WHITE

WHITE cieling ......... beautiful room.......beautiful view.........blue windows..............round face......blue eyes......same girl from the other room.

left- I look to my left.......Nurse,desk,curtains,bag of blood, and a weird machine I don't know the name of.

right.........I look at my right........another desk, a door that saids bathroom, a beautiful view, a flower, and my angel Jonghyun.

Not surprise....Jonghyun, he always next to me. 

"Kibum" he whisper......kibum.....that's my name....."smile". he said.

Smile that word ........ why?..... why does that word remind me of such much?`

(Flashback)

TEARS
Tears are running down my cheeks. WHY?

Why is the question I ask myself every day but I never get an answer.

KICK.....PUNCH ........SLAP
 

Why should I scream 'help'. Why should I look for me help. Why should I ask them to stop? WHY?

SHOULD i SCREAM FOR HELP?  ..... Why should I ? when I do no one comes.

SHOULD I LOOK FOR HELP? tell someone what is happening to me . Why should I ? ....everytime I do they tell me to grow up and be a man.

Should I ask them to stop?....Fo rwhat?....Everytime  I do they never stop. They actually start hitting me harder and Yelling at me louder.

Why do they do this to me?

Open..............I open my eyes.

Running.............I see someone running.

Faces..............I reconigze thata faces.

Onew-Taemin-Minho

Crying.............I see someone crying.......Jonghyun.....Is Jonghyun he's crying.

Not the first time ........ Is not the first time he cry when this happen to me.

I dont blame him.

I imagine how it must feel like having the person you care about the most getting hurt and you can't do nothing about it.

Screaming, Shouting, Running, Hitting, Fighting.

What's going on? What's happening?

Left..............I look to  my left.

Onew./............I see Jinki screaming at that..........boy

That boy.......He's ....... He's always the one that turn everyone agaisnt me.

Right.......I look to my right. I see teenagers running away and a crying Jonghyun.

Front......I look forwards. I see Taemin. He is holding me. He saying something. He's crying.

What is he saying? Why is he crying?

I can't hear anything.

I can hear just find but, I can't hear anything.

Behind.........I look behing me.

Fighthing........Minho is fighting with one of my main bully.

Weak........A tear ran down my cheeks.

I can't cry that shows I'm weak. Being strong means never loosing your self control.

If I cry I have to punish myself. I need to choose if I should cut or if I should stop eating. 

I know it sounds stupid but when I cry I have to punish myself. I have to punish myself for being weak. There two ways I can punish myself. The two ways are I stop eating and only drink water or I cut myself.

Taemin whip away my tears that were runnig down my cheeks. He help me up and took me to a places far away from there. At least far enough so I wont see them. 

He hold me.

And 

I hold everything inside. Not letting not even one tear run down my cheek.

Minutes.......Minutes have pass.

Hours........those minutes felt like hours.

I watch them running towards me.

Taemin got happy when he saw them coming.

"Hey!!"

Who's that?? I know that voices.

Onew

"Is say they are gone now stop with that sad look ". He said.

They gone now, they ain't coming back to hurt you" - Minho

"SMILE" - Minho 

*Flashback Ends*

I got up.

Cold.....my feet touch the cold floor.

I walk towards the window. The plants were getting dry.

Seeing plants were getting dry in this

Season 

isn't much of a surprise. The beautiful spring green promise to

wither .

In the autumn. I look up at the birds flying. They look like something I would see in my

Dreams.

In a blink of an eyes the birds

Fade Away.

I remember Minho last words. I don't understand how he could tell me to smile after everything that happen to me. 

How am I suppose to SMILES.