This oneshot has POVs of both wendy and Irene

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet

Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry

 

 

 

“I-i can’t seungwan, i’m so sorry….”

 

 

I had this coming. Of course you would say no. I’m not the one for you anyway

 

 

 

 

“I-its okay. Forget it. Forget i said that.” i retorted quickly

 

 

 

“W-we could still be friends right?”

 

 

 

Friends.

 

Right.

 

 

 

Once you fall for your best friend, there’s no going back to being friends

 

 

 

But being the sadist I am, i said

 

 

 

“Sure.”

 

 

 

I’m an idiot.

 

 

 

“Thanks for understanding seungwan, you’re the best” she said as she hugged me

 

 

 

 

That’s all I am anyway. Bestfriend.

 

 

 

 

 

“Yeah….”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you

 

 

 

 

“I’ll promise to come over tomorrow” she promised once more

 

 

Lies.

 

 

Promises only make you expect.

 

Don’t believe in promises

 

 

“You never even keep your promise anymore” i muttered. hoping she didn’t hear, but she did.

 

 

she heaved a long sigh. “I’m sorry. I was just busy these past few days.”

 

 

“It’s okay, i’m used to it.” i clenched my fists

 

 

“You shouldn’t be, it’s my fault, i’ll try to make it up to you tomorrow i promise..”  she said trying to console me

 

 

“Just don’t forget to bring pizza and lots of movies over alright?” i said trying to lighten the atmosphere

 

 

“Will do olaf!” i chuckled at the silly name. it sounded perfect hearing it from her

 

but unfortunately

 

i won’t be hearing that voice everyday anymore

 

 

 

 

 

Don’t ask me anything

I can’t give you an answer

We’re so happy as we are right now

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“She’s so lucky. She has someone to do that to her everyday” joohyun said as she munched on the popcorn while watching this sappy romantic movie

 

 

 

“Don’t you have someone to do that to you too?” i asked her

 

 

 

“I wish I had one…” she pouted

 

 

 

 

 

“Can’t you give me the chance to do this to you everyday?” i leaned closer to her ear and whispered

 

 

 

 

 

“Seungwan, let’s not talk about this no-“

 

 

 

 

“You said you’ll take time, i gave you time” i answered back

 

 

 

“I can’t give you an answer right now wan-ah i just….”

 

 

 

“Yeah, i understand” i felt stupid, ruining our movie night with my dumb mouth, great going son seungwan

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Don’t try to have me
Let’s just stay like this
You’re making it more painful, why?

 

 

seungwan was dropping hints once more earlier this afternoon. Doesn’t she know she’s not the only one hurting?

 

 

I’m not ready for a commitment yet, i do like her, i’ m just not ready to open up my heart

 

“I’m sorry seungwan” Every time i reject her, my heart breaks into pieces. Yes she’s hurting, but i’m also hurting. 

 

Why can’t we just stay like this? 

 

Why would you want more when I’m already giving my everything?

 

 

But i guess my everything wasn’t enough for you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Goodbyes after our frequent meet-ups

Repetition of broken hearts

I can’t find a purpose in these foolish feelings

A mistake with the mask of love

All the feelings are the same now

But in this moment, I want you to stay

 

 

 

It seems weird

 

 

 

But right now, i don’t want you to leave

 

 

 

I want to sleep in your arms tonight and wake up feeling your arms securing me

 

 

 

But at the same time

 

 

 

I don’t want to get too attached

 

 

 

 

 

Because I'm afraid of getting hurt

 

 

 

 

 

and being left alone

 

 

 

I’m so confused

 

 

 

Why are we like this wendy?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Don’t smile at me
If I get attached to you, I’ll get sad
I’m afraid that pretty smile will turn into tears

 

“Stop tickling seungwan!!” 

 

there it is. her genuine million dollar smile. I could look at her smile every passing second and never get tired of it. 

 

But it doesn’t only bring me bliss

 

It also brings me pain, that inevitable pain that keeps me from falling harder

 

 

I was told, never get too attached to someone, because you’ll have a hard time detaching yourself

 

 

I couldn’t even go a day without her running through my mind

 

 

Her smile brightens my day, yet gives me nightmares at the same time

 

I’m falling into a trap

 

A dark endless pit where there is no one to catch me

 

Why didn’t i just fall out of love?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Don’t try to trap us

In the word, love

Because it’s a greed that can’t be filled

 

 

*flashback*

 

 

 

 

 

“Oh, let’s go on that ride!!” irene said as she pulled seungwan towards the long queue for the roller coaster

 

 

 

“Y-you want to ride t-that?” wendy whimpered as she pointed at the horrifying ride

 

 

 

 

“Yeah, it’s not that scary isn’t it?” irene grinned

 

 

 

 

“ARE YOU KIDDING ME? THAT’S THE SCARIEST THING I HAVE EVER LAID EYES ON!! NO! I AM NOT GETTING ON THAT RIDE BAE JOOHYUN.” wendy whined

 

 

 

“Come on, don’t be such a baby, it only has one loop” irene said

 

 

“The more i don’t want to ride that thing.” wendy huffed

 

 

 

“Come on wendy, you won’t know when we’ll be back here… let’s not miss the opportunity, please wan-ah….” she said, attacking wendy her no-one-can-ever-resist aegyo, especially wendy, she has a weak spot for irene’s aegyo

 

 

 

“B-but, hyun-ah..”

 

 

 

“Please….” she jutted her lips out, showing a pout, and smiles after hearing a sigh from wendy

 

 

 

“Fine. Just once on this ride and never aga-“

 

 

 

 

“YESSS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SEUNGWANNIE” she squealed as she hugged the stiff wendy. 

 

 

 

“Y-you love me?” she asked, blinking her eyes once more

 

 

 

“Of course! You’re my bestest friend in this universe!”

 

 

ouch.

 

 

 

 

bestfriend.

 

 

 

 

that’s all she’ll ever be

 

 

 

 

“O-of course I am, who even dare to make friends with the cold and grumpy irene bae” wendy tried to joke around

 

 

 

“YAH! ARE YOU SAYING I’M GRUMPY?” irene hit her shoulder playfully while wendy just bitterly smiled.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“I love you too, even if it hurts” wendy thought

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Don’t expect too much from me

I don’t wanna lose you either

Before things get too deep, before you get hurt

Don’t trust me

 

 

 

 

“Joohyun..”

 

 

 

“Hmmm?” she asked, not taking away her eyes on the book

 

 

 

 

“Do you love me?”

 

 

 

irene stopped reading and turned her head to face seungwan, who was looking at her with so much love

 

 

 

love that she couldn’t return

 

 

yet.

 

 

 

 

“O-of course i do, y-you’re my bestfr-“

 

 

 

“Damn it irene, why couldn’t you love me more? You keep pulling me, making me fall in your trap, then what, push me away and treat me as a best friend? I’m tired. I’m so ing tired Irene! Don’t you even know how i feel?” wendy cried

 

 

 

 

“I already told you not to expect anything from me! I don’t want to lose you that’s why I keep holding on to you. “

 

 

 

 

“Why are you making it harder for me? If you don’t even love me that way just ing let me go! NOT DOING THIS PUSH AND PULL THING!” wendy’s chest rose up and down, trying to breathe

 

 

 

 

“You know what, lets just stay away from each other. Stop coming over. Don’t even call or text me. I don’t want this anymore.” wendy said calmly

 

 

 

“W-wan-ah.., don’t do this..”

 

 

 

“THEN WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?!I DON’T WANT TO HURT MYSELF MORE IRENE I’M SO ING TIRED OF THIS ” 

 

 

 

 

“Just go..”

 

 

 

 

 

 

As soon as Irene walked out the door, wendy broke down on the floor and cried. What have she done? 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

You always call me
A selfish bastard

 

 

 

A week after the fight, wendy and Irene went back to strangers, not talking to each other nor sparing a glance at each other. But from the bottom of their hearts, they are still hurting from what happened

 

 

Irene was about to get her things from her locker when she saw someone or rather two figures at the far side of the locker area

 

 

 

Wendy was leaning on the locker door while a tall slender figure or seulgi; which irene recalls from her english class, is leaning towards wendy. Irene couldn’t help but get jealous and this seulgi girl had her anger flared up

 

 

 

what she did next was unexpected

 

 

 

 

“LET GO OF HER.” Irene glared at the girl while holding her wrist

 

 

“Why should I?” the taller asked

 

 

“Because I said so.”Irene said while wendy was trying to keep her glacne away from Irene

 

 

“Why? Are you her girlfriend? Why do you care?”seulgi spat. Wendy decided to pry and settle this once and for all

 

 

“Seulgi why don’t you wait for me outside. I’m just going to talk to irene real quick.” wendy said

 

 

 

“Fine. But be quick” seulgi said as she walked away from the two

 

 

 

 

“What do you want?” wendy coldly said

 

 

“Why the hell were you letting her go on you like that? Is she your girlfriend?” irene asked

 

 

“What if she is?”

 

 

irene felt a sudden pang on her chest. now she felt it

 

“W-why her?” irene croaked

 

 

“Why not her?” 

 

 

 

“Because she’s not for you…”

 

 

 

“THEN WHO IS?!YOU? YOU WANTED ME NOT TO EXPECT FROM YOU. I DID. I MOVED ON. I GOT A GIRLFRIEND AND DID WHAT YOU EXACTLY TOLD ME. AND NOW YOU’RE PLAYING THIS PUSH AND PULL GAME OF YOURS AGAIN?!WHY ARE YOU SO SELFISH IRENE?!”

 

 

 

“I-i’m sorry seungwan….”

 

 

 

 

“You know what, everything made sense to me now. We’re not just for each other, we keep chasing each other but what? Only the worse is happening” wendy explained

 

 

 

irene was too late

 

 

 

wendy changed

 

 

she’s not the same seungwan who used to have a grin on her face when she sees irene

 

or the overprotective seungwan who fends off anyone who tries to hurt her

 

 

and it’s all her fault

 

 

“But even though, i-i still love you…” wendy’s eyes started to tear up

 

 

 

“Please wendy….”

 

 

“Don’t you find this funny? How this is the exact same thing we experienced a long time ago, except that i was the one begging” wendy bitterly chuckled

 

 

“Seungwan….”

 

 

“You know what, let’s just both move on. I’ll find my happiness, you find yours.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“Let’s not fall in love Bae Joohyun”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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this is crap

 

thanks for reading peeps

 

sorry for any gramatical or typographical or idiotical errors, i'll try to fix it asap

 

okay bye~

 

/hides in a dark corner/