“where’s that bastard? Still not home yet?” Heechul angrily asked while he caressed Sungmin’s hair gently, Sungmin only shook his head hopelessly while tears was still running down on his chubby cheeks “ssshh… don’t cry anymore min… don’t waste your tears for him” Sungmin shook his head again and Heechul sighed “it’s wasted right to talk about it? I know no matter what you will still cry for him” Heechul caressed Sungmin’s hair again while the latter still crying on his chest, it was a rare moment to see Sungmin cry, unless for something really upsetting just like now, after the news hit the media, he couldn’t stop crying, some more he was alone in the dorm, Eunhyuk was on his holiday with Leeteuk and Donghae in Jeju, while his boyfriend, Kyuhyun, already back to Seoul but decided to ‘runaway’ from him and it broke Heechul’s cold heart when that night he saw Sungmin was crying alone inside the dorm “you want to talk to others? Ryeowook? Kangin? They are downstairs ready to come up when you want to talk to them too” Sungmin shook his head again, he wasn’t ready to talk to anyone about this, not even s, actually as they never keep a secret between each other all of them know that today SM would release the news between Sungmin and his ‘girlfriend’ and they already asked Sungmin if he needed them to stay by his side on that day but all Sungmin told them was ‘I’m going to be fine, you guys can just focus on your holiday’ but behind those smile, Sungmin broke down when he saw the news, he was prepared for it, but in the end he still wasn’t ready especially when Kyuhyun left him alone like this, the latter didn’t even asked if he would be okay that day on the first place and just went away to Jeju with Changmin.

“if you never come to dorm today I swear I will tear you into half alive, chop your brainless head using Ryeowook’s knife, burn your heartless body and throw it to dog” after said all of that Heechul hang up the phone, yes, he called Kyuhyun, he didn’t even let Kyuhyun to speak and just spoke whatever was on his mind. Heechul stared on his phone after that and moved his eyes to Sungmin who was already sleeping on the coach, Heechul sighed, after hours of crying finally Sungmin slept and Heechul didn’t have a heart to wake his favorite ‘pumpkin’ especially after what happened to him “Kangin, go upstairs now, help me to carry Sungmin to his bed”

“is he okay now?” Kangin asked carefully as if Sungmin was listening to them

“He’s not, will never be okay, unless that stupid person come today which I already called just now”

“HYUNG! why you never called us? Is Sungmin hyung okay now? Can I talk to him now? Can I meet him? Does he need something to eat? I already prepared some hot soup I bet he hasn’t eaten yet, how is he now? Can I go upstairs now? Can I? can I? can I?” Ryeowook snatched Kangin’s phone and straight aways bombed Heechul’s with questions about Sungmin since Heechul asked Ryeowook and Kangin not to come up first because Sungmin would feel guilty if he knew many people were worried because of him

“Ya… can’t you talk slowly? Well he’s sleeping now, on the coach so… I … I mean Kangin will carry him to his bed”

“can I see him?” when Heechul said no Ryeowook continued “I promise I wouldn’t make any noise, I just… want to make sure with my eyes that he is really okay” Ryeowook’s trembled voice melted Heechul’s heart, and eventually he agreed to let Ryeowook came up

Kyuhyun opened his dorm’s door slowly, he wasn’t ready but he knew slowly or quickly he needed to face it, in fact all the things happened because of him and Sungmin’s fault and it was wrong when he just ran away from it, left Sungmin alone to face it. He thought he was ready, and even the news is fake but still it did feel real after he read it and he hated himself for being a coward and overly jealous guy for Sungmin. He looked around the dorm and actually prepared himself for a punch from Kangin or shout from Heechul but there was none, the dorm really empty and quiet, with heart beating fast he opened Sungmin’s room slowly and found the latter was sleeping on his bed. The moment he saw Sungmin’s face he wanted to hug him straight away and apologize to him, but no, with Sungmin’s condition right now he had no heart to wake him up, Kyuhyun walked slowly to Sungmin’s bed and sat on it, anger, sadness, frustration all could be seen on Kyuhyun’s face right now, he saw dried tears on Sungmin’s cheeks and Sungmin’s frustrated face even on his sleep, it broke his heart to see them on the person he love the most other than his family. when Kyuhyun saw tears drop down again on Sungmin’s face even when he was sleeping, Kyuhyun accidentally moved his thumbs and wiped it, made Sungmin woke up from  his sleep

“kyu….” Sungmin looked at him with blurry eyes and hoarsed voice

“I… sorry… you can sleep again, I will go…” Kyuhyun stood up quickly and already turned his back from  Sungmin when the latter hold his hand

“don’t…” Kyuhyun could feel Sungmin’s trembling hands holding onto him as if his whole world depends on it “don’t go…. Don’t ever try to runaway again from me…. don’t….” Sungmin broke down in tears and Kyuhyun couldn’t help but turned back to Sungmin and hug him, caressed the latter while Sungmin was crying hard on his hug, after few minutes Sungmin tried his best to stop crying, let go Kyuhyun’s hug and looked at him in the eyes “You know my heart is always belongs to you?” Sungmin asked

“I do, I always do…”

“so why you need to be angry and runaway from me like this? Do you know how hard it is for me too?” Kyuhyun taken aback by what Sungmin said, he was right… there was no point for him to runaway from Sungmin like this, especially during this time, when Sungmin had a hard time, when once again  the tears ran down on Sungmin’s cheeks Kyuhyun couldn’t help but feeling guilty about it “I need you more than anyone else, and fyi in case you forget, it’s not completely my fault that our company decided to make a dating scandal for me because one person blackmailed them about our relationship, it’s not what I want, do you think I want this to happen too? remember… I do this thing is completely because of you… for you…” Kyuhyun’s hand trembling, tears dropped from his eyes too, his Sungmin, his boyfriend, his bestfriend, have to suffer because of him… Kyuhyun didn’t know who the hell found them hugging each other few weeks ago and blackmailed their company about it, and their company decided that Sungmin dating scandal will be better than gay scandal, so they’ve chosen Sungmin to be the one who would be on it, Kyuhyun was angry when they told him about it, he would rather whole world know about his relationship with Sungmin better than Sungmin had to fake a date with a girl but Sungmin, as the mature person in their relationship decided that it would be better for Kyuhyun’s career if they never told public about their relationship

“I… I’m sorry min….” Kyuhyun hold Sungmin’s hand tightly as he scared he would lose them “I wasn’t mature enough… in fact I am not mature enough… I’m sorry… I really sorry…. I don’t know why the hell I ran away from it, I forgot that it is my fault too….” Kyuhyun cried while holding Sungmin’s hand, he looked down on it didn’t even dare to look at Sungmin’s eyes “I know I’m a coward to hide from you, even it’s all scripted but still… it does feel real… to be honest I scared… I scared someday I will lose you… to someone else…” finally Kyuhyun admitted the thing that he scared most and the reason why he ran away from Sungmin that day

“idiot….” Sungmin whispered weakly and hug Kyuhyun’s trembling body “you will never lose me… forever…you have my words on that” Kyuhyun hug Sungmin’s back and finally stopped crying

“you are the only one who can makes me cry like this” Kyuhyun told Sungmin  with a hint of jokes on it to loosen the stress they had at that time, Sungmin chuckled because of that

“thank you, but do remember you cried more when your laptop broke” Kyuhyun let go Sungmin’s hug and looked at him confusedly

“did I?” Sungmin nodded with his smile back on his face “you cried a lot too because of me min”

“did I? well stop being so immature so I don’t need to cry anymore” Sungmin grinned

“Nope… not because of that” Kyuhyun smirked

“because of….” Sungmin couldn’t continue of whatever he was going to say when Kyuhyun Pushed him down on the bed and kissed him passionately “uh-oh… I guess now I know what you mean” Sungmin told Kyuhyun when Kyuhyun moved his kiss to Sungmin’s neck

Sungmin woke up on the next morning and smiled when he saw Kyuhyun was starring at him with smile on his face

“I love you… so much…” Sungmin almost cried again when he saw sincerity on Kyuhyun’s eyes when he said that

“I love you too kyu… so much….” Sungmin hugged him and in the end they spend the rest of the day on their bed, forget about all the things happen outside as if the world only belongs to them, indeed, the world only belongs to them.

errr... i know i seldomly ask this but this time please leave a comment for me ;; i want to know if your spirit of Kyumin still alive or not? /i hope it is still/ even only one person it will gives me energy to write for the next fanfic of Kyumin of course, so... please.. only this time ;u; gives you Kyumin pict to boost your energy hahaha