Hey there all my peepz

 

This story was supposed to be about me and my feelings after my ex broke up with me but I decided to change it up a bit cause I didn't want to bore anyone to death

 

Warning: This is a little short and there will be death at the end

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When we first got together I was the happiest

You were my first

You were my everything

There was nothing that I didn't love about you.

The first day that we were a couple was awkward

Everything about dating was new to me

I wanted everything to be perfect

I wanted us to be the perfect couple

I wanted us to be togheter until the day we drew our last breath

I wanted us to be a fairytale.

The first week that we were together was full of laughs and hugs

We hid our relationship

Pur close friends knew of it

But not our family

We were afraid of what would happen if they found out

You would be hated

I would be disowned

We were scared, yes, but.......

we had each other.

We had our first break up

I was so hard

I regretted it immediately

I wanted you back so badly.

I needed you back

Everyone came to me instead of you

You were hurt and you had only one person by your side

I wanted to have you back, so I tried

You were mad at first and it was awkward between us

I was happy when we got back together a week later when you said to me:

"Let's go to the movies"

I was so happy and my heart leaped for joy

We were a couple again

My heart thumped in my chest when we had our first kiss

It soon stopped when you said: "I didn't feel anything"

My face fell into sadness and my heart was so hurt

You googled it to see if it was normal

You said that it was......

You lied to me

It said that it meant that didn't love me

I didn't want to believe it so I tried to ignore it

TRIED..........

I wouldn't ignore it, no matter how much I wanted to.

We had our fist job together

We were so happy

Until...........

You broke up with me

The pain after the 2nd break up was great

Things spun out of control

I wanted us to be friends

You took control

You were no longer the caring, funny person that I knew

It was like the day you broke up with me.....................................

Was the day that you died.

I didn't want to involve other people

I was scared

I was hurt

I was terrified

I was unstable.

You questioned everything to me

I lost my words

What was I supposed to say???

"I did everything that I did after we broke up because I care about you. Because I still love you"

Did you want me to say all of that?

If you did, then I should've known.

The feelings that I have for you haven't died down yet even though it's been 5 months

They don't want to go away, no matter what

You've moved on

I guess it was true when you said that you don't love me or care about me

Those words hurt my heart, like a bullet went through my heart

There was no other way to rid myself of the pain, so I'm ridding myself of this world.

It's too hard to recover from this and I will never be able to heal the wound in my heart.

I watched as the metal shinned in the  bright light

I shivered as I felt the temperature of the water drop drastically

I winced as the metal piece dug into my skin

I watched as the blood flowed from my hand and into the water

I sighed and lowered myself into the water and staying there

I closed my eyes for the final time as I felt myself slipping from the harsh reality of this world.

I love you Daehyun. Forever

Enjoy your life for the both of us......

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I wrote this a lot faster than I thought

LOL I should've wrote this earlier