I spend a whole month in Jonghyun-hyung’s and Key-hyung’s apartment.

I knew I couldn’t avoid Minho my whole life.

I have to talk to him.

That means, I have to go back to that white house.

“Minnie, what’s wrong? Your face is so pale, are you feeling sick?”

“Naah I’m fine Key-hyung, I just thought about Minho…” The name Minho came out…weak.

“Why?”

“I have to talk to him. I can’t leave it like this. I need to know.”

“Sure…do you want me to call him?”

“No. I will go back to his house and talk with him.” Yeah, it’s not our house anymore. It’s his’.

“Are you sure Taemin?”

“Yeah…I am.” To say the truth, I’m not. I don’t even want to go back to this house.

But I have to. I’m not satisfied with his answer.

“You weren’t enough Taemin.”

That’s not it. That’s not the truth. I can’t, no I won’t believe this.

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I can’t believe I’m standing in front of that house.

I walked in. The password didn’t change yet.

I saw a man in an expensive looking black suit. He was looking around the house.

There were some papers on the table.

“Erm sorry…who are you?”

He is asking me who I am? That’s what I wanted to ask him.

“Lee Taemin but..”

He cuts off my words.

“Aaaah what a nice coincidence. Mr. Choi told me to call you before I can sell the house. But you are here and I don’t need to call you anymore. Ahaha what a lucky guy I am.”

“S-sell the house?”

He wants to sell the house?

“Of course, Mr. Choi and his family will move to England today. He doesn’t need the house anymore, he was worried about your belongings, that’s why he asked me to call you.”

H-he is moving to England?

“I-I see…thank you.”

“I’m leaving now. You have to finish until tomorrow.”

He flashed me a smile, looked at his wrist watch and left.

Minho is leaving.

I won’t see him anymore.

I didn’t mean anything to him. I never meant.

He’s just leaving me like this.

I can’t believe it.

“You weren’t enough Taemin.”

I really wasn’t enough.

My legs went numb. I collapsed to the floor. I pressed my thighs against my chest and sobbed into it.

Why didn’t he tell me he was leaving?

Doesn’t he want to see me anymore?

Doesn’t he love me anymore?

Did he ever love me?

I want you to answer my questions. Please Minho, come back. I love you.

1 year passed

“Taaaaaaeeeeeemin you little brat!!!” Key-hyung was running after me.

“Ahahaha nooo Key-hyung please leave me alone…ahaha Jonghyun-hyung forced me to do this ahahaha”

Key’s face was blue. I put some color in his BB-cream.

“What? He forced you to ruin my BB-cream?” He was now screaming things like ‘inconceivable’ and ‘what the Marilyn Monroe is wrong with him’.

“What’s going on?” Onew walked into the room.

“Key-hyung is being a drama queen.”

“Again?”

“He never stopped being one!”

We both laughed.

Jonghyun was the one entering the room now.

Key, who was busy cleaning up his face, threw the tissues to the floor and pointed at Jonghyun.

“You!!!”

When he saw Jonghyun’s face he stopped.

Jonghyun-hyung looked sad. He was almost crying.

“Jonghyunnie-hyung what’s wrong?” I asked.

“Guys, I have to tell you some bad news.”

He looked straight into my eyes. There was something really bad going on.

“Errm..well I met someone..” he started “i-it was Minho’s mother.”

“W-what?” I heard that name the first time after a year. Everyone was acting like they never knew him, just not to hurt me. I thought I was over our relationship. But I never stopped loving him.

“There was a reason why they moved to England.”

“Jonghyun wait!” Key-hyung placed a hand on my shoulder.

“First we have to ask Minnie whether he wants to hear it or not.”

“I’m okay...tell us.”

I need to know. I want to know.

“Minho had lung cancer. They moved to England to get medical treatment for him, but it was too late. They needed to move there earlier…” he took a deep breath, I saw the tears rolling down his cheeks.

“He died two weeks ago.”

Everything went silent.

No. It’s not true. No. No. No. No.

He just doesn’t want me anymore. I just wasn’t enough. That’s all.

No. No. No.

Jonghyun hugged me.

“His mother gave it to me. He wrote it for you the day before he died.”

He placed a piece of paper in my hand.

“Please l-leave me alone…I need time…”

“Sure…we will leave now.”

I saw Jonghyun-hyung grabbing Key-hyung’s hand.

I let out all the tears I’ve been holding in.

I’m not ready to read it yet.

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Two more days passed until I was ready to read it.

I slowly unfolded the paper.

Dear Taemin,

Tears started falling.

Please forgive me. I’m not strong enough to leave you like this.

I can’t take the pain anymore. I want you to be here. I want to hug you.

I will die soon. I know it. I can feel it.

And you know what? I’m afraid. Not that I will die, but that I won’t see you again. Never. And I can’t do anything about it.

I will fall into a deep sleep. I won’t be able to wake up and see your face again like I want to.

There are so many things I want to do. So many unfulfilled dreams. So many unsaid words.

Do you remember when I said I will protect you until the end?

I guess it’s the end. It’s my end. I’ve chosen a weird way of protecting you, but I thought it was right.

I wanted you to hate me so you don’t have to feel the pain. But I’ve destroyed my own plans with this letter. Forgive me Taemin. Forgive me.

I hope we will meet again someday. But for now….please be happy. That’s my last wish.

I’m leaving to come back one day.

I love you Taemin. I love you.

Goodbye my love. 

*End of Flashback*

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guys...no joke...I cried while writing Minho's letter

I just wanted to feel the pain my characters went through...

anyways...hope you enjoyed the 2min special

I will return to JongKey in the next chapter :3

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