It’s been a year.

A year since we broke up.

Thinking back, it was stupid.

The way we got together, the way our relationship goes, the way we are.

Just plain stupid.

Why did I even agree to be yours?

Destroying our friendship, our relationship our bond. It’s just destroys everything.

I know that we won’t ever be the same after accepting you. But I did it for the sake of pity, to a friend

 I was thinking of breaking off after a week or to, but you, out of pity for a best friend, I waited for you to break it off.

Who would ever know this forced relationship would last for a year and a half.

The day you ended it, I was shocked.

All this while, you said you wanted a break, and I gave it to you, thinking that you needed time off to focus on our studies.

But after you exams you never contacted me. I messaged you, congratulating you on the day of your last paper. I waited for your reply.

Day in day out, it has been a week. You never replied that message.

Out of the blue, one fine Friday night, you suddenly messaged me.

Before I opened the message, I’ve got the feeling that you wanted off.

Opening it, I knew that we are finished.

At that moment, I couldn’t breathe.

How could you? Breaking off without notice.

Knowing you and your personality, I know you have your reasons.

And there are signs that our relationship’s ending by the fall of a pin.

But, what did I do until you decided to break it up?

Is it during the break that I gave you that you thought about it?

Or is it during your holidays after your exams that you decided to break it off?

Or is it when you got close to that of a human, who pretended to be my friend but backstabs me?

Whatever it is, I just accepted it.

Until this day, I’m still wondering why we broke up.

Actually, I wanted to break up a long time ago.

But, time passed and I got used to you.

Your innocent personality, your laughter, your scent.

I knew we could never be more than friends in this relationship.

After we broke up, you said you wanted to remain as friends.

How could I say no to that? I still miss you and our conversation. But to think that we are going to become like how we used to be, it’s breaking my heart.

I still cannot get used to the fact that you do not belong to me anymore.

One day, the told me, that you’ve got yourself a girl.

It was just 2 weeks since we broke up.

It was so easy for you, huh?

You who broke our friendship.

You who distorted my memories.

You who chipped off a piece of my heart.

But, I have never cried over you.

But the others, I’ve cried for them and with them.

JImin, Yoongi, Taehyung, Namjoon, Seokjin, Jungkook and Hoseok.

I feel they are closer to me than I am to you.

Even Minho, Seungyoon, Seunghoon, Taehyun and Jinwoo who are in a different town feel closer to me.

We are near yet so far.

I just thought that maybe, just maybe, we are really not meant to be, even as friends.

Today, after a year of avoiding you, I just see you as a friend.

No more, no less.

Maybe we weren’t the friends we were back then, but, hey, let’s try to be like how we used to be.

I really envy how you take on all of this.

You, leaving this town for educational purposes.

You, meeting new people and are able to forget me.

You, who live a carefree life.

You, who have no care at all in the world.

You, who do not have a heavy burden on your shoulders.

You, who people do not look upon and have high expectation on.

You, who do not need to excel in anything.

You, who do not have eyes watching your every move and use that one mistake to bring you down.

You, who are not restricted in doing anything.

You, who can just be you and have fun.

I envy that.

To you who left a piece of your memory with me, I hope that you may find what you seek in your life.

I hope that you get what you deserved.

I hope that you will always love what you do.

I hope that you keep this personality of yours and never let it go.

 I hope that you achieve what you dream of.

And I hope that you find someone better than me,

Who can be your shoulder when you need it,

Be your eyes when you can’t see,

Be the one, who puts you back together after you are broken,

Be the one who truly cares for you

Be the one who listens

Be the one who is always there

Be always there for you, with you

Be the one that understands you the most.

Be the one human that I cannot be.

I really hope that the one that you find will not break your heart.

I hope that someday, that you will find that one person who will complete your heart.

I hope that she will not break your heart.

I hope that she treasures you as much as you would treasure her.

I hope that she know all the things that you love and all the things that you hate.

I hope she knows your habits and try to live with it.

I hope she accepts your flaws.

 I hope that she does not try to change you for who you are not.

I hope that she does not behave like the “me” I was when I was dating you.

I hope that she gives you the happiness that you deserve.

To the stupid boy that this stupid girl got too attached to, I hope that you do not repeat the mistakes that I have made.

The last piece of reminder from this stupid girl, do not get too close to the .