04.06.16 //

I miss hoseok hyung so much

so so much

but i dont know if he misses me

why would he?

after what i did...

he probably hates me 

i would hate me too

what i did...oh god...

why would i do that...

i think i should write about it

so i can see just how bad it was

so here it goes:

i...

i said a bunch of bad things

about Hoseok hyung

to ARMYs that came to fansigns...

i said he was ugly and mean and annoying

So no one would like hyung

except for me

so they would stop flirting with hyung

it was bad

i know

but i didnt know what to do

hoseok hyung would have definitely picked a pretty girl over me

and left me

but he left me anyway

because i'm not good enough

i never will be

i messed up

even the other members hated me for a while

but they didnt know the whole story

they only knew i hurt hoseok hyung in some way

but i only said those things when it was just me at the end and hoseok hyung next to me

i was so jealous

i lost the best thing in my life