I'm one of those older kpop fans and lately I noticed that I probably just care more about other peoples relationships than myself (kind of sad tho). It's somehow really frightening bcs I have a fear of never really been able to open up to someone besides caring about fictional ships (cause people drive me insane at some point and I would call myself rather independent) has anyone the same problem or at least thought about it at some point ? I was in a relationship which lasted for more than half a year but during this time I again had more fun in writing/reading than actually meeting up with them ? might kpop and all those idols just set my expectations higher ? any similar happend to you? :)