and Jaebum’s special stage, Youngjae feels weird, standing alone in the huge stadion. He shaken up a bit to the fact that he should stand and sing alone for this supposed-to-be duet stage.
He mustered up the courage and began to hit the piano notes, let the emotion flew. They had talk about it that Jaebum’s voice will be there and the chair where Jaebum supposed to be sitting is there also, just like the VCR.
“But, PD-nim… if you put it that way, won’t Youngjae be sadder than now?” Jackson pin point the problem. Yes. Youngjae thought.
“That’s the point, Jackson-ah. We want everyone who come full with emotion as this song is ballad and contain such a great emotional lyrics. We want to move the audience’s heart.” The director stated.
“Of course, they will move and touch by it. Even without it, just hearing Jaebum hyung’s voice, they will be sad. I bet.” Bambam added.
“Hyung, it’s okay. I like it that way. It’s gonna be more emotional if they put Jaebum hyung’s chair. And I will be okay.” Youngjae faked a smile. He will be okay. Just like he thought. But, soon… he will knows that he was wrong.
“But, Youngjae hyung…” Yugyeom tried to talk.
“I will be okay, Gyeom-ah.” Youngjae assured him.
Just like that, the special stage, the supposed-to-be duet stage which becomes his solo stage was set. Youngjae sat there in front of the piano. He kept thinking that when the concert begins he will be fine because Ahgase are with him. And he smiles.
After the rehearsal, Jaebum called him.
“Hyung?”
“Youngjae-ah… are you okay? Are you nervous?” Jaebum’s concern voice made Youngjae so emotional as he silent for a while.
“Youngjae-ah… Jae?” Jaebum called his name again.
“H-hyung…” he couldn’t find words.
“You will do great. Don’t worry. I am here if you need any encouragement before stage. Don’t be nervous. Just enjoy this moment, alright?” Jaebum assured the younger.
Youngjae repeatedly nodded, holding back tear. It will be the first time he performs without Jaebum. And Jaebum is like his older brother that taking care of him so much.
“Yes, h-hyung. I-I will enjoy it. I will do my best. Please, take a rest, hyung. You have to recover soon.” Youngjae finally managed to say those words.
“Hyung?” Youngjae calls Jaebum again.
“Yes?”
“Hm… I love you and thank you.” Youngjae confessed his heart. This confession making his heart lighter.
“I know. I love you too.” Was the last words that Jaebum said.
“Kids, gather around!” Jinyoung called them. They gathered around making a little circle.
“Remember that this is our dream. Let’s put our best for Ahgases. No matter what, we will bring joy to all of the audiences. And let’s pray that Jaebum hyung will recover soon and join us in the next concert. 1… 2… 3…”
“G-O-T-7 Jjai!!” They shouted out loud. And the concert begins.
They had half of the concer when it was the time for the special stage. Youngjae rushes to the backstage to change his clothes and sit on his position in fornt of the piano while the team plays the VCR.
Soon, all the lamp is off and Youngjae practically pray to God for the best. He begins his first note smoothly.
I cannot believe it, the fact that you are no longer next to me.
If in your memory then, I gave you a hard time.
…
And when it’s time for Jaebum sings his part, Youngjae stand up and realize that he is indeed alone.
Always, when I am locked in your memories and get tired,
I will search for your trace.
…
He is accompanied by only Jaebum’s voice that rings in the hall, no Jaebum. The chair is empty. Feeling a sea of emotion, he closes his eyes, trying his best to focus for the performance. And the fans chants are no helping for him because at that time, he just misses Jaebum so much.
He thought he will be okay, but he isn’t. He feels too much emotions because that song is suitable with their current situation. So, when he hit the chorus, he sings it sincerely for Jaebum.
You need to be well, never be sick.
Don’t ever forget your always smiling image.
…
Then, Jaebum sings his part again. Singing the lyrics as if telling Youngjae how he felt for the past few months when they are apart.
If things get difficult, you can always come back.
I am still at the same place, I will never leave.
…
Then, Youngjae sings again, sincerely, “I will wait for you…”
And just like that, he sings alone accompanied by Jaebum’s voice only.
Always, when I am locked in your memories and get tired,
I will search for your trace.
You need to be well, never be sick.
Don’t ever forget your always smiling image.
If things get difficult, you can always come back.
I am still at the same place,
Relying on each other was everything
But because I didn’t have you, I couldn’t do anything,
I can’t forget you.
…
But I trust you will come back
When you come back, I will meet you.
When you come back, I won’t send you away.
You need to be well, never be sick.
Don’t ever forget your always smiling image.
If things get difficult, you can always come back.
I am still at the same place, I will never leave.
In the end, when Youngjae is on the verge of tears, he should sings one line again, but he can’t, instead he said, “I am sorry…” then he puts his head down. He feels so much emotion right now. And when he goes back to the backstage, Jackson and Yugyeom immediately hug him tight, telling him that he done well.
The show must go on and Youngjae knows well that he can’t let any emotion ruins his mood. But, it take a surprised when Jaebum suddenly come up to the stage. Youngjae is lost for words.
The other members are welcoming him warmly, but Youngjae can’t bear to stay close to Jaebum. He is afraid that he will have the urge to hug the older and cry his heart out.
When Jaebum speaks, Youngjae is back to his self again.
“Did Youngjae do well alone?” Jaebum asks the audience, which they answered with a loud, “Yes!”
“I almost cried!” Youngjae whines.
“I think he did well.” Jaebum compliments him.
Jaebum stays for a while.
“Hyung, can you sing a song for us?” Jinyoung asked, making Youngjae shocked.
“No, hyung. I don’t think it will be good for him.” Youngjae warned him.
“Yes, I think I can just take a group photo.” Jaebum smiled to Youngjae.
“Hyung, don’t sit.” Youngjae warned Jaebum, but Jaebum ignored him. the doctor said that he can’t stand or sit too long. Youngjae let a sigh.
After the group photo, Jaebum talked his last words before going back to the backstage which left Youngjae emotional. Jackson immediately hug him.
“I am okay, hyung.” Youngjae whispered.
Finally, after the joy and sadness, the concert finally ends.
After the concert, they are finally back to the dorm. Jaebum is lying on the bed. He is rooming with Jackson now. But, Youngjae as soon as he arrived at the dorm, he came to Jaebum’s room to look at Jaebum’s condition since the older ignored his warning about not sitting.
“Hyung?” Youngjae called the leader in soft voice, afraid that he will disturb Jaebum.
“Hyung, are you sleeping?” Youngjae enters the room.
“Hm?” Jaebum voiced up.
“Hyung?” Youngjae kept calling him while holding back his great desire to hug the older.
“Youngjae-ah… come here.” Youngjae walked closer to Jaebum.
“Come, laying next to me.” Jaebum ordered.
“But, you are still sick, hyung.” Youngjae hesitated.
“Hey, it’s no harm for you to laying beside me, Youngjae-ah… come, hurry…” Jaebum whined. Youngjae let a sigh before positioning himself beside Jaebum.
“How are you, hyung? Are you okay? I told you not to sit, hyung.” Youngjae asked full of concern. Jaebum chuckled at the younger’s concern.
“Hyuuung…” Youngjae pouted.
“You did well, right? I told you so. I know you will do well in everthing you do, Youngjae-ah, because you are my genius Youngjae.” Jaebum complimented him.
“Hey, why are you so far. Come near to me. Here.” Jaebum pulled Youngjae closer then he wrapped the younger in his arms. Jaebum can feel Youngjae shaken up, knowing the younger so well that he must be holding his tear.
“H-hyung… I am sorry. I couldn’t sing the last line. I almost cried.” Youngjae innocently admitted.
“Ssshh… it’s okay. You’ve done great. Really. All of the ahgases that came complimented you.”
“But, I would do greater if you were there, hyung.”
“I am sorry.” Jaebum softly said. Youngjae shook his head.
“No, hyung. I have your promise and I will wait for you.” Youngjae lift his head a bit to look directly at Jaebum’s eyes.
“I know. I am really sorry because I left you alone on the stage. Next concert, we will stand together, alright?” Jaebum smiled, kissing the younger’s forehead sweetly.
“You must be tired. It’s 1:31 AM. Sleep, baby.” Jaebum caressed Youngjae’s hair.
“I will. Let me go, hyung.” Youngjae attempted to unattached his body from Jaebum’s grip.
“No, you sleep here with me.”
“But…”
“Sleep here. I miss you.”
AN: Wow... so long!
I am sorry for any mistakes here. I hope you enjoy this.
All the lyrics translation is belong to @tuanique that I found in twitter.
It still the rough translation. I think I will come back again to edit the lyrics if I got the full ones.
#GetWellSoonJB
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