I know that I shouldn't be doing this and that he is happy in his new relationship, but how can I not take my chance? I still love him, I don't think that will ever change. If I was a little braver I could hold him in my arms like this every night instead of having pretend that I had a nightmare or that I was feeling lonely. I'm surprised Jackson lets me do this, I don't know if I would be able to do the same in his position.