- Myungsoo POV -

Another mundane day here in my office, paper’s that I need to look at and sign are all stack up in one side of my mahogany table and a warm coffee beside it and my laptop on the other side together with the intercom. The tranquility of my room was suddenly disturb when someone knocked on my office door, I murmured a “come in” while I exercised my neck and look towards the door, where the HR manager who is currently my temporary secretary comes in together with a person behind him.

Dongwoo- excuse me sir, but your new secretary is here

Secretary- hello, it’s nice to meet you sir, I am Lee Sungjong

Sungjong? Pleasure to meet you too; I expect that we will be working correlatively then?

Sungjong- yes sir, please guide me to be a well fitted secretary for you sir

No need to be too tense, I won’t eat you. As long as you do your work right and thoroughly and you don’t go spouting nonsense about me behind my back we will have a good relationship.

Sungjong- of course sir thank you so much for hiring me

Don't thank me I’m sure you are pretty skilled to be picked to be my secretary. Anyway you can officially start tomorrow for today get yourself be accommodated with how things go and the transaction, dongwoo you know what to do

Dongwoo- yes sir, we will take a leave now

Okay, welcome to my company sungjong, I am looking forward to working with you

After hearing what I said he immediately smiled and god dammit it felt like the world stop rotating after he showed that smile to me. Sungjong then bowed and said his thank you and they went out of my office, I put my hand on my chest and I can feel my heart beating real wildly, this haven’t happen after a long time, why is my heart beating like this just by seeing his wonderful smile? I shake my head and calm down my erratic heart.

No myungsoo you were just caught off guard that is all, don’t think too much about it.

I repeated that in my head like some kind of mantra and then look at the picture frame settled on top of my table just beside my laptop. A picture of my girlfriend and me, we have been going out of years 5 years already and I'm actually planning to propose to her in our anniversary which is just a few months away. We have been together for a long time and yet she still love me like before and might I say she loves me even more now, all the people around us says she is the perfect wife for me and I would always agree because they are right.

Lee Sunjung just like her name, all she did to the people around her are kindness and she is like an angel to all the people she know, she is a loving daughter to her parents, she is a good friend to all her peers and an all in all kind person towards other people. She loves me like no one else and always there to cheer me and my number one supporter, in short she is the best woman out there and I don’t plan on letting her go which is why I am proposing to her soon.

Thinking about her calmed my nerves and somehow tranquilize my heart, yet a small smile ghosting in my lips, I looked away and went back to my work. I shouldn’t be distracted must concentrate on my work so I could finish this mountain of paper works real soon and I pretty much will see her later this evening because we will be going to her parents house to visit and somehow catch up with them.

A few weeks passed and sungjong and I get along quite well, I’m actually stunned to see how comfortable we are towards one another, considering I don’t get along with other people that much because when they see my face they would immediately think that I am strict and hard to approach and they would stutter every time they talk to me but I guess sungjong think otherwise because he can speak to me in the most comfortable manner and he doesn’t get intimidated in my aura like other people.

Well the way I see it and base on my observation sungjong isn’t hard to get along with, he is kind, he always has this welcoming aura which would make you feel at ease and he is a diligent employee I didn’t have to say what I would need because he would do it right away and give me what I just need like he could read my mind or something. He really is easy to get along, he might be quiet at times but he knows how to joke around and make/shift the heavy and tensed atmosphere light and comforting.

But one thing that I am really fond of is how bright he could smile, like every time sungjong would smile, it would somehow brighten up my world and somehow always makes me feel like the world somehow stop rotating and everything stops moving, like the world only has the two of us and all I want to do is just look and get loss at his expressive big round eyes and melt with his wonderful wide smile.

I don’t know how in just a matter of few weeks he manage to somehow change our relationship to boss and secretary to a more mutual relationship, instead of a boss and secretary we treat each other like we are close friends even during working hours. My work somehow seemed like much easier to do and more enjoyable to do unlike before. Being with him feels like nothing could go wrong and would always be peaceful, it’s like I have known him for a long time and I have been working with him for awhile now.

I close the folder I am looking at and laid my back on the back rest of my office chair and stretch my body, I then let my head rest the chair headrest and turn and faced the window I closed my eyes for a few minutes but then I heard someone knock on my door and my door then opens. I didn’t bother turning around and looking at the culprit and just wait for that person to speak but base from the way this person walk I know already who it is, I couldn’t help but let out a small smile spread in my lips.

Sungjong- I thought slacking off is a big no-no?

Kekeke being the boss has its perks you know

Sungjong- that’s not fair

Kekeke anyway you need anything? I asked as I turn around and face him, and now I see that he is sitting on top of my office table and see him pouting I guess his way on showing that what he isn’t happy with what I said but later on wipe his pout away and showed me his smile.

Sungjong- it’s already 1 pm and you haven’t still taken a break so I was kinda worried that you somehow passed out from hunger kekeke

It’s already afternoon? Whoa didn’t notice that, I guess I was too immerse in these papers

Sungjong- don’t you always?

Kekeke guess so, okay thanks for reminding me

Sungjong- your welcome I guess it somehow been included in my daily task as your secretary kekeke

What would I do if I don’t have you, anyway how about you have you ate already?

Sungjong- not yet, I don’t think it was right for the employee to take a break while his boss is too busy with his work.

Aisht you should have ate already! I told you a lot of times that you don’t have to wait for me to take a break, go and have your break I wouldn’t mind it is your right to eat once break time tics.

Sungjong- oh please not with this again, I told you it’s hard to change I’m used to waiting for my boss to leave and take a break first before I do.

Aisht, you’ll come with me then

Sungjong- huh?

I said you will be eating with me then. What would other people say when they hear that I let my own secretary starve because I am too concentrated to work and forget to take a lunch break.

Sungjong- aigoo, it’s not like people would know or I will tell people. You don’t have to bother with me.

Are you disobeying your boss sungjong-ssi?

Sungjong- are you actually using your position to make me eat lunch with you?

If it will make you come with me without anymore reasoning then yes, yes I am

Sungjong- kekeke you are so silly, sigh fine, okay sir myungsoo I will go with you but I will be paying for my own food okay?

We’ll see about that

Sungjong- what does that mean? Hey myungsoo aisht

I didn’t bother answering him and just walk out of my office and went to the elevator, I wait for him and when he comes in I see that he is pouting and I couldn’t help but smile at his cuteness and pressed the ground floor button, once we got down on the lobby I can see that the driver and car is already on the entrance, I guess he informed the driver before we went down. I got inside the back seat and he then went to the passenger seat. Thirty minute passed and we finally arrive at the restaurant I always frequently went.

We were guided to a private room like always when I come here, the waiter then handed us the menu and instead of looking at it I told him I will be taking their special dish for today and I then gaze on sungjong and see that he is still looking at the menu, I couldn’t help but smile at his troubled expression, one thing I learn and found out about him is that he is a tightfisted type of a person kekeke. He doesn’t like spending too much money when he knows he can buy something alike in a cheaper price.

He’ll just have what I will,

Waiter- I understand sir, I will come back for your water and tea

Okay thank you. He took the menu cards and went out of the room, sungjong’s smile then went upside down as the waiter left and looks at me, I can see his forehead creasing and I just look at him.

Sungjong- it’s so expensive here!!! Oh my god, a simple fried rice cost around 15,000 won! Like are you serious? What kind of rice do they use? Ugh tell me how much is the food that you ordered for us?

Calm down sungjong-ah, the food here is quite good

Sungjong- I know a cheaper restaurant that serves really good food I’m sure the taste would be as appetizing as the food here.

Kekeke let’s go there tomorrow then, but for now let’s just enjoy the food that I ordered okay?

Sungjong- ugh fine.

We then just continue talking about random things, may it be work related or just plain right random thing, even talk about our personal life. Well on the first week of him working as my secretary I already found out sufficient information about his personal life, like his age, his birthday, his hobbies, about his family and his relationship status which he says is that he is currently single. I don’t know why I felt somehow happy and relieved when those words left his mouth and he said it.

Being with sungjong feels like I am free, I am revive and I couldn’t help but have this warm feeling spreading around my stomach going to my heart. It’s like a teenager falling in love for the first time. It’s like every single time I spend with him makes me want to spend more and more time with him, letting this growing feeling get even more-deeper. Something about him just enchants me, like a constant pull that my mind would always end up thinking about him before I sleep and before I wake up.

I know it’s wrong to feel like this or even dare think about sungjong since I have sunjung, I have a girlfriend that trust me with all her heart but here I am thinking of someone else and what more a guy. A part of my mind keeps telling me I should stop it because it would badly hurt the woman I loved and cherish but I just couldn’t stop it, the part of my mind that is currently occupied by sungjong is much greater than the one that is telling me to stop this craziness and bury this blooming feelings.

Sungjong- myungsoo?

… I just can’t stop myself, I constantly want to be beside him and see his wonderful smile and those big round eyes that can some captivate you

Sungjong- myungsoo!!

Huh? Ah yeah why?

Sungjong- ugh don’t tell me you didn’t hear what I was saying

Sorry, sorry I was thinking of something what was that you were saying?

Sungjong- aigoo, I was saying this Saturday your schedule is to only visit one of the sites, where there is currently a construction on going, which is located in Busan.

Oh okay I understand

Sungjong- do you plan to stay there the whole weekend or do you want to go home right after? You don’t have any other schedule after visiting that site, since your Sunday is free like usual.

Hmm, I’ll go home on the same day but booked the last bullet train schedule, I want to go around busan even a little.

Sungjong- I understand

Ugh why are we even talking about work? It’s supposed to be break time, meaning break from work, meaning we shouldn’t be talking about this.

Sungjong- kekeke sorry I couldn’t help it. I do need to organize your work and schedule.

Aigoo, let’s just eat up

- Time skip -

It’s already Saturday and I am officially done with talking to the construction head stuff and a few other officials so that means I am officially done with my work for this week. I look at my watch and see that it’s only 12 noon I have a lot of time to roam around Busan and finally I am free from my duties until tomorrow. Sungjong and I are on our way towards the car and he open the door for me but before I step inside the car he called for my attention. So I turn to him and look at him.

Sungjong- sir I will be going home then since our work is over, here is your bullet train ticket and please be in the station at least 30 minutes before the departure time. I will be taking my leave then

Wait, wait, wait hold up. Why are you suddenly speaking formally? And YOU ARE GOING HOME ALREADY? I asked him while glaring at him and he is just looking at me questionably.

Sungjong- I thought it was just proper to talk to you like that because we are still working but fine, well yes why should I stay here?

You aren’t gonna accompany me touring around Busan?

Sungjong- but my work is done!

Exactly! Your work is done meaning you don’t have anything else better to do so better accompany me the rest of the day!

Sungjong- but I already bought a ticket which I might add would be leaving in an hour! So I need to go

You could rebook a different ticket then

Sungjong- but I already paid for it and its nonrefundable!

I will pay for it then aisht no more arguments just get inside the car sungjong

Sungjong- but myungsoo

I said no more arguments! You are coming with me and that it final!

I said as I pushed him inside the back seat and I grab his hand to make sure that he wouldn’t run away by getting off the car, I then told the driver to drive us to the nearest tourist spot, the driver nods his head and drive off, sungjong tried pulling his hands away from my grasp but I wouldn’t let his hands go and instead tighten my grip into his hands which made him give up and just look outside the window.

I know I should let go of his hands already since there is no way he can run away from me now or even get off the car when it is currently running but I just don’t have the guts and will to let go of his hands right now, the warmth of his arm that I am holding is just too appealing to my taste. Once we arrive at our first destination I let my hand slip into his own and intertwine our hands as I pull him out of the car.

Sungjong- myungsoo you can let go now, I won’t run away

Nope, I’m sure you’ll go once you got a chance to slip away

Sungjong- I won’t I promise.

Still no

Sungjong- ugh people are looking at us! They might be thinking that we are boyfriends!

So? Let them think what they want to think, we aren’t doing anything wrong here

Sungjong- they might take pictures! It would be a bad scandal!

Don’t worry too much come on, we are here to have a relaxation don’t bother with those people.

Sungjong- but…

I then stop walking which cause him to bump into my back I hear him groan. I turned around and look at him I see him took a step back as he rubs his nose that hit my back. I then let my hand went to his face and cup both of his cheeks and make him look at me in the eyes, I can see that he is pretty stunned with my sudden action and serious look.

I said don’t bother with them, why don’t you just actually think that really is a date hmm? A date with me, so while we are on our date I don’t want to hear you talking about what other people thinks or basically bother about other people. I want you to only think about me and you and our date, like what you want to do or what you want to eat or where you want to go. Understand Sungjong?

His eyes were as big as saucers, he just nods his head telling me that he understand what I said and I just smiled at him and pat his head. I then let my hand went to his hand again and intertwine our hands once more. We then continue walking and while we are walking around he was all silent I guess he is still processing the things that I just told him, I just tighten my hold on his hand and look around, and after a few minutes he then started talking and pointing at things that somehow catch his attention and his eyes.

When I saw a place we it was pleasant to take a picture I told him we should take a picture so I pulled out my phone and wrap my arm around his shoulder and pulled him close to me and took a few picture of the two of us and then I also took a solo picture of him and we also took a picture on his phone. We then walk around and buy a few things and souvenir and also we ate at different food stalls and tried different kind and local food that Busan can offer us.

Time tics real fast and we notice that it was already dark and it was already 8 pm. Both of us didn’t notice the time because both of us are enjoying each other company and both of us are fooling around. The whole day we are going around Busan we are laughing and just basically enjoying our time with each other. I might say that this is far best day I have ever had in a long while. I don’t remember the last time I had this so much fun in my life.

But one thing is sure this day wouldn’t be as exciting and enjoyable if it wasn’t for sungjong, if I didn’t ask him out I’m sure I wouldn’t have this much fun not even a crook of this happiness I’m sure. The whole day felt like the world only consist of the two of us, like nothing matters in the world other than him and me and our date. The way his hand perfectly fits in my hand and hold makes the other things in my mind vanished. Like I said it feels like the only thing that matter is him and me.

We are actually on our way to our last destination for today, the beach. Cliché way to end a date right, but it just feels like to go to the beach before everything ends, before we have to go back to reality. Before I remember I have someone else, before I remember that what I am feeling towards sungjong is wrong and more especially before I hurt the person I want to cherish the most at the moment.

Once we got to the beach, to our final destination, my hand still wrap around his hands. I don’t want to let go of his hand unless it’s necessary. The whole time we are together the only time I let go of his hands was when we have to use the utensils and go to the restroom but other than that I never let our hands be separated and would just hold his hands. We took off our shoes and just mindlessly walk by the beach and let our feet be buried in the sand.

After a few minutes of walking we took a sit on the sand and just watch the waves clashing on the sands and the moon radiating its beauty and light around us. There weren’t much people so it felt like we own the whole beach to ourselves. Only the sound of the waves can be heard which made everything even more peaceful. Both of us not bothering to speak up, afraid that we might ruin the peacefulness that is surrounding us, I then look at sungjong and I see him just staring at the calm ocean and after a few seconds he then look at me and both of us staring at each other’s eyes.

Sungjong- thank you for forcing me to come with you, I had a lot of fun today

You really have to say that I forced you huh? Anyway I had a lot of fun today too and it’s a good thing I forced you to come with me, because I’m sure without you it would really and wouldn’t be this enjoyable.

Sungjong- kekeke of course I have to say that, you did force me. It really felt like a date though

It really was a date, didn’t I told you treat this day like a date with me?

Sungjong- kekeke I thought you were just joking, that you just said that to make me stop thinking about other people.

Well at first that was the reason but as time passed by I thought otherwise and actually consider this as a date with you which made me enjoy it even more.

Sungjong- kekeke I’m sure you would enjoy it even more if it you were with sunjung and not me.

…

Sungjong- myungsoo?

Can we not talk about sunjung? I told you didn’t I? I want this day to be about the two of us only.

Sungjong- huh? Did you two have a fight? You know you can tell me I might not be straight but I can still give you some advice you know.

He asked and I can see in his eyes that he is genuinely worried

No, we didn’t have a fight. I just don’t want to talk about her; I just want to think about you and me. I said as I let my hand creep to his face and touch his cheeks, I see something spark in his eyes but a second later it was gone or should I say he hid it. He then moved away and looks back to the ocean

Sungjong- you are acting weird today you know. If you continue with this I might fall for it you know which would be bad because you are my boss and more importantly you have a girlfriend which means you are straight as an arrow kekeke.

He weakly laugh, I can feel that he is scared with our situation at the moment but what I saw earlier just encourage what I am feeling and giving me strength at the moment, I grab his chin and made him look at me. Once our eyes are locked once again and we are looking at each other straight in the eyes again I cup both of his cheeks

What if our situation is different sungjong?

Sungjong- wa…what

What if I don’t have a girlfriend? What if I am single? What if we don’t have to worry about ual preference? What if I’m not your boss? Will it be okay?

Sungjong- those are just “what if’s” myungsoo. What’s important is what really the situation is and our situation is wrong. So no, it’s not okay.

But what if sungjong? Answer me, what if sunjung doesn’t exist? Will this be alright? Will wanting to kiss you wouldn’t look wrong? Is this feeling that I am feeling towards you wouldn’t be so immoral?

He didn’t answer me instead a tear cascaded on his eyes, and seeing him cry made my heart squeeze and hurt real bad. I let my thumb brush off those tears and just let myself go and move on its own. My eyes locked into his as I slowly move closer until I can feel his breathing and his lips just a few inches away from mine. His eyes closed and I close my eyes also as I let my lips move closer to his and have a taste of the forbidden fruit.

Our lips touched and I feel his hands went to my shirt and gripping it, when our lips touch it felt like I just drank bottles of soda and the spirit of it is building up inside my stomach, or in other people’s words it felt like butterflies and fireworks going off in my stomach. His lips are so soft and so amazing that I just couldn’t help but let our kiss deepen, my hands going to both side of his face and deepen our kiss, pushing my tongue inside his own and savoring the forbidden fruit even more.

Our tongue molding as one and I never imagine that this is the sweetest and intoxicating kiss I have ever experience. After a few minutes sungjong then pushed me away and I already miss his lips, I wanted to let our lips be connected once again and feel his soft lips into my own again, I look at his eyes and I can see his eyes wide open and his hands going to his lips, he then started shaking his head.

Sungjong- no! No! No! We shouldn’t have kissed, what we did is wrong oh god you have a girlfriend! You are my boss! That was really wrong! This shouldn’t have happened!

Sungjong… I tried extending my hand to him but he slap my hands away and stand up and walk away, I stand up also and went after him I grab his arm and made him face me, and when he this I can see tears falling down his tear filled eyes and pained and guilty eyes

Sungjong- myungsoo let’s forget that, that happen okay? What we did is wrong; you have a girlfriend heck you are even planning to propose right? So let’s forget what happened today. Forget that this day ever happened. I am just your secretary and you are just my boss. Nothing more nothing less

Sungjong… every word he said sent pangs into my heart, piercing me into pieces and shattering my battered heart into million pieces.

Sungjong- I…I need to go now, I will see you on Monday myungsoo-ssi thank you again for your kindness.

After saying that he break free from my hold and run away from me, I wanted to run after him but my feet felt like I was rooted in place and I wanted to grab his hands to stop him from walking away from me but my hands felt like all its energy was off. I wanted to call him but it felt like my lips were sewn together. I just watch him walk away from me and get on to a taxi. Before the cab drives away I see him wiping his cheeks and eyes and once he was out of my vision I then felt that my world crumbles.

The pain in my heart felt really unbearable, like it was being pierced by thousand knives, needles and being hammered. I tried hitting my chest to somehow make the pain go away but it was no use. My heart, it was beaten until I can feel a tear slipped onto my own eyes. I don’t know if I should laugh at myself or call myself stupid as I harshly wipe my tears away.

After that everything was blurred, I didn’t know how I manage to get myself rode the bullet train nor how I manage to get myself back into my own house. All that I could feel is the pain in my heart and the guilt that is eating up my mind and I couldn’t help but remember the pained and sorrowful expression sungjong had as he beg me to just forget about what happened. His tearstained cheeks and his guilt filled and unsettled emotions.

As I blankly stare at the ceiling of my living room, all I could see is sungjong pain fainted face, and every time I remember it my heart felt like it was beaten a thousand more. I grab my phone and look through my contact and once I saw his name and number I dialed it and his phone then started ringing yet he didn’t answer. I redialed once again and like the first one he wouldn’t answer and just let it ring. I don’t know how many times I tried calling him hoping that he would finally answer my call but after the nth time I couldn’t contact him anymore since he turned his phone off.

That ni