My heart sank as I left the room, my eyes teared, tears streaming down my face. I couldn't believe it. It happened. The one time I meet my bias, I just had to mess it up. I can't believe it. It wasn't even my fault. These things happen. These things always happen. It wasn't my families fault. 

Here he was, Hong Jisoo, better known as Joshua from 17. Just as I drew near him, and saw those captivating eyes twinkling, my phone went off, loud and annoying. Embarrassed, I meant to reject the call. Deciding to quickly scan the caller ID, I just couldn't ignore the call. Do you want to know why? My brother. The one who never uses his phone to call or message anyone in the family, called. If it were any other family member, I would have chosen to ignore it. But... My brother. I couldn't ignore that, it must have been important, right? Upon answering the call, I just broke. Tears streamed down my face. I couldn't hold it in, I was sniffling loudly. I tried to cover my face, so I dropped my phone. More accuartely, I threw the phone to the ground.

My legs were trembling in shock and fear. It couldn't be happening.

My mother? My health, warm-hearted mother. Why? I can't lose her. The centre of my whole world. My pillar of strength and hope. She can't leave me in this big, scary and horrifying world. I wish I could swap places with her right now. Why does she have to suffer? She's goe through so much these past few years. I couldn't take this anymore, without my mother, I felt like I couldn't do anything anymore.