[SUMIN'S POV]

I screamed while crying hard.

No.

No.

No.

No way. No, this isn't happening.  Nope.

Baek Sumin stop it. WAKE UP! It's just a dream get up now! Quick!

"Let me go..." He begged grabbing my arm, crying.

No. Sumin what are you doing?! Get up now!

"Just set me free Sumin! Let me go.."

No.

I started to laugh as the tears slipped down my eyes.

Oh this is stupid... How could he say this to ME?!

"Please! Let me go! Just let me go... Sumin.. Please..." he kneeled in front of me, hugging my knees, begging me.

It shocked me.

Baek Sumin you get up right now. Stop dreaming. This isn't how it's suppose to end. GET UP!

"Sumin! Please...." sobbing harder.

Heart pounding, I swallowed to lump in my throat.

My hands were shaking, my heart was going crazy, my mouth refused to make a sound when I tried to use it.

"H-How l-long?"

"Less than 2 weeks ago..." 

*SNAP!*

I woke up with a jolt as the bus suddenly jerked forward for a red light.

My heart pounded as I took a deep breath, observing my surroundings quickly, I was on a bus, and 3 more stops to Myeondong.

Alas, it was only just a dream, a dream.

I still felt a small shiver ran down my spine as I re-called the dream I had, or well to be more specific, the nightmare.

Ever since that day, I would always have the exact same dream every couple of months. Like I needed to be reminded about that day, like I needed to be reminded on the reason what I have because of it....

The thing is,

I never, ever want to fall in love. 

In fact, I hate the idea of love.

Love is overrated, it's just all a bunch of lies.

A beautiful bunch of lies.

Love makes people feel that they are unstoppable, love makes people blind. 

Love isn't what people think it is.

It destroys you, breaks you down and then comes back for another round to slap you in the face.

No. Love is cruel.

It's temporary, its something that can never last forever, despite what people say about how "True love lasts forever."

Because it doesn't.

There's no such thing as true love.

I've been diagnosed with Philophobia,  meaning, I have bad memories from love that has caused me to adopt the fear of falling in love.

They call people like me "Philophobic." 

I avoid  anything you can put under the category "romantic", Valentines day, love songs/ballads, romcoms, kdramas, chocolates, matching couple attire and weddings.

I despise weddings especially.

I don't want to fall in love.

I can't.

Not again, and not ever.