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sleep aloneChaerin found herself, missing him
It had been three months, since jiyong sneak into her bed every night,
and without speaking, he held her and slept one another's arms
But today...
He has not come
And she that has been gotten used to his warmth, can't sleep
She found herself wanting to find him this time
She grabbed her coat and gently closed the apartment door not wanting to awake the girls
When she knocked at the door bigbang a sleepy seungri opened the door
- kitty? What are you doing here? Something has happened?
- Eh ... sorry Jiyong oppa called me angry, and when I wanted now to find him he doesn't answer me, he has had too many fights by the President, I just wanted to confirm that he hadn't done anything stupid
- Ohhh it was probably before came kiko, they have not stopped ..., you know, it must have been why he has not picked up the phone, you don't have worry, I'll have one eye always on him, and I'll call you if something has happened you want ... me to tell him something?
Seungri saw how Chaerin reacts to name kiko and he almost regretted having said it, but he could not lie to Chaerin
As much as they have that eye hate whenever they were together
Chaerin was a great person she never deserve how jiyong has been playing with her
- sure oh well ...
Chaerin turned back to his bed but looked at seungri
Seungri expected her to mess with him to lighten things
But his heart stopped with a sweet smile when I look Chaerin and said
- Please do not tell him that I came please ....oppa
oppa
She called him oppa
Seungri then knew the importance of what wanted Chaerin
If it had been someone else he would have laughed, but seungri knew Chaerin too well
She was really ed up, and he would not enlarge the wound
He watched her leave slowly with her head down, and curled up in the thick jacket because of the cold
He sighed as he watched her helplessly, it hurt him her suffering.
He knew Chaerin was a strong woman and she let him see now so broken, showed how broken she really felt
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Jiyong then left the room in his underwear
Seungri was at the door staring at nothing
- Moron maknae, it's cold , what are you looking out like an idiot?
Jiyong stopped abruptly when he saw the look of hatred on his face
- Perhaps someone has come? Or..?
- You're a kwon ji yong
- what the hell! how you dare !?
- ji what’s going on? Seungri kun... hello
Seungri turned at the voice and saw kiko with only a jiyong shirt
- Kiko get back to the room, and you too hyung, after all, that's all you do well these days ...
Seungri went to the room and slammed the door behind him
How could jiyong treat like someone as Chaerin?
In his mind, he returned to spend every moment that Chaerin always had been supporting jiyong
always with texts and calls when he most needed
And instead jiyong, fell back into kiko networks again.
....
- Ji what happens?
- Nothing but this maknae gives me nothing but problems
- Leave him .... while you and I could continue to ours thing as we have removed the dream ...
- yeah ... that would be a very good idea
They kissed on the way to his bedroom
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Ji Yong wakes up when his phone rang for the third time.
- Ji ... I'm going to Tokyo tomorrow come on, just for a day just for today ... stay with me ....
- Just a day ehh?
- Just. .a .... day. .
She Said getting up of the bed to kiss His lips
His mobile rang and it dismounted kiko avoiding it to ring again
- who was?
- Nobody important right now, you are going to see her soon, come here
- who was?
- Chaerin, are you not going to see her after ?
- sure oh come here then
They were cuddled in bed without talking only enjoying their time
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kiko went to Japan three days later, she had managed to extend her stay in Korea, thanks to that they had been able to spend more time together
jiyong was unable to see the whole week Chaerin with kiko at home, but now he can’t find her
she was not in the studio
she was not in the ballroom
the girls always ran away whenever he asked them for her
so that night
he was back in the bedroom 2NE1
he missed her and he wanted to see her
he had the feeling she was running away from him but why?
but it was known that 2NE1 would have a comeback soon and she would have her album in America this year
He knew she had to be very busy, so she shouldn't be running away from him
right?
maybe she is just so busy
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Chaerin ankle hurt like hell
she had three days without being able to move from the damn bed
and all for her own stupidity
stupid stupid stupid
when she left the apartment bigbang, she did not return home , she went to the studio
she studied new songs
she pointed out new ideas
she wrote lyrics
and she proved her part of composer
teddy and the president were proud of her
none of them knew that side from her but of course ....
not even she knew it
Chaerin was very good watching and she spent hours watching, how worked teddy and gd
and that night she try it
and surprisingly she did it
but after a night working
early in the morning, she should continue with their working hours
president meeting? ---- done
gym, ---- ¿?
at the first sight her body collapsed on the ground
she hated running
but running after a night crying and being unable to sleep
working only and crying like an idiot
what she was thinking? that Jiyong ...
the playboy g dragon had starting and cutting a relationship with his girlfriend for 5 years
kiko was not perfect
but neither was GD
so together they could form a pretty perfect match
like an idiot she called him when she was in the hospital after having plastered her ankle
while she was drugged with a strong sedative, she was thinking about it again and again
how she had been so stupid to think that he will ever would notice a woman like her
CL was the perfect suitor for being the woman in friendzone
after feeling ignored even more with her stupid missed calls
she explained in one way or another the situation to the group asking for help
begging them for don't give explanations to jiyong
she just wanted to see if he would come to see her
if he would care
if she was the only idiot in the relationship
but when days after the exit of kiko from Korea,
she still had no explanation or calls from him
she could only laugh
It was not love what she felt
she doesn't even know if she could believe in something like that ......
the girls were in the company
and she was dying of boredom
she would have broken the rule of not supporting the ing foot
but the girls knew her too much
so they did the doctor explain again and again
That if she forced the recovery, the 15-20 days will become even more than two months with the stupidest thing in the foot
two months, being unable to get out of the ing bed?
no thanks
she was going to follow the rules for later she will be able to go on with her life
as quickly as possible if it could be
when she heard the doorbell her first intention was to pass it on complety
the girls had forgotten the ing key
damm
but then she heard his voice
- Chae I know you're there the girls have said it to me in the company, just open the door please
she didn't asnwer so his voice was heard again after a few seconds
- Chae are you really angry? I .... I've done something wrong? chae you okay? you have changed the code if you haven't change it you know that I'd be inside already
another instead had sent a message with the new code,
but as before
he could get into the house when he wanted it
and she was tired of his nocturnal tours whenever he was feeling lonely or he needed a cloth to wipe the tears from his problems
but the thought of two months as a minimum that she could get with that on her foot
convinced her
she picked up her phone and sent to him the ing code before jiyong pull down the door
she just was hoping that he will make it short and go out fast
the medication began to make effect again
and the consequences ended with Chaerin opening her heart and crying as long as this occurred
just hoped that this time was different
she would control itself
or at least she would try
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when the phone in his pocket rang he was about to ignore
but he saw the name on the screen
and inside was the code
He open the door and quickly crossed the hall
- I did not know you had become so lazy ... lol
but his laughter stood, seeing the leg of Chaerin
- What ... what happened?
- I did something stupid ... but if you are here is for something, so tell me, what happened ?, it is for kiko.?
- yeah ... she is again upset for the last concert afterparty of last night, It have come out photos of myself drunk with fans but ... but what happened to you?
- my ankle just crack
she mimicked the gesture with her hands as she cursed myself
crack? What the hell ....?, The medication started to making effect, she had to throw him out of the apartment
- You have to go oppa
- But are you okay? when it happened?
- When I disturbed your morning time with kiko 3 days ago
jiyong hit his forehead with his hand,
he didn't even remember, thought Chaerin
- , the calls, sorry, I did not remember later ...
- Ah so now I am better, instead of spending my just you forgot my good oppa already have seen me you can go
Chaerin stretched out to try to reach the water bottle she had in her nightstand, this just went from bad to worse, he had to go
- Ah ...
- wait
he opened the bottle and helped her to drink
- I'm not a baby oppa
- until when you're alone?
- I guess until the night
- And you could not call me today? I'll stay until they come
- Hahahaha, I do not need you to stay, and i dont know maybe because I already imagined that I just bothered you so I didn't take myself most discomfort trying reach you
- Chae I only see kiko every at least three weeks, I ...
- because of that oppa, I knew she was here, I would not have called for some bull, just wanted to say hey I'm in the hospital, only if you feel like you could spend some time and come here, I am bored, and I have three girls crying over me you can give me a hand?
jiyong sigh and looked away
She was right, she never called him or asked whether she knew kiko was in Seoul
- How long do you have to keep with that?
- Depending on how I will go healing
Chaerin straightened from the bed
-hey hey hey don’t get up!
-oppa I have to go to the bathroom, don't make this even bigger
- but you can…
- Yes, I'll manage, you're leaving, right?
- no! I stay! I will not leave you alone again, I'm so sorry chae
He helped her getting up and he went to open the door of the bathroom, while she was walking slowly with crutches
- Oppa why are you moving so fast?
jiyong laughed and turned around
- what…?
Chaerin looked pale
she lost her balance and fell right into his arms
- Chae chae let's get to the bathroom But take me coming I'll take you in my arms
- I'm dizzy….
- You have been all day in bed is very normal if you are dizzy to get up but don't let me go
Chaerin could not keep a straight posture, her head was spinning
Chaerin didn't released his hand as she sat on the toilet
He wait outside and when she finished, she got up
she stared at herself in the mirror as she washed her hands
She felt weak
And she hated feeling weak
- Chae chae are you okey ..?
She did not answer and he opened the door
- Yes yes yes, just go
- I will not leave you thus, come here
He came and tried to pick her up to help her, but she get away from him
she gave a slip for the pain of supporting the foot, and she would have fallen if he hadn't approached her, picking her
- Chae what are you doing? you are going to get yourself more harm
how to say I'm feeling things that I don't think I should?
- You think I'm a useless right? go !, I do not need anyone
- You're not useless chae where you get that?
- No, I can not…. I…
- Hey ... it's okay chae you know you can cry on him always, i will not tell it to anyone
- all this is your fault!
- what?
- I went ... I went to see you that night
- What ... wait what night ?, why I do not know anything about that?
- it is your fault, I missed you, and I told to seungri to not tell you anything that panda ...
- And why you didn't tell me? chaeyou are digressing are you okay?
he has noticed!
- Is the damn medication
- Chae chae
She was dizzy, she was very dizzy, her foot hurt ardently to have slipped, and the medication only was making her very sleepy
- Chae chae talk to me, Do I have to call someone?
- Everything is your fault !, is already quite difficult to find someone who loves me and that you always get them scared of me, above, you were coming to my bed, and I was no longer find myself alone, and I was sleeping so well ... but when that night. you didn't come, I couldn't sleep !!
- Chae, what night are you talking about?
- that night !!, and I was even worry , maybe something would have happened ?,you'd still be in the studio burdened with work ?, but no because I even asked teddyoppa so even I'm the stupid of me, wanted to come to see you
-chae I… I’m sorry… I…
- And seungri give me the motive, which you had not searched for me .. kiko was in seoul ....
jiyong closed his eyes in pain, he never imagined that Chaerin feel like this ....
she was always just when he needed her
maybe he has abused of that trust too much ....
jiyong sigh when he finally managed to leave her in bed
- It is normal that the first option is the best oppa ... when the second is always suitable for you.
both they looked at each other, and jiyong was the first to look away,
Chaerin looked broken
jiyong had always hated sleeping alone in winter, too cold to get a good night
and Chaerin was always alone
and Chaerin could ever tell him not
perhaps he has hurt her with his actions?
because that was never his intention
-chae ...
-oppa .... can anyone ever love me as first choice?
-who doesn't do that, is a fool, chae ...
-oppa ... I have afraid to be alone .... how ridiculous does that sound right?
-you are not alone
He lay on the bed beside her and they both fell asleep quickly
After that he never leave her alone again
When their schedules or kiko match
Jiyong made sure the girls will stay with her or he will sent her with his family
they had always loved her, and her own family was out of the country
Chaerin was a fragile soul in the body of samurai
But the body of the samurai was now destroyed and exhausted
with her solo album in America, the harsh words from fans doubting her as a leader, the scandal of bom, and spending so much time away from her family, away from her home ...
Two months later in a not very cheerful phone conversation with kiko
She said the words again
- We have to end this for onces I'm exhausted ji ...
- ....
- ....
- ....
- Ji you ignore me on my visits to Korea, and we practically can't create a phone conversation longer than 4 minutes ....
- I know
kiko was surprised, he had never seemed so resigned, always he gave the best of him to keep her
- Ji .... I'm seeing someone else ....
Jiyong sigh
- I know ... I know kiko
kiko whooped
- It seems that you are not even care our relationship
- I knew this day would come kiko
- of the break?
- The day when I get tired of imitating your ideal man ...
- What do you mean by that? Ji ...
- Kiko goodbye
Jiyong left again the phone where it was, and he sat back down next to Chaerin on the couch
- Oppa .... Are you okay?
- Oppa is very tired chae ...
He lay on the couch with his head in the lap of Chaerin
She his hair while he dozed
- It's over, hunchae, finally ended
Chaerin looked at him with concern but jiyong smiled happily.
- You know ... I really think the main problem is that you have always been my first choice ....
- Oppa what ....
jiyong rose enough to shut her up with a sweet kiss,
their first kiss ...
- Chae ... oppa will not let you sleep alone anymore .... you know it really ....?
Chaerin smiled and nodded embarrassed
and so without a word of confirmation, without a big change,
both realized that they never had second choices ....
only a fear of advancement
that for both of them
As with everything else in their relationship .... , It came naturally
none had to say no declaration of love,
because inside of them they knew that there was nobody and nothing more
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