He walk slowly to the bathroom, the shower's steaming water is liquid heaven that glides over his tan skin, his mind fly thinking about something as he stares at the wall. I should be happy isn't? I have sehun now, someone that I've been crush for 3 years since high school. or this is guilty feel because I cheat on kyungsoo? and destroy our 4 years realtionship, but I want sehun I still loves him until now, I think. Kyungsoo says it's okay he can uderstand that I choose sehun, but why? what's wrong with my heart? it's strange, I feel empty.

Sent by : oh sehunnie

Good morning baby, meet me at 5 after work? love ya!

Jongin smile

but he lock his phone again, burried his face in pillow that still covering with kyungsoo scent, he mumble "I miss you"

--- Flashback ---

"you have new secretary mr kim" baekhyun said, while give cappucino coffe to his bestfriend

"who? where's tiffany?" jongin take his coffe and take a sit in front baekhyun

"she will gave birth soon, but after 3month she will comeback you know this is her first son she want take care him alone without babysitter, and your new secretary is sehun, oh sehun, our old friend, remember?" 

Jongin almost spilled out his coffe "sehun? oh sehun?"

"yes baby, your forever crush" baekhyun giggle 

 

forever crush? yeah maybe baekhyun right, I've loves sehun since forever even the fact that sehun already taken doesn't change my feeling, I can't loves someone else so I choose to wait sehun break up with his boyfriend, I wait and wait but their never break up, after waited for almost 3 years I;ve give up I choose different university with sehun so I can move on.

after 1 years in colleger I met kyungsoo, baekhyun roommate, he is cute and really kind I know that time I still no over sehun yet but if with kyungsoo I think I can do it, kyungsoo make everything so beautiful, when someone you love loved you back there's nothing can compare, it's been 4 yeras since I decide to date kyungsoo, I love him, he loves me, and I already forget about sehun. and then he came...

"I've to go now, he'll be here in 10 minutes" baekhyun stood up, leave jongin that turn pale and nervous ,right before he exit he turned around and said "you have kyungsoo, I just to remind you"

"Always" jongin smile

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someone knocked the door

Jongin that already nervous and pale become more pale and nervous, he feel like his blood in his entire body was boild up, he always like this everytime he saw sehun, since the first time until now his heart always beating so crazily almost explode .

"calm down jongin, you can do it and remember you have kyungsoo" he whisper to himself and said "come in"

sehun entered the room, bowing politely and stand confidently in front jongin 

god please help me, his first love is in front of him now, nothing change but more handsome now, he look so gorgeous with brown hair, his pink lips and bee jaw jongin really can't handle it, he cursed at himself tell to calm down or he'll be drooling .

"please take a sit" jongin tries to pretend like nothing happened between them in past

"thank you, this is my profile I'll replace your secretary for 3 month, I'll work hard, please take care of me mr kim" 

"just call me jongin, if it's just two of us, baekhyun call me that too if everyone not here" 

"okay, jongin." sehun smile 

that's smile! oh god "you can start now, if you have question just ask me or baekhyun"

"okay thank you so much" sehun leave the room without knowing someone brain almost explode 

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Jongin arrive at home at 5:00 as always, kyungsoo already in front the door to welcome him, give a cute peck and asked

"how is your day baby? everything alright?"

"like always, everything great" jongin hugs kyungsoo he don't doing anything but dunno why he feel so guilty right now

"dinner already serve, I make your favorite food" kyungsoo smile widely, his cheek blush a little 

"do you know how lucky I am have someone like you in my life?" jongin kiss kyungsoo lips, this one is more intens, he taste all of kyungsoo lips, he feel so peace, happy, he feel home. This is perfect jongin don't ever think to destroy all of this just because someone from the past. The past it's not important the most important it's his life now, his life with kyungsoo

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Everyone is busy, there's so much worksheet that must've be done today.

"wanna join me and jongin for lunch?" baekhyun said when aproach sehun that still busy with his computer "you still have lunch sehun, or you'll die between this paper" 

sehun giggle take his blazer and accept baekhyun invitation

after get lunch, there is still 30 minutes so they're decide to still here and talking

"it's been a long time" baekhyun start

"almost 5 years huh? and you still with taeyeon it's amazing" sehun continue and look at baekhyun

"thank you, how about you? you still with tao?" baekhyun asked, one gaze at jongin that still silent

"no, we're broke up 6 month ago, he said he bored with me maybe because already dating since high school I can understand" sehun eyes become teary "how about you jongin?" sehun tries to switch conversation

"I am okay, I mean yeah" jongin fluttered, not expected the question because he is busy admire sehun face 

"you look more handsome now" sehun smile at jongin give butterfly in jongin chest "sorry guys, I've met my sister now see at office" sehun slurp his lemon tea and run out the building

baekhyun look at jongin that still blushing after sehun said he is handsome "jongin I remind you---"

"I know" jongin cut baekhyun word

"if you hurt my kyungsoo, I'll never forgive you"

"I know baekhyun, calm down okay? I not doing anything"

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he lies

Jongin just finished his work and prepared went home when he saw sehun also prepared to go home

"where you parking your car?"

"I am not ride today, I will wait for taxi you can go first"

jongin silent for a moment and said something "what if I ride you home? I still remember where your house is" something that he will regret for the rest of his life, because this is how it's started .