addiction is BAD .  

wither its on cigarettes , drugs , sweets , video games or food . 

addiction is dangerous . 

and it happens that she knows quite well because his voice is SO  addictable ! 

just like ALL the things could be addicted to got mashed up togather in a cocktail .

she is addicted to him , & now the suffer from been outcast is unbearable !

talking till early morning , going to her work with puffy eyes & sharp mode but its worth it . 

he worth it . 

even when it seems like they talked about everything , something will pop in his or her mind 

& the conversation goes on .. 

and always in the back of her mind she knows the truth about his voice , a laugh like his cant be forgotten .

well , Im for sure going to miss this . 

miss what ? oppa ....

hhhh well our little conversations , its seems like we can talk about EVERY THING !

EVERY THING !! hmmmm Im not sure ..

yeah their this one awkward thing I didnt tell you .. how strange !! 

whats that ?

one day I called you and I wrote one number differently & well caught in this awkward phone call ! 

you wrote my number wrong ! oh ... thought you save it or something .

yeah I did but sometime I dial it my self ,  no the point anyway 

not to me * she said to her self * 

its was like YEARS until I realise the situation going on hhhhhhh 

oppaaaaa ! what was it ? stop making introduction !!

hhhh ok ok .. well he sounds breathless & wierd ..  buzy .. you know , intimate buzy with his girlfriend or whatever hhh I mean WHYYY would he answer me if he buzy ! hhhhhhhhhh

oppaaaaaa ! why you tell me this !! 

hhhhh you got it ! thought you wont understand little girl !

Im not that little ! Geeeeeee ! 

hhhhhh then tell what was it like your first kiss or maybe your first s..

OPPAAAAAAA !!!!! 

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ooooh GOD hhhhhhh

she feels angery & embarrasse but his sweet Heavenly laugh makes it worth it

 she keeps shouting upset & he keeps laughing ...

BUT what you mean you would miss this , where you going ?

ashhhh yeah that .. Im going to travel for a while maybe 2 weeks or so .

oh yeah you have a tour .

& she froze ! damn !! did she just say TOUR !  

its a heavy silent for seconds , but finaly he maneges to give little giggle , a nervous one it seemed .

hah a tour ! its something rich people does right ?!  

hahhh yeah ammm I meant its for fun or something . *she says hope he believes !

No.. no fun for me , only work baby .

her heart makes little squeeze when he says baby but try to ignore it .

well , its a good thing , we will have new things to talk about when youer back. *She lies & almost cry*

hhhh yeah you right .

LONGEST 3 weeks in her life , she as smart little obsessed girl search for idols on tour .

there were many , but she finds this poster & know it .

INFINITE TOUR IN JAPAN 

HOW IN THE WORLD SHE DID NOT NOTES THAT BEFORE !!

& she was right , she DID know his voice , & now all she needs is him to come back and tell him she knows . 

IF she gets the courage & IF he does COME BACK ! 

& he did come back , more sweet than ever , more concern , more worm 

she knows too that it was too late for her . 

she falls for him from the moment he said call me oppa ! 

& NOW she has to tell him she knows & very much too badly unhealthy falling for him ,

& risk losing his sweet laugh , sweet manners , concern questions 

cause this phone talk is not enough .

she cant really get enough of him anyway .

Are you ok , sugar ?

hmm oppa ? 

hhhhhh are you even listen to me ! buzy with something ?

NO ! Im not buzy with anything .

sooo , whats upset you ?

nothing .

thats mean it me ! right ?!

WHAT !  NO ! 

then mmmm its another man maybe 

oppaaaa what are talking about ?

you .. I can see that something is up with you 

ashhhhhh , Im not ready yet .

hhhhh Im not too , just say it sugar . 

I ..... you know ... Im really worry 

about what ? 

you WILL get upset .

what ! guess you know me now well enough to say if I will get upset ot not !

well I KNOW .. but this is not enough , not fair , I mean I can live like this FOREVER but .. I have to do this leap of faith .

I have NO idea what you talking about !

oppaaaa ! 

what ! really I dont .

I know your voice 

silent for moment , deep with screaming thoughts .

I know you voice too 

oppa you know what I mean 

I dont , and you should stop drying your brain over this silly things .

its not SILLY things , its important ! you are importint .

well then leave this alone if you want to keep it ! 

I cant ! I cant God knows I tried but its hunt me , only think about it , you , your name , YOU mostly .

you should work your brain with more important things over fantasy me hhah 

SUNGYU ! STOP IT ! 

thats NOT my name .

He said it , so calmly , his voice did not take a second to think 

you DONT understand I know your voice , every word , every breath ,and God your voice in the phone is like blessing lullaby , Gyu I know more than myself & loved you before I knew you your name and ..

STOP CALLING ME THAT ! 

but its your name ! 

NO ! STOP! 

then who are you ? just tell me WHO ARE YOU ? 

 I TOLD YOU ! ashhhh I told you .. I am oppa .

& then He never called again .

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Dont hate that ending >.< that last dialogue was just ashhhh heartbreaker to me T_T 

hope it was not too long , sorry if there are any mistakes 

till next time ^^