Back at the apartment, I was still discontented to see our new unit, feeling too big for this. Contemplating, I would sit at the bed but interrupted when the light shut off.

“Master?” I did not want to sound scared, however I was unable to adjust it anymore. I bent down and d so I could sit at the edge of the bed. I called him again, afraid this was the time he would leave me. Please, I did not want you to be gone yet.

One or two minutes later, I controlled myself to relax, the exact time I sensed him just in front of me.

“Master.” In the darkness, I knew he could see me smiling. He held the side of my face and brushed his thumb to my cheek. I closed my eyes to only feel him and the heft of his hands transferred to my shoulders.

 

“Chanyeol, I will be leaving you here — for good.” I was forming this theory just a while ago but the heaviness still unbearable to carry. If he would press more, I might be at the verge of sobbing.

I could not speak, because my emotion would only flow once I do so. I was going to let him have all the time while I sealed my mouth to prevent my feelings from spreading out.

“This room fits a college boy that’s why I chose this, the mortal way of living and far from mine.” He said. “You should learn to live by your own now, don’t need a babysitter, right?”

So, you’re seriously took my words? How dare you? I glared at him at the dim area. I hope he could only see my glare, not the tears forming in the corner of my eyes.

“Chanyeol, after this day, you’ll no longer see me. I’m going to take the all the memories including me and your bitter past like we’ve talked about.”

“But, that’s not it!” I could not control that I ended up yelling at him. “I haven't graduated yet.”

“I know.” He opened the drawer of the night stand and pulled the brown envelope there. “This has all your funds for the remaining two years. If this is not enough, there’s a phone number for your sponsor that you can contact. All your paper works were at the drawers as well. And, the payment for this unit is paid for three years so you don’t need to worry about this.”

“Why so fast?” I tried my best to control but I still ended up weeping pathetically. Kneeling down, there he went again, wiping my tears for me like he was my Dad comforting my tantrums.

“The danger of our remaining kinds in China region was imminent. We could not live peacefully if we don’t scare the hunters.” His straight explanation slowly calmed me down. “Also, I don’t want to involve you here. I want you to be normal and that’s what you want from the start, right?”

My unhurried breathing was the only sound that could be heard in that place. I sniffed, trying to stop the tears from coming out. I knew he was still looking at me from that moment. I wanted to tell him that I need him — I love him — but I was not sure if he that would change his mind leaving me. We were talking about Kris’ race over me here. Who was I that he would choose me more than them?

This was going to be hard but I could not be selfish. Thinking of it, I was lucky he took care of me although we were destined to be enemies.

 

“Just—scare them.” My voice croaked. “Don’t kill them please.” I faintly said.

He sighed and leaned down on me till his lips met my forehead. “We’ll do our best.”

 

When I had ample of stability, in the core of my bed, I kneeled down and closed my eyes. Clearing my memories could be compared to the death sentence because you would lose the beautiful moments you preserved in your mind and heart.

In a few period of time, he would be vanished to my story. He, who I used to merely see standing down the pavement, now standing in front of me. The man I saw every dawn before I sleep was now the man who fell asleep beside me. He was a fantasy that made to reality. He held the roles of becoming my father, teacher, babysitter, brother, friend, enemy and if he could also be my lover.

 

“Chanyeol are you ready?” He asked.

My stomach was twisting but I did not have control over this. I motioned my nod slowly, my hands rested on both knees. I could feel his palm dramatically blocked my view. Counting down, I would no longer see him.

 

 

“Can I stop you from doing that?”

 

 

A hand taking his from my sight, I kept my eyes closed. I felt his cold but soft hands, touching it firmly and left some stream of kisses.

 

“Can I stop you from doing that?” He pulled his hand away but I tightly hold it with both mine.

 

“Can I stop you from doing that?” I knew I sounded like a broken record but I hoped I grasped his cold heart. The unstoppable new set of tears fell on my face again.

I felt love first than hate to him. That was why, although he killed my parents, gave me to a half nice and half hell family, an antagonist for the mortals, I loved him.

 

“What if I offer you a deal?” I said in a pleading tone. “Please turn me into a vampire and I will serve you eternally.”

 

He suspended from bolting his hand off of me but I did not hear him reply to my offer.

 

I attempted again. “Please.”

 

 

“Please.”

 

 

 

“Please.”

 

 

 

“Take off your shirt.” I swallowed to his command. Shaking hands, I my shirt, one by one, while my eyes stayed shut.

I did not fully undress myself yet when he leaned down pressing his lips subtly to my temple, my cheek, jaw, three kisses on the shoulder before he put a long kiss to my neck. I shuddered to the cold air passing from our window. The situation plus the dead-like surrounding made me nervous and all, till I hear his voice, his lips was so close to my ears.

"Chanyeol, you're always more than servant to me. Can you promise to be mine instead?" My tears were about to start flowing again, because those words were unbelievable to my young soul. The long kiss on my neck started to sting to my skin. I clenched my teeth in pain, wrapping my arms to his neck. He pushed me down the bed and that was all I could remember.

 

The gloom seemed to stick inside my unit even when I woke up.

I rose up, looking at my calendar at the night stand. I missed the first day of school because of I was snoozing for 36 hours. I casted my eye over the bed and found a letter. That man left me something:

 

Dear My Beloved Chanyeol,

   Congratulations!

   I know that once you read this you’ve awaken as a vampire. I guess you are familiar with the rules since we live for almost 3 years. But, let me still enumerate them for you. As a new born, it will be more difficult for you but you’ll get used to it.

 

 

 

   Have you seen yourself in the mirror?

 

   Yes, I looked so strange. My eyes were embarrassing red; my hair was lighter and redder, my skin was so pale that as if you punctured some whitening chemicals to me. When I looked at the mirror, my eyes seemed to have an HD lens installed. My senses were creepily refined. I was not saying I was regretting this. But, like you said, I’d be used to it.

 

   I know you’re hungry after waking up. I left 90 packs of blood. Consumed it wisely and don’t be a glutton, New Born.

 

   What? Blood? Ew? Where was all the food we stored here?

 

He must have thrown them thinking I would not need them anymore. Hey! They were my food! Good thing I found some bags of chips at the counter. I ate one pack and to my new taste bud, they .

I was scared but I need to fill up my growling tummy. So I nervously — with my newly-gained-fangs — open one blood pack by biting it, sipping there, it did not taste bad at all.

 

   Baby, I rescheduled your tutor to move your session for a week, but please attend your daily classes at the college. I prepared contacts that you could use; it was the same with your previous eye colour.

 

Why was he sending me to school if I only know a little English? Is he kidding me? I would go there if I was more ready. I was going to do some self-study while I was preparing my English.

 

   You said that you’re going to serve me forever. I love that but I don’t want to include you in this war. We’ll see each other in the next three years and don’t worry; three years are not that big for our forever existence. Please be safe. I’ll be back.

Love,

Kris

 

 

Four months had passed; still, not in the least, I got tired of his only letter to me. What was the use of the phone if we could not send SMS or call each other even once? But, for a week now, I did not receive anything from him. I was getting worried.

I was riding the subway station, not even dawn, but in the morning. If I got toasted here in no time and died, I would haunt my classmates for asking me to stay longer in the school. The sun rays passed through the entrance of the station. What a lucky day — I forgot my umbrella.

It was awkward to wear a long coat in the heat of the summer. So I disobeyed Kris and wore the thinnest blazer in my closet.

I could not prolong my pause in front of the stairs, as everyone rushed for their work while I was going home. I was exposed in the glaring sunlight, hot temperature was not that hazardous at first, but I started steaming after 10 minutes. I rushed to the nearest roofs that I could see to shelter from my threatening death. I just need to walk a few blocks and would be home.

 

I betrayed my parents choosing to be the same kind of our families’ enemy. It was for the sake of staying endlessly with the man I initially did not know if would love me back. After what happened on the sacred ritual, I confirmed our status.

However, with my situation right now, my parents might be cursing me so we would meet in heaven. But this was a lame death, if I would kick my bucket here. I would not surrender. Only a few blocks… Only a few blocks…

 

My swift movement was suspended when someone blocked my way. I was ready to protest but that person did not let me, he protected me with an umbrella fitting for both our lanky figure.

“Kris!” I wanted to hug him but he forced me to be in front while he was behind me. He locked his one arm around me, pressing us together.

My blood was rising to my cheeks; I was floating in the air with our position. I ended up spacing up.

“Look your way, kiddo.” I glanced up to him, grinning, and kissed him to any part of his face that I could reach.

“What’s the 3 years you were talking about?” I asked.

He seemed that he liked to urgent our way to the building. So could only response, when we get inside there.

“Things are astoundingly settled down earlier.” Good news.

“Great. So are we going back there?” I asked while we were entering the elevator.

He pressed the button to our floor’s unit, shaking his head.

 

“For all the places I lived in, this has the best size of them all. Surely things will quickly heat up.” His personality was swiftly converted from cold to hot.

“What?” Yet, there was a sudden chill at the elevator. I felt bashful, making me push him to the wall. “Go back where you came from and leave me alone.”

“Hey, if you didn’t begged me to agree with your deal, you wouldn’t see me here.” He was laughing loudly at me. He never changed at that point.

Crossing my arms to my chest, I rolled my eyes. “Whatever.”

While waiting for our arrival, he gently pulled me in to his arms. We were not official back then but I did not realize that he had been touchy with me from the start. Glad he was being more playful, glad I was the one who warm his heart, he had kept a little secretive, because he did not tell me his coming today, but that was okay.

“Thank you.” I shyly said.

I whined when he pinched my nose. He was smirking. “You still need a babysitter, don’t you?”

“No.” I knew what I looked when I was embarrassed. My voice was cracking too. “It’s just an exception today.”

“Aish. What will happen to you if you don’t have a babysitter, friend, boyfriend, teacher and daddy like me?” I nudged him by my elbow.

“Can you take the daddy out there?”

“You’re almost burned up earlier, baby.”

“Don’t call me baby!”

 

For the pain I gained in my early year, Kris, who could be blamed, was able to pay it off. We still tried living like the mortals because I missed it. I did not envy them though since I had someone to love for days, months, years and forever. I had more moments to visit my real parents and adoptive parents to offer my gratitude. At dawn, Kris and I were both standing at the pavement — the same spot where I used to see him. I always looked up at the window, where I and the abusive Mr. Park used to live. I could vision my younger self staring from there. As soon as the sun rose, we disappeared from there, we were lucky to be alive.

 

***End***