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Most of the time, she tries to bear the pain she feels whenever he bring his arms around her or when he sniff her hair and hold her hand. Just like an idiot, she always looked away and tried her best to understand that he will never see her the way he sees Sara.    She is his first love. His first girlfriend and it wouldn't matter much if he was changing girls from time to time but he didn't. He was loyal. He was madly in love and she hates it. She hates how he loves her.    It all started from winter of last year when she realized her feelings for Sunggyu. She had known him her whole life. He was the kind kid next door that her mom forced her to play with. He was polite and her mom adores him just because she didn't have a son and she only had a daughter since her dad died really early in their marriage. Sunggyu's family is like her extended family and though they grew up together, they were the exact opposites. While he was outgoing and friendly, she was quiet and timid. She only made friends because of him and he never made her feel left out. All through out middle school and high school, he always made time for her even though she is not much of a talker.    He stayed by her side when no one couldn't but things changed when he met her. She was the prettiest girl in his university and she was so kind and soft spoken that she couldn't get mad at her. Somehow, she fits Sunggyu. Like puzzles completing each other, Sara and Sunggyu matched.    They were 19. Fresh out of highschool and starting their lives. While her mom tried her best to send her to a university, it was still not enough so she voluntereed to go to work and save so she can enroll the following semester. Sunggyu's parents enrolled him in a nearby university. And while she worked her off to pay bills and save for school fees, Sunggyu spread his wings and fell in love.    She was glad at first. She was happy he can experience something she hasn't and with a nice girl too. But when the calls and messages lessen, she felt empty. He rarely visits her work place anymore. When she started working in the cafe near his university, he used to spend all his spare time hanging around and waiting for her so they can go home together.    She was hurt. At first she thought it was because he had diverted his time to another person. But when he introduced her as his girlfriend, her world crumbled. She forced a smile, she forced herself not to cry.    "Song Yi ah. This is Sara. She's um, she's my girlfriend."   And she lost him. He didn't even know he broke her heart but he did and he was unaware of it.    But she knew she never deserved Sunggyu.    So having Sara by his side is better than having her. An amazing person like him deserves a kind person like her. So she kept it all inside. For the last eight months they were together, all she did was pretending that her fragile heart wasn't breaking.    "Are you alright?"  She looked up and saw Sunggyu staring at her