I miss you.

I wonder if you're missing me too.

What should I do to make you stay?

I have tried everything I can so that you wouldn't go away

But you still left and leave me astray.

"Some people say, in this Church, when it's your first time to visit, you should light a candle say a prayer and make a wish and it'll come true." I told him while picking up 2 floating candles for myself

"They say that, that legend is true." he told me and I smiled

"So you had experiences? Is that why you believed in it?" I ask

"Nope, but you tole me you had, right?" he looked at me but I just smiled and stayed quiet for a while and pray.

Prayed to God to talk to Him and thank Him. 

For a wonderful job, a wonderful family and friends, and of course for giving me Myungsoo. I never expected that the bully in my high school days would be the one I want to spend the days for the rest of my life. 

After a good 5 minutes, he held my hand and led me inside the chapel. We sat there because there's no one inside. I look forward while we were sitting side by side. Looking at the big cross in front of us.

"What did you wished for?" he ask me

"If I told you, it wouldn't come true and maybe it will contradict my wish." I smile, "maybe the opposite thing will happen." I added

"Do you believe in that?" he asks and I nodded

We stayed quiet for a minute and then I felt him held my hand, I intertwined our fingers together and looked at him; but he was looking at the cross in front of us, I think he's praying.

I decided to look forward and smiled, thanking God again for everything that is happening in my life then I heard him say

"I wish Suzy wouldn't give me her first kiss." 

My eyes widen and I looked at him in awe.

"She told me that she wanted her first kiss to be inside the church, in our marriage, so I hope she wouldn't kiss me right now. That's my wish." he said and I hit him playfully

"Why did you told your wish out loud?" I ask him, but I know what game he is playing.

"Oh no, will it contradict? I hope not." He said sarcastically and I laugh at him

He kept repeating his wish and I just sat there and listen to his playful remarks.

"I give up." he said after a good 3 minutes of ranting and repeating over and over again

We stayed quiet for a minute and I knew he was looking at me but I didn't dare to look back. I just stared in front.

"Suzy..." he called

"Hm?" I said, not looking at him

"Suzy~" he called again and finally I turned my head to look at him and the he suddenly kiss me, but only on my cheek

"HA!" I chuckled and he pouted

"Close!" he said and sighed

"Mehrong~" I stuck my tongue out at him and he just sulk there, he let go of my hand and he crossed his arms above his chest

I chuckled at him. He's like a child that didn't get his candy. 

"I'm sorry, Myungsoo." I told him and kissed his cheek

But he didn't say a word and continued to pout and look forward

"Hey~" I started shaking him while holding his arm tightly

He ignored me again.

I put my hands on his shoulder and move an inch closer to kiss his cheek but he turned his head and I caught his lips. 

It was just a millisecond but his smile is wide like the ocean. 

"Yah!" I said and smiled at him

"I didn't quite felt that right, can we try again?" he said and I just look at him, smiling.

He move forward and we kissed, just a smack though.

"Are you happy now?" I asked

"No. Because my wish didn't came true." he said sarcastically.

"Well, my childhood dream that my first kiss should be on my wedding day is now ruined thanks to you." I replied with the same sarcasm and looked at him

"Awww, poor Suzy. I'm sorry, at least I fulfilled one of your dreams, your first kiss is on the church but not on our marriage." he said and I laughed

"Fine fine." I replied

He held my hand and intertwined them then he looked me in the eye while i looked down, shy, covering the emotions in my eyes.

"Look me in the eyes." he told

"I can't stare into people's eyes, Myungsoo." I reminded him

"Then let's make a deal, staring contest, if I win I'll kiss you and when if you win, I'll but you food." he said

When I heard food I replied happily with

"Game on!" 

We stared into each other's eyes for about 10 seconds and I feel awkward, but I can't give up. 

I kept starting into his brown locks, oh god I think I'm trapped with his gaze. He smiled at me and I smiled back. 

His stare is intense, so intense that I close my eyes and look away and said

"Fine you win!" he laughed and declared victory "I'm no good at staring." I added

I pouted and watch him laugh like a child.

"Aww, I'll still buy you food, don't worry." he said and held my hand

"Really? Yay!" I said and smiled

He then lean forward and caught my lips, and for the first time in forever, we both got our first kisses. It was messy and innocent but I wouldn't want it any other way. 

"I'm sleepy." I told him and lay my head on his shoulder.

I don't know if he is ignoring me or if he just didn't heard me

I felt him peck the top of my head and I felt weird, like something is wrong. Very wrong but I brush that feeling off.

After a few silent and awkward minutes, he called me. 

"Suzy." 

I look at him in the eye and it feels so different, like he is so distant, so far away.

He held my chin and move forward, and we kissed. But why do I feel so much pain? So much guilt?

When we part, I see tears falling from his eyes.

"I'm sorry, Suzy. Let's break up." he told me "I'm in love with somebody else." and I felt my heart break into tiny little pieces while being stepped on with nasty people

"Your sorry would mean nothing now, Myungsoo." I tried to hold back my tears

He stayed quiet

"Did you love me?" I ask him

"Of course. You'll always be the perfect girl. The right girl for me." he answered

"Then why are you leaving me right now? Why did you choose her over me?" 

He didn't say a word.

My tears are now slowly pouring beneath my skin. 

"Do you still love me?" I ask, my voice broken.

"I'm sorry, Suzy." he said and bowed his head

I inhaled and exhaled heavily; stood up and wipe my tears.

"I'll go now." 

"Let me take you home." he offered.

And we did. 

Walking. We were walking side by side just like before, but now it's different. Everything changed. 

We reached my apartment, I didn't bothered looking back at him nor saying goodbye. I just got inside and slammed the door shut.

It was the last time I saw him. 

I never thought it was gonna be our last kiss. 

I never imagined we'd end just like that.

He told me I was the right girl for him, but maybe he just isn't the right guy for me. 

But I don't care what fate would say, he is the right guy. He is what I want.

But he doesn't want me now, he doesn't love me anymore. 

It's been 3 years since we broke up.

And today would be the day. The day of his marriage. Wth Jiyeon. The girl he left me for. 

"For the sake of the people who doesn't know me. I am Suzy. Myungsoo's ex girlfriend. I am the first girl he has ever love and he was mine too. I'm not going to tell you our love story because this is not our wedding. So I would just like to congratulate the lovely couple, Jiyeon and Myungsoo. And I would like to say to Jiyeon these little things. Myungsoo, is very playful at times, he likes to be pampered too like a girl. Please care for him and don't forget to always talk to him, about random things and random topics, because his opinion about anything and everything is interesting for me. He likes kisses, a lot. I know because he would kiss me and hug me tightly a lot.He would kiss me when we argue or when I was in the middle of saying something. I miss those rude interruptions. I miss those times. So kiss him, everyday, hug him everyday and love him, love him with every fiber of your being. Because I know you're the luckiest girl in the world to have him as your husband. I would know, because I would do anything to be in your place right now, Jiyeon. But I am happy because Myungsoo is happy. I'm happy that you've found your happily ever after. So everybody, cheers to the newlyweds."