It has been 9 months since JB's second debut, this time with six others including Jr. I still remember the day both of us went to JYP Entertainment to audition as though it was just a couple days ago when really, years have passed. We were so young back then, thinking of only becoming idols for the cool outfits and flashing lights. Our youthful dream caused us to dissappoint our parents in so many ways. We skipped out on studies to practice, lied to say we had to stay late at school for meetings when we were really having vocal training. On weekends, we stayed up late to listen to music so we could play the roles of being composers, competing against each other to see who would write the best lyrics. All of that was just a pure dream for me, but as for JB, it became his reality. It was hard to not grow envious of him. He knew so well what he wanted to do with music and when he finally got the opportunity to show off his skills, he shined ever so brightly. I know he has worked so hard to get where he is, but he made it look so flawlessly easy, as though he was a natural-born star who just needed to be scouted. It's obvious by now that he was chosen for JYP Entertainment and taken under its wings so he could be shaped into who he's always wanted to be. As for me, I didn't pass the audition in which I guess my compositions weren't good enough to be one-hit materials. Sure, I didn't have the strongest of vocal, but I had the ability to write. At least JB said I did. Maybe he was just being a good friend for encouraging me. My dream was to become a songwriter. That's who I wanted to be ever since I was able to run my fingers along the keys of the piano. Apparently, JYP only wanted songwriters with powerful vocals in order to be the perfect fit. I remember waiting by the phone for 5 months because the company had told me they'd call to confirm if I made it in that duration. The call never came after the sixth month and that's when I knew I didn't make it. To confirm even more that there was no hope, JB had called me to tell me he was going to be a trainee in two months. That moment, I felt a wave of mix feelings splash through. This meant we weren't going to be able to live our teenage dream together. It only came to prove that I had to grow up and chase after much more realistic goals, goals that I am capable of accomplishing, goals that are much more promising.

On Janurary 6, his 18th birthday, he came back to Goyang to visit home. It was 2012, the exact year he made his first debut as JJ Project. He was up and headed for stardom. That was also the day he confessed to me and asked me to be his girlfriend after our continous contact. I said yes even with fear that I may be agreeing to take on something risky, but then I realized that JB was just as human as me and we had every right to take on what we believed. He was willing to work through with it and I had no reason to back down because I didn't want to lose without giving a try. It has been two years since and it seems his load only got heavier. As the leader of the new-born idol group, GOT7, expectations were high and that's when I realized we were becoming unstable.