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Of all the people in the world, of all the damn people in their group of friends, why did it have to be Chanyeol? His ex-boyfriend was a resident and he shouldn’t have to deal with this douchebag.

 

 

He couldn't stand seeing the man; much less being around him, especially since they broke up on bad terms and everyone knew how hostile their relationship was afterwards. All of their friends had witnessed the breakup and even tried to initiate a make-up but their relationship had turned so bad that there was no way it could be salvaged.

 

 

Everyone always thought that there were s between the two, but whenever they were both with their mutual group of friends, that thought dissipated and everyone always ended up having to try their best to keep the two away from each other or else one of them would have literally strangled the other to death. But still, that didn’t keep everyone from thinking that the two of them should just and make up. And when someone did voice it out loud, Baekhyun always detested to that with a very loud and obnoxious statement, no! I would never touch that ever again and if he ever dares to try and touch me, I’ll ing burn and cut his goddamn hands and off!

 

 

So why was it that, on this one fine day when their entire group of friends had planned to meet up for dinner before going out clubbing, Baekhyun was the one being stuck in Chanyeol’s car? They all had cars but since Baekhyun really needed to get drunk because he’s been so stressed out and depressed lately, Luhan had promised him that he’d be able to ride with his best friend and boyfriend. But then again, he should have known that Sehun wasn’t going to allow Luhan to drive and was going to pick him up instead, in his Mercedes Benz AMG coupe... Goddamn Sehun! He probably did that on purpose just so I wouldn’t ride with them!

 

 

Sehun was one of Chanyeol’s best friends, and Baekhyun could have sworn that they planned this! Everyone knew their relationship status and how the both of them could not stand being within five feet of each other without one of them making some sort of smart comment, that would only then initiate another round of arguments.

 

 

So here they were, Baekhyun sitting in the passenger seat of Chanyeol’s car with his arms crossed at his chest, looking out of the window and constantly rolling his eyes and huffing and puffing. The other male seemed to not have a problem with the smaller being in the same car, much less within close proximity of each other because he had his left hand on the steering wheel tapping away while his right hand shifting the gears, all while humming and tapping his fingers to the songs on the radio.

 

 

Baekhyun couldn’t help but feel a bit of nostalgia because he had always found the way Chanyeol drove to be very y and it was something his ex-boyfriend knew very well. Chanyeol has to use both of his hands since his car was a manual but just thinking about how he used to flirt with Chanyeol while he drove, made Baekhyun a little flustered and he couldn’t help but feel his heart beat a little faster. He still felt annoyed of course, that was why he had to try his very hardest to keep his eyes off of the male and instead focused on what was going on outside of the window.

 

 

But being in the same car as his ex-boyfriend had him thinking back on happy days; days when they were so in love; days when nothing was an obstacle. Then his brain drifted to how it took seven years to go down the drain in a span of just two days. It had been about six months since they broken up and not once did they have a decent conversation; not even to try and explain things. This was actually the first time they were this close to each other and yet, they still haven’t said a single word at each other.

 

 

Well, except earlier when Baekhyun was in his condo waiting for Luhan. He should have checked the window at the first sound of the honk but the constant honking was rushing him so he didn’t get a chance to look. To his surprise, when he opened the door, he saw the oh so very familiar black Audi in his driveway.

 

 

“You have got to be kidding me.”

 

 

Baekhyun was beyond shocked. Never in a million years did he think that he'd see that very same black Audi in his driveway again. His heart was beating frantically, his forehead and back were beginning to sweat, his knees were becoming like jelly and his throat was clogging up. He wanted to scream, to shout, to punch someone, but he knew he couldn’t. He just stood there, thinking that his life couldn’t have been more ed up, and then the damn man had to roll down the window and yelled out in a very sarcastic tone, “Come on sweet pumpkin, we don’t have all day!”

 

 

He flicked the damn man off and decided that he was going to drive himself. He was about to go back inside and grab his keys but when you've dated someone for seven very long years, it seemed that they can still read you because damn Chanyeol.

 

 

“There’s no point in taking you car. Luhan said you wanted to get drunk. Now hurry up! They all left already! We’re the last ones!”

 

 

Luhan for going back on his promise. Sehun for ruining their plans. Chanyeol for picking him up. Kris for planning this. And the world for ting on him.

 

 

 

He couldn't stop thinking about everything, but mainly about their breakup. While he sat in the passenger seat of the familiar car, his thoughts became overpowered by all of his feelings, emotions, memories and everything else the both of them shared came crawling back and it was a whirlwind of confusion, resentment, animosity and so much more going on in his head. Hearing the humming from the guy was making him more irritated, seeing the hand movements to shift the gears were making him want to jerk his hair out of his head, and just that feeling of being so close to the other male was making him want to throw up.

 

 

 

 

Noticing the internal battle that Baekhyun was going through, Chanyeol felt bad that the miniature was going through this. It wasn’t his intention to put Baekhyun in this position, but he couldn’t do anything about it now except try to explain the situation to him.

 

 

“Look Baek—“

 

 

“Don’t call me that.” Baekhyun replied hastily.

 

 

“Can you just stop being so goddamn petty for once?”

 

 

He should have known. Talking to Baekhyun now was like talking to a wall.

 

 

Baekhyun let out a scoff, “Petty? You’re calling me petty? Hm. Yeah, okay.”

 

 

“Look, I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to fight, okay? I really don’t. I want to enjoy tonight and I would really appreciate it if you’d do the same.” Chanyeol said as he kept looking back and forth between the road and at Baekhyun.

 

 

“Are you saying that I’m always the one causing the fights? That I’m always the one acting childish?”

 

 

“No I did not say that. I’m just saying, I don’t want to fight. I really want the both of us to enjoy tonight and to have fun with our friends.”

 

 

Baekhyun got quiet. He had already been feeling bad that their friends had to be in the middle of their fights and arguments but there was nothing else he could do to change the fact that they were all mutual friends, and contrary to beliefs, he believed that they were required to be in the middle of the nasty breakup—because they were all friends. Some grew up together, some met during classes, and some are other’s significant other that ended up belonging to their group of friends.

 

 

Of course he hated fighting with Chanyeol. It was tiring and always drained his energy. It made him moody and angry, it was time and energy wasted and required too much effort. He wanted to be cordial but it was so damn hard being cordial when you’re holding so much resentment and hatred for someone you once loved with all of your being.

 

 

There was a point in time where Baekhyun would have taken a bullet for Chanyeol, but now? He didn’t know if he was stupid or if he really truly meant those words. Of course he still loved Chanyeol, he has and will always have mad love and care tremendously for the guy, but being in love with said guy? Baekhyun would have to sit and ponder about that.

 

 

“Fine.” Was all he said when he came to the conclusion that yes, I will ing enjoy my night and not give a about you.

 

 

“I’m serious Baek, I really don’t want to fight.”

 

 

“I said fine.” Baekhyun said with annoyance.

 

 

“Pinky promise?” Chanyeol let go of the handle and held his right pinky out towards Baekhyun.

 

 

“What are you? Three?” Baekhyun scoffed, he attempted to pinky promise but decided not to.

 

 

But of course Chanyeol saw the hesitation and the slight movement of Baekhyun’s arm. He knew Baekhyun was attempting to make the gesture so he decided to push on.

 

 

“No, I’m 22 and I want to pinky promise. If you break it, you’re paying for dinner and drinks.” Chanyeol said and pushed his pinky finger more towards Baekhyun.

 

 

“Chanyeol, stop acting like a kid. We don’t need to pinky promise anything.” Baekhyun said, voice void of any hatred but full of annoyance. He couldn’t stop looking out the window though, he told himself not to turn to look at Chanyeol because he knew that if he did, he would crumble.

 

 

Being in the same room or the same place as Chanyeol was one thing, but being in the car with him and only a foot away from each other was another thing. All of the hatred and animosity he felt were fighting against his past memories, his feelings and emotions and he wasn’t sure which side was going to win if he so much looked at his ex-boyfriend.

 

 

“If you don’t pinky promise then that means you’re going to fight with me and that’s not what you promised. You’re not sealing the deal. Seal the deal, Baek.” Chanyeol’s voice broke him out of his reverie while wiggling his pinky finger up and down.

 

 

This time, Baekhyun decided against the battle and turned to look at Chanyeol, a big mistake because as soon as he turned around, they made eye contact and the smile Chanyeol was giving him was such a beautiful smile; a smile he used to love so much, a smile that he hadn’t realized he missed, a smile that he hasn’t seen in such a long time, directly at him and for him, a smile that still hurt him so much.

 

 

“If you don’t want to seal the deal then sign the contract!” Chanyeol said with an even wider smile looking back and forth between the road and Baekhyun again. He put his palm flat out so Baekhyun could sign his signature. It was their little thing together.

 

 

When they used to make promises, it was either locking their pinkies to seal the deal, or using your pinky and sign on the palm to sign the contract; and to make sure the promise has been made and properly promised, they had to kiss on it, their very own special way for them to notarize their promises.

 

 

Baekhyun didn’t know what came upon him, he wasn’t supposed to be nice to this , he wasn’t supposed to be on friendly terms with this , he wasn’t even supposed to agree with this , hell they weren’t even supposed to touch, he knew what the pinky promise meant, it meant touching, it meant skin ship, but still...

 

 

“Fine!” He pulled up his right pinky and hooked it onto Chanyeol’s left pinky. He was about to let go but Chanyeol locked their pinkies together.

 

 

“Chanyeol—“

 

 

“I knew you’d let go. You’re not sealing the deal if you just lock and let go. You know the drill.” Chanyeol smiled at him like a kid.

 

 

“Stop being dumb and pay attention to the road before you crash. I already pinky promised now let go!” Baekhyun tried to wiggle his pinky out of the tight grip, gaining no leeway whatsoever.

 

 

“I’m not letting go until you compromise.”

 

 

“Shut the up Chanyeol. doesn’t happen that way anymore. We’re not together anymore.” Baekhyun said and while he tried to do one last push to get his pinky out, Chanyeol pulled him at full force towards him and gave Baekhyun a quick peck on the lips with a smile before facing the road again.

 

 

 

“There, that wasn’t so hard was it? Even though you made no effort and it was a one sided compromise, it’s okay. I’ll take what I can get.” Chanyeol smirked as he let go of the pinky.

 

 

Baekhyun was shocked. His eyes wide and he couldn’t stop staring at Chanyeol. What just happened?

 

 

He wanted to die. He didn’t know if he wanted to die by strangling Chanyeol and get him to crash his car and the both of them would die, or if he wanted to just open the door and jump out and die of embarrassment.

 

 

How dare he?! How freaking dare he?!

 

 

Baekhyun’s face was burning up, he felt the heat from his pinky, to his heart, to his neck, up to his cheeks and then to his entire face which made it feel like it was on fire. He couldn’t tell if his heart was beating because it was angry or if it was fluttering. He couldn’t tell if his face was burning up from the embarrassment or from being angry.

 

 

“WHAT THE WAS THAT CHANYEOL!?”

 

 

“What? That was a pinky promise. Now you can’t fight with me. You should lower your voice and not talk with an attitude or you’ll be paying for my dinner and drinks all night.” Chanyeol smirked again.

 

 

Baekhyun was breathing so hard and so fast with his eyebrows furrowed. Chanyeol knew what pinky promises meant to him. Breaking it was like breaking his heart. He hated broken promises. That was why throughout their seven year long relationship; it was based on promises—lips sealed kisses pinky promises. One wrong move, one misunderstanding was all it took to crumble and shatter every last promises ever made. Baekhyun wasn’t one to allow the fixing of broken promises, especially if it came from the person who broke it. Hence why their relationship never got any better.

 

 

“ you! You .” Baekhyun muttered under his breath, “You ing .”

 

 

“I heard that Baek.” Baekhyun could hear the grin even though he turned his entire body to face towards the window.

 

 

“GOOD!”

 

 

“Dinner and dr—“

 

 

“Shut up Park! One more word out of you and I’m going to punch you where it hurts! Don’t try me."

 

 

 

Baekhyun was so angry that he ended up falling asleep the rest of the ride there. He woke up to the feel of someone moving the bangs from his forehead and giving his forehead a kiss. He opened his eyes to see Chanyeol’s handsome face only inches away from his. Baekhyun eyes went wide and mouth slightly opened to say something but the words got caught in his throat and he couldn’t mutter a single word. He saw Chanyeol looking at his lips and he knew what the man wanted so he pushed him away and unbuckled his seatbelt and opened the door. His heart was beating frantically as if it would pop out of his chest any second now.

 

 

He heard Chanyeol let out a breathy sigh and knew the male was mad at himself for losing control but that wasn’t his problem. If he could control himself around Chanyeol, even if it was little control, then Chanyeol should learn how to be able to control himself around him as well.

 

 

It was not easy to control yourself around someone you’ve been in love with most of your life and spent seven of those years in a serious relationship with them. There were more times than not that he wanted to just give in but he knew that would do him no good at all. He wanted to forgive Chanyeol, he wanted to get back with Chanyeol, but the thought of being hurt again, the thought of going through the whole depression stage again, and the thought of broken promises overshadowed every thought he had of wanting to get back.

 

 

It was easier being angry and mad at Chanyeol because then he could let out his frustrations on him. He didn’t want to let his guard down. He vowed to himself that he would not fall into any temptations he had or will have towards his ex-boyfriend. As hard as it would be to fight the temptation, he was going to fight against every urge flowing in his blood.

 

 

 

When Baekhyun got out of Chanyeol’s car and slammed the door, he walked towards the entrance and he noticed all of Chanyeol and his friends’ car were lined up next to each other. It was so weird and he never questioned it, but now that he thought about it, why did Chanyeol and his friends all made a pact to buy different branded manual (stickshift) coupes?

 

 

Ah, never mind, he knew why, that was because when they made it, they said if any one of them had a boyfriend, then no one else would be able to ride with any couple if any of the guys decided to take their car, like today! Luhan was such a buzzkill because they were supposed to take his sedan! Not Sehun’s ing coupe. Seeing the lined up coupes made his blood boil even more. There in line were: Kris’s Infiniti Q60, Suho Lexus RC, Sehun’s stupid stupid stupid Benz, Chanyeol’s stupid stupid stupid stupid Audi TT, Chen’s BMW i650, and Kai’s Corvette. Damn these stupid rich boys and their stupid coupe pact and their stupid no third wheel allowed rule!

 

 

It was all because of them and their stupid pact that Baekhyun was stuck with Chanyeol! It was because of that stupid pact that Baekhyun had to witness Chanyeol’s temptations! It was because of that stupid stupid pact that Baekhyun’s heart was pounding so hard against his chest! Dammit dammit dammit!

 

 

As soon as Baekhyun heard Chanyeol close his door and locked it, he hurried up and went inside. He told the hostess that his group of friends was already seated and as soon as she led Baekhyun to their table, he sat right in between Luhan and Kyungsoo. They saw the distraught look on his face and were about to question it but Baekhyun was quick to refute them with his hands up.

 

 

“Don’t even ing talk to me right now, you liar!”

 

 

He knew it wasn’t Luhan’s fault and that he should be mad at Sehun instead but Sehun wasn’t his best friend, Luhan was; Sehun wasn’t the one who promised that Baekhyun could ride with them, Luhan did. So he reserved the right to be mad at his best friend.

 

 

“I’m sorry B…” Luhan said in a soft and low voice meant for only Baekhyun to hear.

 

 

Baekhyun heard it loud and clear but he still couldn’t get over what happened in the car. He needed a way to vent out his frustrations and being anywhere near Chanyeol at the moment would kill him.

 

 

He continued to ignore Luhan until he felt his best friend reach under the table for his hand and squeezed it, a form of sincere apology from Luhan. Who could ever resist the fairy when he was being sincere because he really is the sweetest thing. Baekhyun let out a very long and deep sigh and then turned to Luhan and grabbed his hands.

 

 

“I know it wasn’t your fault. I know you would have never left me to die in the water with that shark and I know you probably did everything you can to let me ride with you, so I’m not angry at you. It’s just, someone—” Baekhyun gave Sehun a glare, who only smirked his way, “decided that they wanted you all for himself even when you’re my best friend and I had first dibs to ride with you! He should be thanking me that I even introduced you guys, but instead, he wanted me dead.” Baekhyun said with venom.

 

 

“Baek… he didn’t mean to.” Luhan tried to defend his boyfriend.

 

 

“Whatever Lu. All I’m saying is that I’m not riding with that to the club or back home so you better find a way to situate my driving situation.” Baekhyun said finally with a squeeze to Luhan’s hand and then turned to look at the menu, at the same time, Chanyeol came and sat down across and one seat over from him.

 

 

Baekhyun refused to look up because he didn’t want to look at Chanyeol at all. He decided that he needed to go to the bathroom as soon as Chanyeol sat down because he knew his face was still flustered and he needed to cool down a bit and get his heart to calm down.

 

 

Luhan and Kyungsoo had asked if he wanted them to go with him but he kindly rejected them. When he came back to the table, he saw a glass of wine, most likely his favorite, sitting in his spot. He knew it was probably that one person who knew him the best that most likely ordered it for him. He sighed before reaching their table because he really wasn’t expecting his night to start this way.

 

 

He sat back down at his spot and grabbed the glass and turned to look at Luhan, “Thanks Lu! I knew I could always count on you!”

 

 

“But I didn’t—“

 

 

“I’m hungry. Where is our waiter?”

 

 

“Baek—“

 

 

“Oh my God! Did I tell you who I ran into the other day?”

 

 

 

 

Throughout the entire dinner, Baekhyun avoided looking at Chanyeol. Switching from eating his food, drinking his wine, or talking to Luhan and Kyungsoo. He couldn’t talk to Yixing because Chanyeol was sitting next to him. He hated how things turned out because once upon a time, all twelve of them were happy and always laughing and joking with each other. There was never a frown because being the resident jokester, Baekhyun always made everyone laugh. Nowadays, it seemed like all they got out of him are angry, sarcastic comments, or being ignored or hostility.

 

 

It was also a pact between them that the guys would always split the bill because they never want their boyfriends to spend money, but being that Baekhyun and Chanyeol weren’t together anymore, Baekhyun wanted to pay for his portion. Of course, Chanyeol and his goddamn friends had to fight against him and who the hell could fight against these six big dudes, especially when you’re one of the smallest amongst the group.

 

 

Baekhyun gave up fighting but being Byun Baekhyun; he didn’t let it go without a comment, “Just because you paid, you better not think anything of it. This means nothing, Park.” And then he walked out of the restaurant, only to stop right outside of the door because he wasn’t sure who would he be riding with.

 

 

He sat on the bench and wondered why and how things turned this way. Maybe it was the wine but he started thinking about the past again. In the past six months since the break up, he has not once had to sit and rethink about their relationship. It was always either crying his heart out or just being angry. Having three glasses of wine was doing things to him because he couldn’t stop thinking about the past.

 

 

He remembered being so happy and so in love with the most popular guy back in high school. He remembered being one of the not so popular one but that didn’t stop Chanyeol from being with him. He remembered all of the goodnight kisses and all of the good morning kisses, all of the winter cuddles and all of the happy smiles. He remembered the way Chanyeol would always hold onto him and always expressing his love for him. He remembered the way his heart would always flutter even in their second, third, fourth and even until their seventh year together; just like how it was fluttering earlier in the car.

 

 

Maybe it was the wine, but he started thinking about how it would be if they did get back together? Ah, what am I saying, he probably doesn’t even want me back. He probably hates me for being such a these past few months… but… earlier he… no, he was just messing with me to get a reaction out of me.

 

 

But Baekhyun knew the way Chanyeol looked at him wasn’t just to get a reaction, he knew saw love in Chanyeol’s eyes. But then he couldn’t help but think about how he saw Chanyeol walking with her, looking at her and giving her a hug, and then waving to her as she got on the bus. He should already be over this. But… was all Baekhyun kept repeating in his head.

 

 

He was sitting there on the bench; too busy thinking and fiddling with the hem of his shirt that he didn’t hear the door opened. He felt two bodies sat down next to him and he looked up to see Luhan and Kyungsoo. They smiled sadly at him because he knew how troubled he was feeling.

 

 

“Group hug.” Luhan said with a smile. Luhan and Kyungsoo sandwiched him in the most lovable best friend bear hug possible and Baekhyun couldn’t help but smile. He wanted to cry, dammit the alcohol! It’s making me emotional now.

 

 

He tried to smile, he really did, but he couldn’t help his heart. It felt like it was being constricted and he couldn’t breathe. It felt like someone grabbed onto his heart and twisted it. He felt all of the pressure in his chest and he felt like he couldn't breathe. Then it started feeling like there were needles poking through his heavy pressured, twisted heart.

 

 

“It hurts Lu… it hurts so much. Why does it still hurt so much?” He said softly. And at this point, his tears just fell but he wasn’t crying out loud. He was just sitting there and letting his tears fall. Kyungsoo let go so Luhan could hold his best friend tightly.

 

 

“Shhh… its okay baby.” Baekhyun squeezed his eyes shut and held onto his shirt by his chest, not realizing that the rest of the group was already standing there looking at them.

 

 

Luhan looked up at Chanyeol with sad eyes and Chanyeol couldn’t help his heart. He hated seeing Baekhyun this vulnerable. He rather see Baekhyun throw spite and hateful comments at him than seeing a broken Baekhyun. Most of the time he fought back because he wanted a reaction from Baekhyun. A mean reaction is better than no reaction or a crying Baekhyun... Just like what he was witnessing. He hated it. He wants Baekhyun to stand up and give him a snarky comment, yet he wanted to go up to him and hug him, he wanted to tell him that everything will be okay and that he loves him, but he knew there was a time and place for all of that and now wasn’t it.

 

 

 

 

 

It was decided that Luhan was going to drive Sehun’s car and that Sehun was going to ride with Chanyeol to the club. When Luhan and Baekhyun were in Sehun’s car, Luhan saw that Baekhyun’s makeup a little smeared so he decided to do a touchup before heading to the club. Luhan pulled out his makeup bag from his duffle bag, which didn’t go unnoticed by Baekhyun.

 

 

“Why do you have a duffle bag? And why is Sehun’s clothes in there as well? You guys aren’t going home tonight?”

 

 

“Umm, about that…” Luhan hesitated, but he stopped and looked away because he wasn’t supposed to tell Baekhyun.

 

 

“Luhan.”

 

 

“Kris’s dad got us comps at the hotel down the street from the club so we’re all staying overnight.”

 

 

“Wow…” Baekhyun sat back in the seat and threw his hands in the air and then turned to look out the window. “And no one thought to tell me?! Of course. How the hell am I going to get home then? There’s no way I’m riding home with Chanyeol. Luhan, I can’t! Never mind you know what? It’s alright, I’ll just call my cousin to come pick me up now. I honestly don’t even feel like going out anymore.”

 

 

“I’m sorry! I’m really sorry about earlier. I didn’t want you to ride with him either but you know Sehun, he doesn’t like me driving long distances and he doesn’t like driving my car.”

 

 

“Well, you could have at least told me.” Baekhyun snickered.

 

 

“I was going to but Sehun said he was going to tell you… and I thought he did. I’m sorry B.”

 

 

Baekhyun sighed. There was no doubt that this was planned.

 

 

“It’s whatever.” Baekhyun leaned back against the chair, closed his eyes and with his elbow resting on the window pane, he pinched the bridge of his nose. “I’m not even in the mood to go out anymore. I think I’m just going to call Daehyun to come pick me up. I’ll stay at his place and when you guys decide to leave tomorrow, you can come by and scoop me up.”

 

 

Baekhyun was in the process of taking his phone out and Luhan panicked. This wasn’t part of the plan! He hurried up and grabbed into Baekhyun’s wrist, “Baek! No! You need this. Let’s just forget about whatever happened earlier and go, okay? We’ll have fun! I promise I’ll be with you!”

 

 

“Luhan, you know Sehun’s going to hog you. He always does when we go out. It’s okay. I’m not even in the mood to go out anymore. I just want to go home really. I’m tired, Lu. I’m so tired." Baekhyun closed his eyes at the last two sentences. Luhan could hear it in his voice how tired his best friend is. Not physically, but emotionally.

 

 

“Did something happen on the way here?” Luhan asked.

 

 

Baekhyun opened his eyes and slowly turned to look at Luhan with sad eyes, tears threatening to fall. He turned his head back and closed his eyes; just drowning in the thoughts of all the what ifs and buts. “I hate him Lu.” Then Baekhyun went silent for a few minutes before he started talking again. “I felt trapped. I felt like I was drowning. I felt like dying.”

 

 

“I’m sorry…” Luhan said sadly.

 

 

“I didn’t know it only took one car ride for me to realize how much I miss him though.” Baekhyun said softly, his eyes now opened but staring right ahead at the cars parked in front of them.

 

 

At this point, everyone had already left to go to the club, it was only Luhan and Baekhyun with Sehun’s car left at the restaurant. Before they left, Luhan had told them to just go ahead, of course Sehun tried to protest and said they’ll wait, but one look at Luhan’s pleading eyes had him obey his boyfriend’s wish.

 

 

Luhan sat there and waited for Baekhyun to compose himself. He wanted to say something, but he knew it was Baekhyun’s moment and it’s been awhile since they had a heart felt talk. Four months ago, Baekhyun made Luhan promise that he won’t bother him with his feelings and then he promised back that if he ever needed someone to talk to, Luhan would be the first person he would go to.

 

 

“You know that pinky promise thing we always did?” Baekhyun chuckled. Everyone knew about it. “He made me do it with him, Lu. He made me promise that we won’t fight tonight. That we’ll just enjoy tonight with everyone.” Baekhyun closed his eyes again. “He locked our pinkies and wouldn’t let go, and when I tried to push my finger out, he pulled my arm in and gave me a kiss on the lips. It was just a peck but it set my body on fire.”

 

 

Baekhyun opened his eyes to see Luhan’s eyes even wider. Baekhyun laughed bitterly, “I know huh. How dare he, right?” Baekhyun shook his head and closed his eyes again. “I didn’t know what to think. I didn’t know what to feel. I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to just forget about everything that happened these past few months and fall into his arms again, but I knew there was no escaping reality.”

 

 

“Baek… I’m sorry.”

 

 

Baekhyun was sad that Luhan kept apologizing for something that was totally out of his control.

 

 

"I wanted to tell him to let's forget about everything that happened.... I wanted to tell him so badly. I wanted to tell him that I still love him and want him..." Baekhyun turned to Luhan with tears flowing out of his eyes, "but I honestly don't think I can let myself go through another breakup. I'm still not fixed... I feel like I'm broken beyond repair, to be honest. I feel like I'm put together, but not stabled, but as soon as I try to get up, I fall and crumble again... And right now, I feel like I have no energy left in me to pick up the broken pieces..." Baekhyun's eyes were closed but the tears were still flowing.

 

 

"B... I'm s-so..." Baekhyun could tell Luhan was crying as well. It wasn't his intention to make his best friend cry. He opened his eyes and saw that Luhan was crying harder than he was. He felt bad, and the only way to make it right was to be the bigger person and move on.

 

 

“If I go with you to the club, would you promise to stop apologizing?” Baekhyun smiled, a very genuine smile.

 

 

Luhan nodded and reached his entire body over to hug his friend.

 

 

“One last time, I’m really sorry you had to go through that. But just as always, I’ll be here for you forever and always. I love you B. Your happiness is my happiness.” Luhan hugged him tighter.

 

 

“Too bad I can’t say the same for you. Sehun doesn’t make me happy.” Baekhyun joked.

 

 

“Shut up. Now come here so I can touch you up a bit before you do me back.” Luhan blushed.

 

 

“That’s what he said.” Baekhyun winked when Luhan began powdering his face. The both of them laughed and when Luhan finished with Baekhyun’s makeup and Baekhyun finished with Luhan's, he looked at Baek sincerely.

 

 

“Promise me that you’ll have fun tonight. And that whatever happens, you’ll always follow your heart. Do what your heart desires.”

 

 

“You’re making it sound like I’m stuck in between wanting to marry Chanyeol and killing him.”

 

 

“I’m just saying, but if you do… just follow your heart, okay?”

 

 

“Okay can we please go before I change my mind?” Baekhyun laughed.

 

 

 

 

 

When they got to the club, Luhan had called Sehun to come out and get them. They were, of course, on the VIP list but Sehun, being the freaking paranoid boyfriend that he is, always wanted to be by Luhan, especially when they’re out, because he didn’t want anyone hitting on his beautiful baby.

 

 

Sehun paid the cover charge for the both of them and they headed upstairs to their VIP area. When they got there, Baekhyun went straight for the table and grabbed two of the shots that were already poured into the shot glasses on the table. He downed both of the shots and let out a shout, indicating that he was ready for the night.

 

 

He looked up and saw Chanyeol sitting there with a beer in his hand, looking at him. Remembering their pinky promise and his promise of not fighting, he gave Chanyeol a genuine smile. Chanyeol was shocked but he eventually gave a smile back before Baekhyun turned and starting dancing with Kyungsoo who was still standing there.

 

 

Kyungsoo began laughing because leave it to Baekhyun to dance randomly. Baekhyun grabbed onto his hand and was about to drag him onto the dance floor, but Kai had other ideas so Baekhyun shrugged his shoulders and went down to the dance floor alone. Knowing he wouldn’t be able to pull Luhan away from Sehun and seeing as though Tao and Minseok were faces with their boyfriends and Lay was somewhere with Suho, probably on the dance floor already, he went by myself.

 

 

When he got to the dance floor, he squeezed his way into the middle and just started dancing. He didn’t have eyes on anyone to dance with so he just closed his eyes and danced his heart out. The double shot he took earlier mixing in with the three glasses of wine was getting to him but he wasn’t going to slow down anytime soon. After dancing for three songs straight in a row, Baekhyun decided that he needed another shot.

 

 

He stumbled his way back upstairs to their table and when he saw the clear shots laid on the table again, he grabbed two of the glasses and downed it and chased it with orange juice. When he put the glasses back down, he closed his eyes and started dancing in front of their table.

 

 

No one made it a big deal because in the last six months that they’ve gone out, this was how Baekhyun was. Drank, danced, went to the dance floor for about ten or fifteen minutes, came back to their table and repeat. All night. They just smiled and let him do whatever he wanted because they knew he needed to numb the pain. Kris, Sehun and Kai all looked at Chanyeol, who was eyeing Baekhyun the entire time.

 

 

Baekhyun then stumbled and almost fell when someone walked by and accidentally pushed him. He wanted to turn and yell but Chanyeol got up first, “Ay man! Watch it!”

 

 

The deep, angry voice shocked Baekhyun. He turned to look at Chanyeol, who was now standing right behind him, and just stared at him. Chanyeol was still eyeing the guy who accidentally pushed Baekhyun because that er just flicked him off and walked away.

 

 

Baekhyun looked at Chanyeol’s angry face, giggled and then patted his chest. “It’s okay Chanyeol! No fighting!”

 

 

“But he—“

 

 

“Just enjoy the night! Isn’t that what you wanted?” The two double shots are really working because his words are beginning to slur. Baekhyun looked up at Chanyeol with his two hands still on said man’s chest.

 

 

“I want you to enjoy the night. I don’t want some er to ruin it for you.” Chanyeol said.

 

 

“No one’s going to ruin it. The only person who could have ruin it was you.” Baekhyun poked Chanyeol’s chest when he said the last word. “But we made a promise, right? Just have fun and enjoy your night like it’s your last!” Baekhyun said, giving the chest one last pat before stumbling his way back down the stairs to the dance floor.

 

 

 

Chanyeol fought every urge in his body that wanted to go down to the dance floor and hold onto his ex-boyfriend. He stood there with his arms resting on the railings while keeping an eye on the miniature, who was dancing his to his heart’s content. The smile on his face while he was dancing was enough for Chanyeol to hold himself from going downstairs.

 

 

 

 

 

To much of everyone’s surprise, Baekhyun stopped taking the double shots after the second round because I don’t want to deal with the stupid headache in the morning! She is such a when she makes an appearance! And by the time they left the club, Baekhyun was already beginning to sober up.

 

 

Chanyeol, and everyone else, thought that Baekhyun was going to ride with Luhan, but once again, he shocked everyone when he walked over to Chanyeol’s car. He wasn’t completely drunk, so for him to voluntarily go with Chanyeol was a miracle.

 

 

Chanyeol stood there with a shocked expression and he wasn’t sure if he should move or not, that was until the little miniature opened his mouth.

 

 

“Hurry up Park! My legs hurt!”

 

 

Kris and Sehun laughed at how fast Chanyeol ran to his car with Luhan giggling.

 

 

Once they got in the car, Baekhyun had to ask, “Are you staying here overnight as well?”

 

 

“Y-yes.”

 

 

“Can you drop me off at Daehyun’s apartment then? Apparently I was the only one who didn’t get the memo about the overnight stay.” Baekhyun said bitterly.

 

 

Baekhyun closed his eyes for the duration of the ride, which was fairly short so when the car came to a stop, he opened his eyes to look at the surrounding, noticing that they were at the W Hotel.

 

 

“Why are we here?”

 

 

Chanyeol didn’t say anything; he just opened his trunk and got out two bags, his and Baekhyun’s. He walked over to the passenger door and opened for Baekhyun.

 

 

“Come on, everyone’s already upstairs.”

 

 

“Are you serious right now?” Baekhyun groaned and wanted to protest but he was getting so tired he decided to just follow his chauffeur. “Can you please bring me to my cousin's apartment later, then?”

 

 

“Come on!” Chanyeol replied, trying to ignore the question. He didn’t want to promise anything that he knew he wouldn’t be able to keep.

 

 

Kris had already checked them in and gave their room keys to Suho so Chanyeol grabbed Baekhyun’s wrist and went straight to the elevator. It was a surprise Baekhyun hadn’t even noticed his own bag in Chanyeol’s arm.

 

 

When they got to Suho's room, he opened the door and gave the room key to Chanyeol and told him the room number before shutting the door closed. Baekhyun already knew what was going to happen because Suho was already stripped down to his boxers.

 

 

“DON’T BE TOO ROUGH ON MY YIXINGIE! HE’S A FRAGILE BABY!” Baekhyun yelled and then giggled afterwards. Chanyeol just chuckled because that was so Baekhyun to do that.

 

 

Not realizing the situation, Baekhyun just followed Chanyeol and when they got to their own room, and got inside, that’s when Baekhyun realized that the room they were in were a single bed and it was just the two of them.

 

 

“Chanyeol, what is going on?” Baekhyun asked while still standing near the entrance staring at the single bed.

 

 

“What do you mean?” Chanyeol asked back. He was in the process of going through his bag for his sleeping clothes and that’s when Baekhyun saw it.

 

 

“What the ? Why is my bag here?” Baekhyun asked. He knew something fishy was going and now all of this was just making him angry.

 

 

Chanyeol stood straight up and turned around quickly, “Uhh…”

 

 

“Park Chanyeol.” Baekhyun said with the voice that meant business. One that Chanyeol was always afraid of. If he was afraid if that tone of voice calling his name while they were together, imagine how he felt now.

 

 

“Luhan packed your clothes for you because he knew you wouldn’t have agreed to stay overnight and Sehun had dropped it off at my condo this morning.” Chanyeol sighed. He gave up looking for his pajamas and threw everything he took out back in the bag and went to sit down on the bed.

 

 

“Look, Baek…” He said while looking at Baekhyun, who was still standing at the hallway. “I’m sorry, I really am. I don’t know how many times I have to tell you for you to understand how sorry I am.” Chanyeol said with frustrations.

 

 

“Sorry doesn’t mean .” Baekhyun barked back.

 

 

“But I am sorry.” Chanyeol’s tone of voice changed to a softer one.

 

 

“If you knew you were going to be sorry then you shouldn’t have done it in the first place.”

 

 

“But nothing happened!”

 

 

“Then why are you sorry?”

 

 

“Because I just am, okay? I’m sorry that you had to see everything. And I’m sorry that you had to go through all of this. And I’m also sorry for hurting you.” Chanyeol said apologetically.

 

 

“I don’t want to talk about this anymore. Tell me what is really going on now because I am slowly losing my patience.”

 

 

“If it makes you feel any better, I only knew about the real plans today. When they told me the plans this morning, I thought I was going to be rooming by myself. I didn’t even know you were going much less staying overnight.”

 

 

“That still doesn’t explain anything Park! Stop beating around the bush and tell me everything or I will walk out of here.”

 

 

Chanyeol sighed; Baekhyun deserved the truth now that they’re already here.

 

 

“Kris wanted to do something for all of us since it’s been a while that all of us had fun together. I was against it, but you know how persuasive Kris can get when it’s him, Sehun, and Kai ganging up on me. I told them not to drag us into this because you wouldn’t appreciate it. But then he said it was because of us that the group’s dynamic had been a little off.”

 

 

At Chanyeol’s words, Baekhyun stiffened up a little. He always thought about how his friends must have felt, but hearing what Kris said directly to Chanyeol was a bit overwhelming and he felt even more guilty, especially towards Luhan.

 

 

“I know, I was like you too. I felt horrible. I don’t like doing this to them. I don’t like it at all. So I told them to go without me. I told them that they can invite you but I won’t go.”

 

 

Baekhyun didn’t know why hearing Chanyeol say that he wasn’t going to go and that they should just invite him made his heart constrict even more. Did Chanyeol not want to see him that bad?

 

 

“I’m sorry you hate being around me.” Baekhyun said bitterly while he rolled his eyes.

 

 

“Goddammit Baek that's not it! Stop with the accusations! You don’t know how hard it was for me.” Baekhyun scoff at the words that left Chanyeol’s mouth but he ignored it. “For the past six months, all I’ve been doing was take all of your hatred, all of your animosity, all of your hurtful words and comments. I took it all because I know I deserved it for hurting you.” Chanyeol stood up and walked towards Baekhyun, who stiffened up even more.

 

 

“If I could get any reaction from you other than crying then I’ll take it. I’ll take all of the you do to me. I’ll take all of the hurtful things you say to me, even if you mean it or not. I’ll take you yelling at me, arguing with me, hitting me, anything; I’ll take it all, as long as I don’t see you cry. You don’t know how bad I wanted to just grab you and hug you earlier when you were crying outside of the restaurant.”

 

 

Baekhyun was shocked. He didn’t know they saw him crying. He stood still while Chanyeol continued to walk towards him until he was standing in front of him.

 

 

“I’m telling you now, nothing happened. That day you saw us, I admit, I did walk her home and I did give her a hug, but only because I told her she shouldn’t text me anymore. And then, she asked for a hug as a parting gift.”

 

 

Baekhyun hasn’t said a word; he didn’t know what to say. His heart was continuously beating fast. He wasn’t sure if it was from the confession of the truth or from Chanyeol being so close to him, probably both. He felt hurt though. For Chanyeol to admit that he did walk that who must not be named home and even gave her a hug. The only person who should be getting hugs from Chanyeol was him!

 

 

“I know she texted me 'good morning' and 'good night' everyday and I’m so sorry you had to see that. But I promise you that she had never crossed my mind. She was never an option. She was never what I wanted. She’ll never be what I want.” Chanyeol raised his hands and cupped Baekhyun’s face, “Because the only person that I want is right here in front of me. In the form of a human puppy.” Chanyeol smiled sincerely at Baekhyun, who now has tears rolling down his face. He felt so stupid. He should have known. He should have trusted Chanyeol. This was all his fault.

 

 

Chanyeol wiped away Baekhyun’s tears, “I’m so sorry Baek. I am truly and honestly very sorry. I shouldn’t have given her my number, but I promise you that when she asked for it, I didn’t know she had liked me. I didn’t know her intentions.”

 

 

Baekhyun’s tears refused to stop falling. He still hasn’t said a word but he felt like he had so much to say. He felt so stupid. He jumped to conclusions and accused this amazing man in front of him for all of the wrong things when all he had to do was look into his eyes and see the truth; see all of the love this man had for him.

 

 

He was now sniffing and hiccupping from crying so hard that he could feel the snots dripping down from his nose. He knew he looked a total mess with his makeup smeared, but still, Chanyeol looked at him with so much love.

 

 

Chanyeol took his thumb and wiped the snots coming from his nose and at this, the both of them burst out laughing, which only cause more snot to come out.

 

 

“You’re so gross.” Chanyeol finally said with a laugh.

 

 

“Shut up.” The first words that Baekhyun said since Chanyeol’s explanation.

 

 

“I’m truly sorry Baek. I really am.” Chanyeol said as he followed Baekhyun to the bathroom. He stood behind him and wrapped his arms around his waist, while the miniature continued to wipe his face with toilet paper.

 

 

Chanyeol looked at Baekhyun’s eyes in the mirror and smiled, “I love you.” Then he leaned down and gave Baekhyun a very hard kiss on the cheek, “I love you so much. God you don’t know how good that felt to tell you that.”

 

 

“You’re stupid.”

 

 

“That, I am.”

 

 

“Very stupid.” And Chanyeol laughed at the harmless insult.

 

 

“Call me anything you want, I’ll still love you.”

 

 

“That doesn’t explain why my bag is here.”

 

 

Chanyeol chuckled. They walked out of the bathroom and Chanyeol sat on the bed and pulled Baekhyun to stand in between his legs. “It wasn't until you left the restaurant that I found out that Kris actually wanted us to make-up. He was tired of me moping around and complaining to them that I miss you.”

 

 

“Don’t we have the bestest friends in the world.” Baekhyun rolled his eyes. Leave it to their group of friends to come up with the dumbest , though he should thank them because now he knew the truth.

 

 

Chanyeol wrapped his arms around Baekhyun’s waist and pulled him closer to rest his cheek on the standing man's chest. “We do, but I wouldn’t change them for the world.”

 

 

“That’s because you’re dumb just like your friends.” Baekhyun said, eventually wrapping his hands around Chanyeol’s neck.

 

 

Chanyeol let out a hearty laugh, “You’re right, I am. But I’m glad they did what they did for my sanity. I was on the brink of breaking. I wanted you back so bad.”

 

 

“I’m really sorry, Yeol.” Baekhyun said apologetically.

 

 

Chanyeol looked up and smiled at the nickname that he was finally able to hear after so long, “Call me ‘Yeol’ again.”

 

 

“Stop being dumb.” Baekhyun hit his back and giggled. “But I am sorry though. I really am. I’m sorry for accusing you, for jumping to conclusions without asking you first. For not trust—“

 

 

“Don’t. It’s okay. It must have looked bad in your eyes when you saw us hugging. That was something I shouldn’t have even done. I shouldn’t have had to walk her home and explain to her or give her a hug if I hadn’t given her my phone number.”

 

 

Baekhyun was crushed in between wanting to cry for the way he’s been treating Chanyeol and wanting to kiss him for having so much patience and taking all of his crap these past months.

 

 

“I don’t deserve you.” Baekhyun said in a low voice. Chanyeol shot his head up to look at his boyfriend.

 

 

“What are you talking about? How could you say that after all I have put you through these past few months? Sure, I was hurting too, but seeing how bad you were going through made me feel even worse. Knowing that I was the one who made you cry was bad, but seeing you cry because of me right in front of my eyes, was by far the worst feeling in the world. I don’t ever want to see you like that again.”

 

 

“You don’t ever want to see me again?” Baekhyun joked.

 

 

“I don’t ever want to see you away from me again.” Chanyeol countered with a smile.

 

 

The both of them just stared at each other with matching smiles on their face, until Baekhyun thought to hell with it and leaned down to kiss Chanyeol. The kiss ignited the sparks they haven’t felt in so long, waiting to burst into flames. Chanyeol couldn’t help but wrap his hands around Baekhyun even tighter and moving his body even closer and kissing him even deeper.

 

 

They stood there and kissed for God knows how long until Chanyeol stood up and turned the both of them around. He pushed against Baekhyun so he fell onto the bed with his hands on both sides of Baekhyun’s face and he continued to kiss him.

 

 

“I love you so ing much, Baek, so ing much, I don’t think you have any idea.” Chanyeol said, his forehead leaning on Baekhyun’s.

 

 

“Then show me. Show me how much you love me. Show me how much you want me. How much you miss me. Love me, Yeol.” Baekhyun said before he leaned up to capture his boyfriend’s lips.

 

 

 

They didn’t know how much spending time apart, would make them crave each other. Three rounds of making love and Chanyeol couldn’t be happier. Baekhyun wanted to wipe that smirk off of his face but as soon as he looked at his boyfriend, it was like everything was back to how it was, how it should be, and how it always will be.

 

 

 

Chanyeol continued to lay there with his arms wrapped around Baekhyun’s waist and his face nuzzled in Baekhyun’s hair. The both of them shared the same content smile on their faces; the effect of the aftermath. Every time Baekhyun tried to move just a bit, Chanyeol would let out a baby whine and hold him closer and tighter, which only resorts to Baekhyun letting out a giggle. He loved being cuddled and absolutely loved it when Chanyeol snuggled up to him as if his life depended on it. He knew he missed it, but he didn’t realize how much he missed it until now.

 

 

He opened his eyes and saw his phone and that was when he remembered about Chanyeol’s phone.

 

 

“Hey, your phone rang earlier, you should check it.” Baekhyun nudged him with his shoulder.

 

 

“I don’t want to. No one is worthy of my time except for you and you’re here with me so I don’t care. Whoever it is can wait.” Chanyeol said, and if it was possible, he squeezed Baekhyun tighter.

 

 

“Yeol, just check your phone. It might be one of your dumb friends.” Baekhyun persuaded.

 

 

Chanyeol let out a groan, “Fine. Only because you told me to. If it’s one of them asking for a or lube, I am going to them up.” Baekhyun laughed at the threat.

 

 

Chanyeol turned to pick up his phone from the nightstand and then went back and put his right hand under Baekhyun’s neck again. He had Baekhyun in between his two arms and decided to open up his phone so the both of them could see. He saw that it was a few text messages and when he opened it up, he couldn’t help but burst out laughing and Baekhyun letting out an embarrassing whine.

 

 

Oh Thehun (3:22am):

Goddammit! I know you guys are celebrating but will you please keep it down! Luhan is trying to sleep!

 

 

KkamJongKai (3:26am):

Sehun texted me complaining about you and Baekhyun and told me to tell you to shut the up. I didn’t know what he was talking about until I walked by and…. holy ! Baekhyun is really ing loud!

 

 

ChwenChwen (3:28am):

I swear I’m going to ing choke you and Baekhyun tomorrow! Minseok and I were sleeping and woke up to my phone going off with the guys complaining about how loud you both are! STFU!

 

 

Suho (3:28am):

Congratulations! I’m glad you both are finally back together!

 

 

WooYeezyPhan (3:31am):

I’m glad you both are back together, but ! Normal people are trying to sleep! Tell Baek to stop screaming how good you feel! No one needs to know when Woody finds the El Dorado!!

 

 

 

Chanyeol couldn’t stop laughing. Trust Kris to say something dumb like calling it the El Dorado. He only replied back to Suho with a smiley face before setting the phone back down and snuggling up to Baekhyun again.

 

 

“It’s okay babe, I love it when you scream how good I am when Chanyeol Jr. finds the El Dorado.” Chanyeol laughed and Baekhyun pulled the comforter over his head and tried to move away from Chanyeol.

 

 

“Shut up Park! See if you’ll be able to find the golden opportunity again!”

 

 

 

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i'm sorry idk what happeneddddd... LOL it's literally a word vomitttttt. i also attempted to write , but I CAN'T AT ALL so yeah... that was taken out LMFAOOOO
2:40 am and i attempted to edit this but i'm sleepy and tired and have to wake up in 4.5 hours for work.. shoot me

 

copied from google docs > word > aff = weird spacings... i'm usually OCD about the spacings but i'm too tired to care atm.. maybe i'll edit tomorrow lol